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So I live in Kazakhstan it’s not working for me but one of my friends live in Afghanistan and I have been recommending her random shows I like and aparat has all of the shows in Farsi, but it’s not working. It used to work, but now it doesn’t work for me or her, so what do I do?

For a long time I believed I was a trans man.

Growing up as a girl in Afghanistan I carried a deep constant sense of discomfort within myself, at the time I didn’t have the language to fully understand where it came from. I just knew that being a girl felt unbearable. When I looked in the mirror I didn’t feel like I belonged in my own body, When I saw my male cousins playing freely outside while I had to stay covered and restricted, I felt a kind of anger and disgust I couldn’t explain. I was filled with utter rage 24/7 about my gender. The way some of the men around me spoke about women, including me, made me feel small, ashamed, and deeply disconnected from myself.

At night I would pray constantly “Why couldn’t I just be a man?” And spend all my times for
A prayer to magically transform
Me into a man

Online I found peace in a lot of queer spaces . I used male pronouns, and people saw me as a boy. That recognition brought me a sense of relief and happiness I hadn’t felt before. Many of my friends were part of the queer community, including trans people, and for the first time I felt understood. I obviously couldn’t medically transition and couldn’t come out to any of my family members, but it was something personal I kept to myself and being a boy brought me a lot of comfort, I started to believe that what I was experiencing might be gender dysphoria.

But everything felt different when I moved out of that shithole of a country. Suddenly my world changed. I could go outside more freely. I didn’t feel constantly watched or judged. I could express myself in ways that felt natural. And slowly I began to feel comfortable being seen as a girl. I started dressing more femininely because I wanted to and it made me happy, I made friends more easily. I felt less ashamed and more like myself.

And for the first time in years, I stopped wishing I were a man.
Now looking back, I don’t have a simple answer for what I experienced, What I do know is that those years mattered. Identifying as trans during my pre-teen and teenage years was a real and meaningful part of my life. It helped me survive and helped me find connection.

I also want to be clear that my experience is my own. It doesn’t invalidate or take away from the very real experiences of trans people. I continue to support trans rights, both in my home country and everywhere else. Everyone deserves the freedom to live as themselves safely and with dignity.

And I am glad I found my peace and I wish for all the Afghan girls and boys to find their peace as well

Everytime I read jojo I have to pull out my big ass iPad and EVEN that is sometimes not enough and i still have to zoom in a lot, the phone is basically unbearable, big respect to people who read it on the phone

I’m 16F, 165 cm, and I’ve always been slightly underweight. For around 1–2 years, my weight stayed super stable at about 45 kg. I never really gained or lost anything, even though I was just eating normal meals with my family.

A while ago I decided to seriously try gaining weight. For about 1-2 month, I started counting calories and aimed for around 2300–2500 calories a day. I put a LOT of effort into it ,waking up earlier, exercising more, drinking smoothies, eating extra portions, buying high protein foods, etc.

I ended up gaining around 2–3 kg and got to about 47–48 kg.

But eventually I got burnt out because it honestly felt exhausting to keep up every day, so I stopped calorie counting and just went back to my normal diet (basically eating whatever my parents make and eating like the rest of my family)

But the thing is…
Before all this, my “normal diet” kept me stable at 45 kg for years. So I assumed if I stopped the weight gain stuff, I’d stay at my new 47-48kg

But I weighed myself again and now I’m suddenly 43 kg??

How did I end up weighing LESS than before I even started? Is this normal after trying to gain weight? Did I somehow mess up my metabolism or something? What do I do

This is something I’ve noticed from friends and discussions, women seem more likely to admit some level of same sex attraction or arousal, but men don’t. Is that a social thing or an actual difference?

So my team is huohuo, Ruan Mei, imbibator lunae and sparkle help pls