u/FrostingNew6219

I passed my evaluation Dec 15th 2025, stopped trading until the new year

And from my first trade back in January till now I have not been profitable and not gotten a payout

I know my strategy works, my backtesting data is below

I don't know if the honest truth is that I just passed that eval out of luck ?

Or I never TRULY understood how to trade my strategy until 2026 markets exposed gaps in my knowledge

I also just cannot translate this success I have backtesting on to my funded account which is soon to be blown

Its just draining, I'll never stop till im profitable there are no thoughts in my mind of quitting

But it's just so weird, this 5 months and still no payout ?? Every week is the same

Would appreciate any insight you guys might have

I know something has to change, I think I got away with being able to pattern trade my strategy in December and from jan to now ive needed a lot more discretion and Iv'e been trying to trade 'patterns' and its not been working

I passed my evaluation Dec 15th 2025, stopped trading until the new year

And from my first trade back in January till now I have not been profitable and not gotten a payout

I know my strategy works, my backtesting data is below

I don't know if the honest truth is that I just passed that eval out of luck ?

Or I never TRULY understood how to trade my strategy until 2026 markets exposed gaps in my knowledge

I also just cannot translate this success I have backtesting on to my funded account which is soon to be blown

Its just draining, I'll never stop till im profitable there are no thoughts in my mind of quitting

But it's just so weird, this 5 months and still no payout ?? Every week is the same

Would appreciate any insight you guys might have

I know something has to change, I think I got away with being able to pattern trade my strategy in December and from jan to now ive needed a lot more discretion and Iv'e been trying to trade 'patterns' and its not been working

https://preview.redd.it/94fmwthh351h1.png?width=1001&format=png&auto=webp&s=43c4ee611c8129be86e711207c7bdd98b972dc1f

I passed my evaluation Dec 15th 2025, stopped trading until the new year

And from my first trade back in January till now I have not been profitable and not gotten a payout

I know my strategy works, my backtesting data is below

I don't know if the honest truth is that I just passed that eval out of luck ?

Or I never TRULY understood how to trade my strategy until 2026 markets exposed gaps in my knowledge

I also just cannot translate this success I have backtesting on to my funded account which is soon to be blown

Its just draining, I'll never stop till im profitable there are no thoughts in my mind of quitting

But it's just so weird, this 5 months and still no payout ?? Every week is the same

Would appreciate any insight you guys might have

I know something has to change, I think I got away with being able to pattern trade my strategy in December and from jan to now ive needed a lot more discretion and Iv'e been trying to trade 'patterns' and its not been working

https://preview.redd.it/abyxcbkj351h1.png?width=1001&format=png&auto=webp&s=3bf33dcbe49fc1ad943935a21a23ef34ce2b0ecd

I passed my evaluation Dec 15th 2025, stopped trading until the new year

And from my first trade back in January till now I have not been profitable and not gotten a payout

I know my strategy works, my backtesting data is below

I don't know if the honest truth is that I just passed that eval out of luck ?

Or I never TRULY understood how to trade my strategy until 2026 markets exposed gaps in my knowledge

I also just cannot translate this success I have backtesting on to my funded account which is soon to be blown

Its just draining, I'll never stop till im profitable there are no thoughts in my mind of quitting

But it's just so weird, this 5 months and still no payout ?? Every week is the same

Would appreciate any insight you guys might have

I know something has to change, I think I got away with being able to pattern trade my strategy in December and from jan to now ive needed a lot more discretion and Iv'e been trying to trade 'patterns' and its not been working

https://preview.redd.it/p44ump2u151h1.png?width=1001&format=png&auto=webp&s=54cdd2c5ec9e26660247bc1f8052cad42b45d759

I have this idea that learning more and watching him will help me read the market better As I only know of the concepts that revolve around my strategy Ofc Ik all the basic confluences etc But would I benefit from watching how he views the market day to day, when I already have a working model

One side of me says there is no harm Another side says there’s no need

Thoughts ?

I took my mum and grandma on umrah last sept, I do believe in god there is no doubt there.

I don't drink I don't mess around with girls

I just do not pray and its not because I don't like to pray, its just there is 0 desire in me, when I see the prayer notification, I just ignore it with 0 guilt, like I used to have guilt and now I feel nothing

I used to at least have a shower at Isha and think ok I might as well do isha now becuase I have wudu, now I dont even do that

I keep all my fasts in ramadan too for the last 5-6 years, ill do all my prayers in ramadan

Just on the day to day there is no desire no guilt, nothing

I have exams, big goals and I need to pray and I need allah to achieve them but theres just no desire to pray and was wondering if anyone has been in the same position and whether they could give any advice

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I have always had this really intense drive to become financially free and successful. I want the nice car (I love cars) , the money, the lifestyle — all of it. If I’m being completely honest, that’s the main thing I’m working towards at the moment, and a huge part of how I measure my future happiness.

