I (17) was groomed from the ages 14-17. on and off by an older "friend" (27). I have on and off with contact with him for past 3 years. recently something happened after I went no contact and I can't get myself to cope. How do you deal with it?
I'll be fasting for about 5 days. I had a high cal meal yesterday. but have been fasting for a whole day now. any recommendations for supplements would be appreciated so my hair doesn't fall out(can It fall out just hy starving for 4 days?). I have calcium, iron supplement should I take them while fasting? or just stick to multivitamins.
(note: this is not an ed promoting post btw, please don't encourage anyone to engage in eds or unhealthy eating or lifestyle habits) So I have a curious bug up my ass and I want to see how much a weak person can push the human body if in a state of survival. I'll be documenting my "progress" i.e. whatever changes I will see. apart from the standard stuff (weight, height, body measurements, food noise, metabolic activities, physical strength) what should I measure? I am looking to do an experiment on myself, Ik it's not equivalent to a proper study with control groups, but I am trying to do an anecdotal analysis of my experience and compare it to myself. What measures should I take? Should I take supplements during this experiment? How can I push myself in one session?(without causing permanent damage) what workouts would be best to track my progress considering I can't pay for a gym atm? (man as I am writing this I am getting hit with the realisation of how fcking ragged ass this idea is if I can't track shit properly) although I'll see If I can summon some money to get a blood test before and afterwards even though I am still too broke (f me) any other thing I am missing out on? anything you would suggest? How to make ut accurate?
PS: please don't flame me in the comments for this fckass idea, I'll be going through with this regardless, so help me out in making this accurate as possible, a suggestion would be nice.
So I have a very sensitive nervous system due a shame and trauma, caused by an abusive environment where humiliation is used a tool of control. so now every interaction I have with anyone, even where I am not in the wrong, it takes all over my nervous system, it triggers those "shame attacks" I feel awful and concious even tho there's no reason for me and my concious mind is aware that I don't. And that sometimes triggers my self harm.
Even the slightest bit of confrontation, even those that concludes me as "right" also triggers these "shame attacks". it's like anxiety attacks but with shame and guilt instead.
So I have a very sensitive nervous system due a shame and trauma, caused by an abusive environment where humiliation is used a tool of control. so now every interaction I have with anyone, even where I am not in the wrong, it takes all over my nervous system, it triggers those "shame attacks" I feel awful and concious even tho there's no reason for me and my concious mind is aware that I don't. And that sometimes triggers my self harm. Even the slightest bit of confrontation that concludes me as "right" also triggers these "shame attacks". it's like anxiety attacks but with shame and guilt instead.
it's really good intricate work in the background. but the headpiece the girl in pink is wearing is making me suspicious.
I have no idea of the process as I don't design stuff or make it often. and I need real person input on where to start, I'll figure the rest out myself or Wikipedia is there. I don't know engineering terms either, my phone is basically a portable junk box and can't handle much without overheating, so please reccommend an app while taking that into account. Any tips or apps on how to make an effective design and what process do engineers follow to keep productivity high and effectively design something are highly appreciated. thx in advance y'all. :)
Is it correct? can someone record themselves making a fist so I can copy it? I am having a hard time getting the grip right, and my fingers get into weird poses when I grip too hard. I can't find this specific tutorial. I want to learn how throw a punch, not interested in fighting or learning how to box. I just want to learn how to throw a single punch and as hard as I can, (breaking my wrist isn't my goal, but isn't much of an issue either). I won't be fighting anyone, but I wanna practice how to throw one, as hard as I can. appreciate the help in advance.