I need to rant to strangers on the Internet I'm sorry whoever is reading this it's not a nice post and if you yourself are not doing the best then I highly suggest you avoid reading this.

Sunday The 10th Of May was the worst day of my life

Im struggling to eat, I can't focus on even the simplest of tasks, I've been constantly crying, I feel like I could throw up at any moment, I'm struggling to fall asleep, everything is bad.

My mental health is the lowest it's ever been in my life.

I have no one to talk to, I hate everything, I hate my life.

I can't be positive anymore, I literally cant think about what happened without balling my eyes out.

I have no reason to go therapy or tell someone because this isn't something you solve with therapy and I cant even imagine attempting to tell anyone.

My question to everyone, how do you mentally get through something which has really fucked with you mentally? Does it ever get better, or is it always going to be here with me?

I've been wondering about this for a while and I really can't wrap my head around this.

Let's set an example:

Imagine a singular, adult early twenties male with an average build and strength, how would they combat against every enemy.

I'm obviously going to exclude everything passive because that's either an automatic win or a forced draw, like obviously a human is automatically drawing with a rain dear.

In my mind, I feel like using the example the human would potentially be able to take on a small lizard like a blue lizard for example or maybe a spear less scavenger, but with just raw hands it would be tough fights.

How does this change if a human has a spear? Maybe then they'd be able to take on bigger lizards like green potentially?

I'm really just spewing ideas, anyone let me know what you think and how a human with or without a spear would do.

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Im truthfully trying my best to work away these feelings of hatred, but It still resonates inside of me, pure hatred and anger towards this person.

They hurt the person I love most, and I cant possibly forgive them, why would someone hurt someone as innocent and kind as my love, why would they do that, what the fuck is wrong with some people.

I'm working on some cognitive practices to help deal with and put aside these feelings of hatred, and I understand in my heart these feelings come from a place of care for the person I love, but it literally hurts my heart to think how this person hurt her.

Does anyone have any sort of good cognitive strategies or practices that I could use to help deal with these feelings, these feelings sometimes keep me up at night and make me feel nauseous, I really need to be able to move on from this not only for myself but also for her ❤️.

Thank you all, let the evil people of this world be damned.

I'm making this post after having a somewhat tough conversation for the both of us.

I love my girl with all my heart, and as any lovers do, no matter how sunshine and rainbows your love is you will inevitably have difficult times. I believe me and her's love is literally like sunshine and rainbows, but I'm also being practical and preparing for future scenarios because I do INDEED Soo wish for a future with her, which indeed should be the brightest of rainbows.

I am still new to love and I don't know what approaches that successful couples and lovers take to deal with and get through tough conversations and tough times.

I would just like any ideas or approaches that you take to deal and get through those sort of time in a smart, mature and healthy way.

I truly wish the best for me and my love, so I come to strangers online for piece's of guidance 😆 it seems silly in my mind but in all fairness I've actually learned many relationship based skills which I've began implementing for example someone taught me about compartmentalizing which I found to be extremely useful and helpful.

Another piece of advice I kinda just leaned myself is to be VERY clear with each other and not let things build up and tumble all down, it's so unhealthy to behave like that so id rather always be straight up and say what I think at the time rather than let things build up, and in my mind I think it works well.

Anyways yea, any advice, guidance, stories anything I'm all ears,

I wish you all the best with your journeys of love, and I want only the best for my beautiful queen ❤️.

ps: Nab if your reading this HEHEHE HOW DID YOU FIND THIS POST BROOOOO00000000

Disclaimer:

Im not making this post as if I'm worried this honey moon phase will end, like I'm NOT WORRIED ABOUT THAT WHATSOEVER MWAHAHHA, also if you the reader don't have any advice to give then I suggest you go somewhere else instead of reading me yap about how much I love my queen 👑.

I always hear people speaking stuff about how "ohh you have a three months honey moon phase" or like "ohhh after six months everything gets bad" and like before I found the love of my life I always just assumed if I would ever be in any form of relationship it would have a lil Honey moon phase then get a lil worse etc etc...

I've spoken to friends of mine who are in relationships, and it seems there's this big trend of like relationships having a honey moon phase then dying down, like one of my close friends specifically told me "after six months everything gets bad for a short while" and I asked him why that is and I didn't get a straight answer.

All this made me realize was that, this love that I'm experiencing has felt like a never ending honey moon phase, it's been a good four-five months which I know isn't a very long time, but like my current days feel just as exciting and Brilliant if not MORE. Like I don't want to start making assumptions of the future Because in the end I don't know the future, but I have this big feeling of hope that this honey moon phase will just continue as it has been since the beginning, I have SO MANY plans for me and her and like in my mind it just seems like this beautiful and amazing love I'm experiencing is only going to get better. We NEVER argue in fact we don't even get angry at each other, whenever we hangout it seems like its just as exciting as when I first layed eyes on her beautiful soul. We still have so many laughs and jokes, we make amazing memories together and overall I just think that this is only going to get even better than it already is (which in my mind is INSANE to picture because I literally have SOOO MUCH FUNN with her already), and we also communicate SOO WELLL.

Now obviously I could go on for like hours about how amazing this love I'm experiencing is, but I have got a question for you readers:

Does anyone have any sort of tips on how you and your lovers relationship stayed happy, or if things went bad what caused it, any general advice for me and her, ANY thoughts let me know I'll try and respond to each and every single comment.

THANK YOU ALLL ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST ON YOUR JOURNEYS OF LOVE 💕

And to my love if your reading this, BROOOO YOUR ACTUALLY A STALKER HOW DID YOU FIND THIS POST MWHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 😆 BRO I PROMISE IM NOT HIDING THESE REDDIT POSTS FROM YOH LOL 😆 I JUST WANNA KEEP THEM A LIL SUPRISE FOR YOU HEHEHEHEHE