u/FuzzyRoyal3804

So I have been diagnosed with Social anxiety disorder and Generalized anxiety disorder. I am seeing a psychiatrist to maybe get medicated again for my two anxiety disorders and depression. But I’ve seen traits of autism and feel I relate to high masking. I am already going to get an autism test but it may take a long time or I might just pay the large amount of money when I have the money.

My question is what are traits high masking women and the women who can’t?

Is it normal to suddenly be hyper fixated on autistic traits and then you feel seen and not anxious the whole day and more like yourself?

Today I started off rough because of my mother but the rest of the day I didn’t feel anxious or overthinking around others or my responsibilities. I felt like “it’s fine to be myself and I don’t have to please anyone by changing myself.” It felt so good and I didn’t focus on my expressions, others opinions and feelings, asking questions, not understanding, being social, my body language, etc. I felt like I could just exist.

But I am not diagnosed and don’t want to self diagnose, maybe this is just me understanding everyone’s different and that I’m not autistic but can relate to certain traits (even if not to a large extent.)

I can tell the obvious AI made pictures, videos, voices, or how they type. But I sometimes fall for AI stuff until I see the comments or someone with me tells me it’s AI. I genuinely get ashamed and embarrassed to the point I feel too old despite being young. I genuinely think it’s real till someone points something out that I missed or didn’t pay attention to, does anyone have any advice or can relate?

I have Social anxiety disorder and Generalized anxiety disorder. I can’t vent to family or friends because they don’t understand or can barely relate. I try to find understanding on other anxiety communities on Reddit but I still feel alone. I feel like I’m just an attention seeking weirdo who can’t get their life together. Can anyone relate or relate in a way? I don’t wish it upon anyone to relate and if someone does I hope it’s past tense and not present. (Also I do want to mention I have a counsellor and I’m seeing a psychiatrist for medication for my anxiety disorders and depression.)

Just wanna first say I have Social anxiety disorder (SAD) and Generalized anxiety disorder (GAD). I am also depressed and going to see a psychiatrist for medication for my anxiety disorders and depression.

I have been posting about my anxieties on different anxiety communities waiting for them to approve of them to be posted or to get at least a couple replies for the ones that were. I was looking for understanding or connection. I needed advice or just wanted to know I wasn’t alone. I feel selfish and self centred because of this.

Especially because the two replies I got was saying it’s good I’m going to see a psychiatrist and the other said I crave attention and that it’ll be best I get out of it. I know these two people meant no harm and only wanted to comfort or give me advice. But I for some reason feel pain. I feel so much pain online and offline, I feel stupid for my thoughts and feelings.

I literally had a panic attack today and the only good response I got was from one guy. It felt amazing and I appreciate him so much despite him being a stranger but it still hurts knowing not my family, friends, or even the people I know are diagnosed like me didn’t react the same way. I know I shouldn’t push expectations or my wants to people, especially online strangers.

it makes me feel like a monster and I know how many other people need more support than me right now. I wish I could just get over it.

I have not been very active on Reddit or I go back and forth between being active and not.

I get some attention on my posts and am very grateful for whatever I can get but I am struggling to get much replies.

I am wondering if I’m going about it wrong or not doing it right. I know that some don’t know how to respond or just don’t want to and that’s okay, I just kinda hope for a reply. I feel impatient and guilty over the fact.

I would love to hear if anyone else has similar experiences and if anyone has any tips I would be ecstatic to hear! Or if you are also currently having this problem I’d love to see if I can help out:)

Everyone can have generalized anxiety or social anxiety and there are many with generalized anxiety disorder or social anxiety disorder. But I haven’t seen much on people who have both. I feel out of place with people who have GAD or SAD and don’t have both, and or they have one of those two and some other disorder. I’m not saying I prefer people to have these disorders because it is horrible having even one of them! But I just sometimes feel alone or like I can’t connect even though I try. I see others have same thoughts, actions, and physical symptoms from the specific individual ones but I never fully feel like “oh wow I’m not alone, these are my people.”

I can’t even get along with people I actually know and no one fully understands me.

quick explanation on my brief understanding of having only one disorder

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Generalized anxiety you feel more in a spiral alone but most likely to have a less harder time distracted with people or out.

Social anxiety you spiral around people or while out but alone you feel less anxious and if not only anxious for a while. (Since there’s always the part of before, during, and after an outing or social event. Forgot to mention even online!)

Also this is just a piece of explaining each one, it’s different and more severe for every individual so don’t take this to heart.

But having both it’s a constant spiral, not feeling safe, always anxious, and can’t shut off your brain.

Outside, with people, and online I am anxious from my social anxiety disorder but then when I am alone and isolated I am anxious because of my generalized anxiety disorder!

please correct me if I got anything wrong and sorry if my typing and communication is bad, I am all over the place. This is just a short explanation on everything. I just feel alone and I’m depressed. I am going to see a psychiatrist for the possibility of medication for my anxiety disorders and depression since before it didn‘t work out well.

I have always been told I text proper, over explanatory, like ai, overly expressive, confusing, etc.

In my view I am just using emojis to express myself, using proper sentences and words to not be dismissive or dry, and detailed so people do not misunderstand or to keep the conversation going smoothly.

It made me realize I am terrible at slang in person but in text I’m okay at it, I text more and longer to the point I’m carrying the conversation, and I feel like I’m the only one spiralling about how to express and text the way every individual does for connection.

I’m also pretty depressed right now and might go on medication for my anxiety and depression (I have a psychiatrist I will be seeing).

I am pretty sure even my texts aren’t actually that good because even now I know I typed this out in a most likely confusing or not proper way. Does anyone else have this problem? My family, friends, and love interest have all said this to me. I feel like I’m going insane because I just want to seem normal and not create drama when people say it’s annoying, that they are trying to fix it for me, or I’m just weird.