Hi, I'm currently trying to make my life more enjoyable by finally living it after solving a lot of my mental health issues, however I live in a small village with the closest population centre being almost an hour away.
I don't enjoy drinking as everytime I do it ends horribly, so how do you find things to do nearby that involve other people my age?
Long story short, me and a friend got a little drunk and I confessed to her, she was nice about it, before telling me far too much info that hurt to hear.
Fast forward about 3 weeks and I'm still not doing perfect, we were meant to go to the pub again and I kept trying to give her a way out, mentioning it'd probably happen again etc but she didn't care despite making it very clear she doesn't like me.
She then asked why I had to make things complicated and that we were just having a laugh and we could have a laugh again, told her I just need more time physically away from her.
She seems a bit annoyed by it since she doesn't respond the same as she used too, and since I mentioned my life plans now that I feel the only thing keeping me here is gone, she's got more distant, I want to try save the friendship, but I don't know if it's possible.
People say you're meant to feel better after confessing and knowing the truth but honestly this is my first time with this, and I feel gutted I did it, and wish I never had.
We went to have a drink together and I ended up blurting out I was into her and praising her and doing all sorts of embarrassing things, she was nice about it before telling me far more than I needed to know about her own love life.
Tried going back to normal afterwards as we were gonna drink again saturday, but I couldn't so I told her that, and she then asked why I had to make it complicated when we were two friends down the pun having a laugh. I then told her I just needed some time away from her physically since she's an overall awful texter lol and her personality does not show through text at all.
However since then it seems like she's mad at me, and doesn't respond to me often and seems to take everything I saw as a slight against her, despite me returning to how we used to talk in the friendship. I don't know what to do if I'm being honest, she confuses the hell out of me even though I'm definitely feeling far better than I am.
I fear she might be mad at me for mentioning my future life plans which involve not being near her anymore, as she has few friends.
I really want to keep the friendship going, how do I completely move on from her while trying to not hurt her?
I'm currently working full time but have decided I want to experience university and find a job I'd enjoy, currently I'm looking into History or Psychology based degrees as both bring me great interest, however I have only gotten a Secondary School education, does anyone have suggestions on how I could go about this?