u/Less-Guest-3860

Anybody would talk to me please. It's been 5 weeks of this is anyone want talk?

Literally feels like I'm at a point in my life where I even regardless of how hard I try. I feel like nobody can understand or truly get what's going on in it, even my own family. That's why I feel like they throw me out too

Is anybody try to talk to me and try to understand what I'm going on because there's a lot

In the ride share van on the way home anymore want to chat I'm extremely lonely these days just feel like completely alienated these days

Hey, I've been feeling pretty lonely lately, like I haven't really talked to anyone in weeks. It's making me feel a bit crazy. Does anyone want to chat?

I'm homeless, I tried of it all again but this time it's like final it seems like everyone thinks I have completely lost my mind I think being completely alone and doing but waking up at 3 am and working until 5 pm(for the last 6 years) just to be completely alone with no plans or place to go will make you break your mind. Building these boats I been lit on fire, electrocuted, blinded, lost 60% of my hearing,80% feeling in my hands, beaten, publicly humiliatisted,robbed, blackmailed the fucking list goes on and I did it for her and you and the country

gave everything I could possibly give to her it never was enough because they wanted me to really make them happy ways I could then the resentment and grief that all I do is work and how I'm tired and miserable but I still pushed and pushed did everything possible they asked them that was the problem because I don't want to do it brother in Christ I DON'T WANT TO BE LIVING!

Like it's all my fault I'm fucking loser I just weld and work and tell myself is so important and it doesn't matter it's about the big picture and then I fuck myself because I give it all away now I'm here fucking alone like why would anyone want to be aroud me who the fuck would want to spend there time alone with a dirty poor 5'1 idiot ADHD almost 30 year old idiot

I am just trying so hard to push myself past that edge so they get that life insurance policy I am so tired of everything