u/Final_Biochemist222

I might not even see them in every day life now even if they still are at the same place as well, but their actions and my humiliation flairs up every time my mind is idle

I imagine i could go back and yell at them or humiliate them. Or i could do it in indirect ways like spike their food with laxatives or place nails on their car park.

Anything i do now feels like i would be asking for trouble since there is no opportunity where i will interact with them. If anything, i could face rerpercussions and no one will take my side since they have more friends

I don't know how to channel this anger. If anything the previous experience of humiliation hinders me when things get hard. It makes me doubt myself and make me more sensitive to pressure

I've been told that when i go to the gym each session i have to push myself to complete all the workouts in each regimen and make sure to go to failure on the last set (if it is part of the plan, don't have to fail last set for everything)

However, there are days where im just no feeling it or im too tired to do everything in the plan. Would it be okay to do less or will i be wasting my time?

Obviously 1 session is not gonna make a difference but it's about the long term results and the mindset. If there are some days i slack off I might not achieve as if i was consisent all the way

Looking for any available realm that I can join. A lot of realms already had a lot of people by the time I joined the resources (especially nether) were gone. I'm chill. Usually play 7pm GMT 7+ but don't need to meet all the time. Like we just build our own stuff and make a community

Looking for a realm to join, preferable a fresh start or had just started the server

Many times when people are rude, most people would be pissed at first but then they'll quickly move on. However, for me when someone is rude to me, it genuinely affects my self esteem. And as much I try to get over it, I know it will be a wound that will come and haunt me later down the line. Every time when someone is rude, I feel like I am in the wrong and would immediately be searching for all the things that I could possibly have done wrong in that situation, regardless of whether I was actually 'YTA' or not (from the feedback by my close ones)

I also feel like it's a reflection on me as a person. The fact that they're acting in such a way means that I must be dumb, socially inept, or ugly (look up halo effect, beautiful people get treated better by society). Whatever is the case i feel like to them I'm subhuman. Else why would they think they could treat me in such a way? It makes me not want to interact with society ever again but I still have to every day

Many times when people are rude, most people would be pissed at first but then they'll quickly move on. However, for me when someone is rude to me, it genuinely affects my self esteem. And as much I try to get over it, I know it will be a wound that will come and haunt me later down the line. Every time when someone is rude, I feel like I am in the wrong and would immediately be searching for all the things that I could possibly have done wrong in that situation, regardless of whether I was actually 'YTA' or not (from the feedback by my close ones)

I also feel like it's a reflection on me as a person. The fact that they're acting in such a way means that I must be dumb, socially inept, or ugly (look up halo effect, beautiful people get treated better by society). Whatever is the case i feel like to them I'm subhuman. Else why would they think they could treat me in such a way? It makes me not want to interact with society ever again but I still have to every day

Total newbie to age of sigmar. Ive been looking through warscrolls on wahapedia to see the factions i want to play, but i found this one aspect confusing

Cities of sigmar has 1 dedicated spell lore, Spells of the Collegiate Arcane. Why is there only 1? I thought in age of sigmar there are 8 winds of magic humans can use

I never played old world or 40k before so i don't know. This goes for a lot of other factions as well. It seems like they're supposed to have more lores of magic but realisitcally there's only 1-2

75kg 169cm 24M

Since mid 2024 i started at 75kg and has been on a weight loss + gym (PPL and 2 5k runs). On mid 2025 was when I start eating around 600kcal defecit. Didn't count caloried prior to that. There were periods where i didn't go, maybe an increase of 2-3kg, but on last november i was at my lowest weight of 60kg. I was still somewhat skinny fat and wasn't satisfied

However since november Ive been through a lot of stress regarding my thesis. Stopped going to the gym entirely, got addicted to video game, and got very little sleep. I was at peak burnout. I gained back 15kg, now 75kg. My strength also went down as well. Used to be benching 35kg for 3x10. Best i could do now is 25kg (10,10,8). So the bar and smallest plate on each side.

The thing is now when i think about start going to the gym again there's a lot of baggages. If i start, from now on for at least 1.5 year have to be consistent and force myself even when i don't want to. And even if I managed to do that for so long, 4 month of disregulation could ruin it all again, and my past failure of weight gain is the proof

Also, it's like when you see someone suck at something and they keep trying, if they're not getting better you'd just want them to stop right? It's like they're a parody of the actual thing. It's like 'stop it you're wasting everyone's else and your own time. You're not getting any better'

Doing something after failing at it is even harder than starting fresh. I cant trick myself that im starting fresh. It's simply not the truth