I am she, she who is failing and crying
She used to be one of those “gifted” kids in school.
95% in 10th boards.
Teachers loved her.
Relatives kept saying she would definitely get into an IIT someday.
And for a while, she believed it too.
Then 11th started.
Everyday became the same thing over and over again.
School.
Coaching.
Homework.
Mocks.
Stress.
Sleep.
She slowly stopped talking to friends as much.
Stopped watching movies.
Stopped going out.
Even using her phone started making her feel guilty.
Because in her head, every minute not spent studying felt like she was falling behind.
The scary part is she genuinely worked hard.
Not some “studied 16 hours daily” type hard work.
But enough to sacrifice most of her teenage life for this exam.
And still, when JEE results came, her percentile wasn’t even close to what she expected.
She laughed it off in front of people.
Said “it’s okay” and “I didn’t study enough anyway”.
But later that night she cried alone because deep down she knew she actually tried.
Now BITSAT is the only thing she has left and the pressure is getting worse everyday.
Everyone around her keeps saying
“just work harder for one more month”
But nobody realizes she’s already mentally exhausted.
At this point she’s not even scared of hard questions anymore.
She’s scared of trying again and still failing.