It's a drumless & avant-garde antiwork anthem. Also about a song about leaving your 20s. A song to piss off overly technical producers/musicians, especiallt those who won't shut up about music theory. So I broke it. I stepped off of every "rules."
Sobrang isolating maging ace, 'no? Like, in my town, I'm probably the only one. And since I don't go around announcing my sexuality in real lfe, deliberate, no one knows. Everywhere we look, it's a hypersexualised world, and all of it is so overwhelming & overbearing to me as an asexual. Kahit sa sub na 'to, no offence, the most dominating threads are understandably about genitals, penises, fucking, butts, hot bodies, and etc.
I can't relate to the most mainstream queer experience/culture. Back when I still didn't know I was ace, at least I knew I had my body to give. When I realised I was ace, I denied it because how could someone love me if I can't offer my body since I am not textbook attractive (believe me, this isn't the issue. I don't really care if people find me good-looking or not), and now that I am ace, who finds sex revolting, now what?
The only times I've ever seen myself represented in media were fictional characters. Once with Florence in Sex Education and the other was a fucking cartoon character from Bojack Horseman.
I'm so sick of everyone making me feel like I'm sick and broken just because I'm not dating or having sex like most people as if I didn't already feel like that myself since time immemorial.
I don't really need advice. Especially from people who have sex. This is the kind of queer experience that many people in this sub would never understand. I don't want to be touched and I don't want a naked penis or vagina anywhere near me and yes, sometimes I feel lonely, but that's not the reason why. Never yata magiging aware ang mga Pinoy na hindi lang gays, bisexuals, lesbians, pansexuals, and trans ang bumubuo sa queer community.