u/Lagging_Lantern

fellow arfidists i must know.

so if any of you have birds, you know how you can give them this powder that has a little bit of everything and mix it in their food or water right? so does something like that exist for people? or should i start bulking a bunch of different supplements?

i hope you all understand how much i don't enjoy eating in general. if i had the option to make it so i never have to eat again i would go for it in a heartbeat. however the issue is when all i eat is pancakes and dumplings i'm probably not getting enough of anything. so is there anything i can like mix in my food or drink that will supplement the vitamins and minerals that i need? is that even viable?? have any of you done it?

has anyone here intentionally grown pineappleweed/wild chamomile/whatever? everything i can find about the plant is from people who want to get rid of it or make tea with it/eat it. so has anyone decided to have it just to have it? is it aggressive? will it die if i give it too much care?

i went to the doctor today and asked as bluntly and straightforward as possible how do i get a gender dysphoria diagnosis so i can start HRT. and then they kinda acknowledged my "gender issues" (????) and then immediately went back to my "severe depression"

??? the severe depression is because of the gender dysphoria Maybe if you gave me Hormones instead of Antidepressants i wouldnt be here upping my dose because its not doing anythiiiiiiing because that's not the root of the issue

and anyways now my moms pissed at me and refusing to talk to me because i got irritated and finally snapped that nobody's bothering to acknowledge me for who i am. and then she starts crying that im trying to move things forward too quickly and not giving her time to adjust. that im getting mad shes not trying hard enough.

but like no im mad she's not trying at ALL lol i've been out for 5 years and i still get deadnamed and misgendered a good 70% of the time while i haven't heard my brother deadnamed since it came out like 7 years ago (not saying it should!!!! im glad they can at least respect it). and it's only in private but i still get introduced as my natal sex to people she meets. so i asked her why she's embarrassed by me and i guess that set her off

she also told my dad she's not switching rooms (we had a plan to switch rooms) anymore because it's her "only safe space" in the house (because this nearly 50 year old woman needs a safe place from her teen-aged child). so idk :/

and then i hear "why don't you tell us about this stuff" and THIS my friends is why i never assert myself and just let everyone walk all over me anyways

come in peace, return safely. a simple message from someone who has been in a situation quite like many of you

i often see posts on here from people who arent in the best place mentally, and feel as if theyre letting down the Gods when they arent able to keep up with rituals and practices.

what i want to tell those of you who feel this right now, is that you are not letting your Gods down. you do not need extravagant rituals. you do not need to devote your entire day, every day, for the rest of your life, exclusively to the altar you offer to. i hope that i can offer a new perspective on what it means to worship the Nataru Natarut.

months ago, and honestly for quite a long time in my life, ive struggled with severe depression. ive reached points where i thought i couldnt get any lower, only to get lower. every time i got to a critical point, even when i refused to open up, someone stepped in. always at the right time, when i truly needed it even if i didnt want to admit it, someone showed up and helped me get back up.

so where am i going with this. well, while there are many mundane things to attribute this to, i do truly believe part of this intervention was at the will of the Nataru Natarut. and what ive learned from this, is that the best way to worship the Gods, the best way to show them your love, is to take care of yourself.

it is perfectly alright to step back from the table altar. it is alright if you arent doing tarot readings, playing sistrum, giving offerings, or whatever you do in your personal practice every single day. how i see it, is that your Ka is an altar in itself, and deserves as much care as you wish to give to your physical altars.

if the altar is causing you stress, be it that you have to hide it from an unaccepting family, or that you feel guilt for not sitting next to it as much as youve told yourself you should, or for whatever other reason, then do not force yourself to attend to it. if its truly what you wish then you will find yourself back there when youre in a state that you can handle the task. be lenient, caring, and understanding with yourself. you deserve love, and loving yourself is loving your Gods.

so love yourself, and therefore you will love your Gods. this is a stressful world, and there will be times where thats all you can do about the stress. life prosperity and health to you all, and i wish you all the best in navigating the world

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hi!

this is my second year growing sunflowers (pictured are russian mammoth) and it's going GREAT. i'm extremely pleased. the only issue is i think it's going a little too great. are they going to choke each other out if i dont do something about this?

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