My mom has always said that ive been really indulgent since a kid and I do honestly just like nice things, yes its materialistic but I wont bullshit myself and say I dont love having nice things

I don't feel true true happiness and content in any other realm of my life apart from dreaming that ill feel happy once im finally free and have a gt3 outside (car)

And I think I need to find something that does make me truly happy, ofc when I go out with my friends im happy and not thinking about money but I mean on te day to day

The problem is that I don’t feel content in the present without those things. Day to day, it’s hard for me to genuinely say, “I’m happy with my life as it is” when I don’t have a lot of money, don’t have the things I want, or don’t have a Porsche sitting outside. I constantly feel like I’m chasing a version of life that I haven’t reached yet.

I’m honestly jealous of people who don’t want the things I want — people who are genuinely comfortable doing a job they love, who don’t care about money or cars, and who don’t have this burning desire and pressure to make money

Logically, I know I already have a lot to be grateful for. I’m healthy, I have loving parents and opportunities that many people don’t get. I’m aware of that, and I don’t take it for granted.

But emotionally, it still feels like it’s “not enough,” and that thought honestly makes me feel guilty and shallow sometimes.

Just wondering if anyone has advice on this, thanks

I have always had this really intense drive to become financially free and successful. I want the nice car (I love cars) , the money, the lifestyle — all of it. If I’m being completely honest, that’s the main thing I’m working towards at the moment, and a huge part of how I measure my future happiness.

My mom has always said that ive been really indulgent since a kid and I do honestly just like nice things, yes its materialistic but I wont bullshit myself and say I dont love having nice things

I don't feel true true happiness and content in any other realm of my life apart from dreaming that ill feel happy once im finally free and have a gt3 outside (car)

And I think I need to find something that does make me truly happy, ofc when I go out with my friends im happy and not thinking about money but I mean on te day to day

The problem is that I don’t feel content in the present without those things. Day to day, it’s hard for me to genuinely say, “I’m happy with my life as it is” when I don’t have a lot of money, don’t have the things I want, or don’t have a Porsche sitting outside. I constantly feel like I’m chasing a version of life that I haven’t reached yet.

I’m honestly jealous of people who don’t want the things I want — people who are genuinely comfortable doing a job they love, who don’t care about money or cars, and who don’t have this burning desire and pressure to make money

Logically, I know I already have a lot to be grateful for. I’m healthy, I have loving parents and opportunities that many people don’t get. I’m aware of that, and I don’t take it for granted.

But emotionally, it still feels like it’s “not enough,” and that thought honestly makes me feel guilty and shallow sometimes.

Just wondering if anyone has advice on this, thanks

I have always had this really intense drive to become financially free and successful. I want the nice car (I love cars) , the money, the lifestyle — all of it. If I’m being completely honest, that’s the main thing I’m working towards at the moment, and a huge part of how I measure my future happiness.

My mom has always said that ive been really indulgent since a kid and I do honestly just like nice things, yes its materialistic but I wont bullshit myself and say I dont love having nice things

I don't feel true true happiness and content in any other realm of my life apart from dreaming that ill feel happy once im finally free and have a gt3 outside (car)

And I think I need to find something that does make me truly happy, ofc when I go out with my friends im happy and not thinking about money but I mean on te day to day

The problem is that I don’t feel content in the present without those things. Day to day, it’s hard for me to genuinely say, “I’m happy with my life as it is” when I don’t have a lot of money, don’t have the things I want, or don’t have a Porsche sitting outside. I constantly feel like I’m chasing a version of life that I haven’t reached yet.

I’m honestly jealous of people who don’t want the things I want — people who are genuinely comfortable doing a job they love, who don’t care about money or cars, and who don’t have this burning desire and pressure to make money

Logically, I know I already have a lot to be grateful for. I’m healthy, I have loving parents and opportunities that many people don’t get. I’m aware of that, and I don’t take it for granted.

But emotionally, it still feels like it’s “not enough,” and that thought honestly makes me feel guilty and shallow sometimes.

Just wondering if anyone has advice on this, thanks

I never have a fixed risk, ideal case scenario, like when I passed this funded, I would risk 250 every trade

Honestly, been in drawdown ever since I passed my eval in December and haven't gotten a payout

I think a large reason is because I have been changing my risk constantly as I am in drawdown, keeping a 5 trade buffer, say MLL is -1447

I am at -800, ill risk 115 dollars, get to -550, ill risk 180 dollars

Say I end up back down at -900, im risk 90 dollars

I ran a scenario based on my performance with gpt, doing what I currently do, vs using a fixed risk and I would have been way out of drawdown a while ago

Ive just realised that this might be the reason why I have been stuck trying to work myself out of drawdown for so long, because my risk is constantly changing

I usually target 1:3's with 250 risk on my 50 k account

But as ive been in drawdown and close to MLL ive been adjusting my risk constantly and I think thats been keeping me in drawdown this whole time and why I have actually been unprofitable

https://preview.redd.it/hk4r33hcyeyg1.png?width=1068&format=png&auto=webp&s=7cee58bf71ab1e7eb206a57e202e654bcb02c305

Is that logical ? yes not the best month It need work, but I ran that same data with Chat for 250 dolalrs for every loss and every win 750 and its profitable whereas with what I currently do, its not