u/Idonttrustyou3

I am 18f. My mom has always been emotionally unstable and immature. My dad is fucking dumb, runs away from responsibilities and hurts everyone even when he doesn't intend to.

My mom has many difficulties in life as my father has mental disorder (of which she was hidden from before marriage) , has dealt with many hardships.

She barely shows affection or talks nicely, especially with me. When I was a kid , she indirectly shamed me for hugging or kissing her. She did do that but only when she was in the mood. She low-key shamed me or made fun of me if I showed emotions.

I feel like she is jealous of me, atleast subconsciously. When someone calls me pretty she once said it was coz of makeup, when someone complimented me that a color looks good on me , she'd say that it looks good on everyone but she compliments me too bout a Lotta a things

I am preparing for a very big entrance exam for which I have sacrificed and low key isolated myself(2yrd). She still would try to make me make her a coffee or other stuff. When she knows how tired I'd get . She has tormented me, says lies about me when asked, scolded and mocked me for crying, would pick fights with mostly near exams. Would take out her frustration at me after fighting with her husband.

She is realising now that I actually hate her ( I am most trolly leaving this house after a month) and is guilt tripping me and crying..I feel so confused

I am 18f. My mom has always been emotionally unstable and immature. My dad is fucking dumb, runs away from responsibilities and hurts everyone even when he doesn't intend to.

My mom has many difficulties in life as my father has mental disorder (of which she was hidden from before marriage) , has dealt with many hardships.

She barely shows affection or talks nicely, especially with me. When I was a kid , she indirectly shamed me for hugging or kissing her. She did do that but only when she was in the mood. She low-key shamed me or made fun of me if I showed emotions.

I feel like she is jealous of me, atleast subconsciously. When someone calls me pretty she once said it was coz of makeup, when someone complimented me that a color looks good on me , she'd say that it looks good on everyone but she compliments me too bout a Lotta a things

I am preparing for a very big entrance exam for which I have sacrificed and low key isolated myself(2yrd). She still would try to make me make her a coffee or other stuff. When she knows how tired I'd get . She has tormented me, says lies about me when asked, scolded and mocked me for crying, would pick fights with mostly near exams. Would take out her frustration at me after fighting with her husband.

She is realising now that I actually hate her ( I am most trolly leaving this house after a month) and is guilt tripping me and crying..I feel so confused

Ps : Thanks y’all for your comments, I truly appreciate it. I was confused about what I wanted to do. I talked to my brotha (kinda) and he understood and that’s enough coz my dear mother will never do.

I don’t need further perspectives. or comments. but thanks frickin lot

NEET exam is going to get over in a few days. My parents and brother have seen how much I struggled this year, with stress, health issues, and mental breakdowns. They’ve been supportive, and not very pressurizing. Still, I don’t think I’ll be able to crack the exam.

Today, my mom said that after the exam, I’ll have to cook for myself and for her. I don’t have a problem with cooking I actually like it and find it therapeutic. But subconsciously, I expected that after everything, she would take care of me, help me relax, and acknowledge what I went through.

I also noticed that when my brother gave his exam, she didn’t say things like this to him. That made me wonder if it’s because I’m a girl. I’m not sure if I’m making a big deal out of it.

When I told my brother, he said she probably didn’t mean anything bad. Then he asked if I would cook for him too. He is a very good brother he has supported me a lot, helped me in studies, and even contributes money for my preparation. I do want to give back to him.

But I still feel confused. Is something wrong with me for feeling this way? Or are they being unfair? My family has done a lot for me, so I don’t understand why I feel this so intensely. I’ve always reacted to things like this strongly.