u/Feeling-Impact-7915

Hey everyone, 19m here. I have a crush on my classmate in faculty, i know it’s too soon to think about a relationship since i have a long way to finish my studies and find a job then save up money etc. but i like this girl she’s cute smart well mannered, and she’s been on my mind for few months. We talked a little but I’m hesitant about showing her my real intentions. Waiting to build up myself sounds overwhelming because simply im in a competition with older men who got their things done over girls my age. I just don’t want to lose her. How can i bring that up without sounding needy or creepy? How do i know if they’re really a good person or it’s just what they appear to be?

I like this girl in my class we talk from time to time online only. Im too shy to talk with her irl and even when we talk online the convo gets awkward and dry very quickly then we go days without talking and she never initiates unless it’s an “exam check up”. I really like her but i don’t think im good enough to shoot my shot. If i was more confident at least i would get a better chance. What should i do? She’s not the type that talks with guys or into dating i mean that’s a trait i actually want but at the same time im no different from anyone, what could possibly make her like me back? Also it’s awkward to go from friends to a relationship, i know for sure we won’t speak ever again if she rejects me. I will meet her tmrw and idk how to act, and i think im wasting time and someone could reach out to her first. She’s been in my mind for months. Help me, maybe i could open up relationship related topics first to make things less stressful idk

I want your help please don’t skip, instead of writing a paragraph that no one wants to read i will just type out my problems: physical isolation (home alone all the time), no self worth/shame (for some reason i think i don’t deserve to live), social anxiety, poor hygiene and depression, fragmented sleep schedule +hypersomnia, not being able to concentrate on anything i can never finish a book or listen to a long video and my mind wanders mid class everyday, laziness and dependency (example if my mom doesn’t make me food i might not eat the whole day), behavioral addiction to porn and masturbation.