When I entered college, I had no idea how things really worked. The problem is that my peers already seemed serious about exams, CGPA, and SGPA, while I wasn’t even aware of their importance. Since I hadn’t experienced it yet, I didn’t take it seriously. I don’t know where they got that awareness from, but it feels like they’re always one step ahead. With every semester, they seem to know something more than I do, and I’m just catching up.
Bhai mei 2nd year mei hun and agar ye back clear nahi hui toh
3rd year mei register nahi kar paunga , internship nahi kar paunga (on campus)
and loan ruka hua hain already
bhai summer sem mei elective ki back ke liye kya karna hain and clear hoti hain ya nahi ?
how dtu treats u ? like classes clash hoti hain kya ? ya fir dtu ne uske liye kuch provide kiya hain ?
and for off campus internship aapki cg dekhi ? aapka backlog dekha ? aapki skills mei kya kya dekha
and what are the hurdles u have faced along with this ?
civil, my current cg is around 7 I am in 4th sem with 1 active backlog which will get cleared in 6th sem i need internship in tech
do they look at CG ?
do they look at backlog ?
in which field i can easily get internship ? like SDE , i just know DSA and Ml till now
and if classes clash with internship part time or full time then ?
I am fking looser of my life
i wasted my childhood years
i wasted my school life
i wasted my first 2 years of college
No relationships , no social circle , no stable career , tired , anxious , clingy and desperate with ambition
i wasted my potential and brake hopes of people who believe in me
breaking this habit feels like i am doing something
i get dominated easily by people i know that i can handle easily due to just this fking habit
if this habit never in my life , those fking looser group who underestimates me and think i am looser i can chew them like wafers , i can chew their all potential like wafers and through out of my mouth like it's having the bad taste but I am fking looser myself cuz i dont have enough energy to sit 5 hrs a day despite having all the IQ and skills and knowledge and potential
i just showed my potential once to them due to good streak OMGGGG they are wafers to me but this habit is my real enemy , i can play with narcissists (done that before) but not this habit
progress till far
- left songs , caffeine and movies sober for months (except Porn and masturbation )
- done building a simple morning and night routine that serves my daily basic needs
I dont consume caeffine (tea + coffee) , movies , web series and insta and all the short form content and dont watch sports either my social media are github and reddit that's all
and i dont travel much too due to my schedule how will i communicate then ?
how will i improve my skills then ? without these things without breaking my soberity and still communicate and engage people ?
I dont consume caeffine (tea + coffee) , movies , web series and insta and all the short form content and dont watch sports either my social media are github and reddit that's all
and i dont travel much too due to my schedule how will i communicate then ?
how will i improve my skills then ? without these things without breaking my soberity and still communicate and engage people ?
Like anyone who used to have 3 backs and low cg but u cleared it and now ur new cg is good or still the same level
like in my case i have cleared 1 in my current sem and rest 2 in summer sem
pls guide kardo kisi ne kiya ho toh
I was attracted to an narcissist , or you can say she loved bombed me , and it wasted my 4 months of time on a lot of emotional investment and a little bit of financial investment. I thought she was good and ignored all the red flags. Somehow I don't know why, in the beginning of the friendship, but in recent few days I got the reason why I was attracted to her and trying to maintain that friendship
I wasn't attracted to her, but somehow my nervous system knows she has the same pattern. Same fucking familiar bullshit pattern that she has, which my mother follows
<-------- PATTERN ---------->
So the pattern is like that: my mother doesn't give me any affection at all, and all my affection goes to my little sister. I am just the scapegoat of my family, and my sister is the golden child of the family I get all the blame shifting, and I only get affection when I have to do any job or work she assigns me kind of use and throw scene
along with that, when something happens wrong with her, I have to do all the emotional regulation , take all the blame shifting, and it's somehow my duty to soothe her, else I am a cold person. If something happens wrong with me, I have to become independent and self-reliant for this.
and the hook is "may be" they will help me in my bad time
< -------- PATTERN ENDED------------>
and the similar pattern is used by her or my nervous system followed the same pattern with her and reacted the same way I react with her mother. yeah they love bombed me , i truth bombed them and their reaction ? silence and avoidance i was shocked just shocked .....
The realization is that I attracted people; that is just the manifestation of my family members that look familiar. WOW nervous system is so cool thing to research