u/Green-Squirrel1131

I don’t know if I’m stupid for still thinking this, but a small part of me truly believes that maybe someday we could get back together and actually make it work.

Not in the toxic way where people break up and repeat the same cycle again and again. I mean genuinely coming back stronger, understanding each other better, and building a peaceful happy life together like we once talked about.

Even after everything that happened, I still can’t fully hate you. Some days I miss the little things so much it hurts. The late night talks, random jokes, feeling comfortable around someone without trying too hard. I miss having my person.

Maybe life changes people. Maybe time heals things we couldn’t fix before. Or maybe I’m just holding onto a version of us that doesn’t exist anymore.

But honestly… I still keep that possibility somewhere in my heart.

I don’t really know what to do, so I’m asking here.

I lost her because of my own mistakes. I took her for granted, didn’t give her the attention she deserved, and I hurt her. I only understood her value after she was gone.

Now I miss her every single day. I still think about her, still want to talk to her, but I don’t know if I even have the right anymore.

Part of me wants to try and fix things, to reach out and ask for one more chance. But another part of me feels like I’ve already hurt her enough and maybe I should just leave her alone so she can be happy.

I’m really confused.

Should I try to get her back… or should I just accept what I did and let her go?

What would you do if you were in my place?

I don’t know how to even say this properly… but I messed up my life.

I lost her, and this time it’s even worse because I know exactly why.

There was another girl. And I hate admitting that. I crossed a line I should have never crossed. I could’ve been loyal. I should’ve been loyal. She deserved that from me… and I still chose wrong.

I didn’t realize what I had until it was gone.

Now every day feels heavy. I wake up with regret and go to sleep thinking about her. About how I hurt the one person who truly cared about me. I really loved her… I still do.

And the worst part is, I can’t even blame anything else. It was me. My choices. My mistake.

I traded something real for something temporary… and now I’m left with nothing but guilt and memories.

If I could go back, I would choose her. Every single time.

But I can’t.

So now I just have to live with it… and it’s making me feel miserable every single day.

I don’t usually post stuff like this, but I just need to let it out.

I really miss her.

I didn’t realize how much she meant to me when she was still there. I loved her, I truly did… but I got too comfortable. I took her for granted. I thought she would always stay, no matter what I did or didn’t do, I did worse.

That was my biggest mistake.

Now she’s gone, and I have no idea how she is, what she’s doing, or even if she ever thinks about me. And that silence… it hurts more than anything. Not being able to talk to her, not knowing anything about her life anymore - it feels empty every single day.

The hardest part is thinking that one day, or maybe even now, she might be with someone else. Someone who’s treating her the way I should have. Someone who didn’t make the mistakes I made.

And I hate that it took losing her to understand all this.

If you have someone you love, please don’t take them for granted like I did. Because once they’re gone, you can’t fix it… you just have to live with it.

And it’s painful. Every single day.