I'm in that phase right now. I am 33 years old and an absolute failure in all aspects of life. No friends, no family, no partner, little savings. Tired of being depressed since 8 years ever since my mother died watching me fail. Have to provide for someone else too. Don't want to continue suffering. Just thinking about ending my life every single day. It's a battle and I'm probably going to lose soon.
Just sitting at home and seeing myself like this at 33 is disgusting. Failure in every area of life, you name it. It's nights like these that hurt the most. This has been going on for 8 years. Mother died when I was 25 and she died watching me fail. And I've failed ever since.
No family. No friends. No partner. No savings. Providing for my father (who I don't consider family, pathetic man and hasn't worked for 2 decades). No guidance or resources to improve myself in my career.
Lost in my career, clinically depressed, diagnosed with ADHD, desk job killing my creativity slowly, overweight by a bit, ugly. Forget dating, no woman even looks at me which is okay because I'm ugly and not rich or accomplished. No one even messages "Hey, how are you?". Tired of life. used to have hobbies long ago like learning music etc but can't afford it and don't have instruments, no pet as I live in a terrible house with terrible people, no support (don't want money), and no idea how to reach my goals. Don't know how to make it as a photographer or visual artist. No guidance or no time to practice due to shit job with shit people at work.
Tired of this life and don't want to live anymore. I'm a burden. Sorry for this sadness.
When it comes to having perspective, trust me, I have it. I work as a journalist but before I also use to write stories for those crowdfunding platforms and I know what most people in our country are going through. I know it and I know my life, materialistically and education-wise, is better than theirs.
I am - a 33 year old failure. With no friends, no family, no savings, no partner. F*cking miserable and thinking about ending it all. Failed in all aspects of life. Don't have money to pursue what I think I'll be good at. Have to provide for a failure of a father who hasn't worked since 25 years. And sleeping on the same bed as him. Rock fucking bottom. Need to end this suffering.
Depressed since 8 years. Spent so much on mental health, therapy, meds - only to gain a lot of weight - some of which I lost with hard work after I stopped the meds. So many aspirations but no determination, consistency, motivation. No one even asks me to workout, no friends care. Everyone has someone. ADHD too. Tired of my pathetic brain.
Thought I'm passionate about something. Getting rejected from everyone and everything.
Overweight, no one calls me or invites me. Forget dating, no girl even looks at me. No one cares if I was gone. Failed my mother. Pathetic.
Yeah yeah, I'm terrible at flirting or anything. Not a romantic too - had several dates/flings which I'm not proud of but not even one long-term relationship. Mother's death fucked me up and apart from that, I'm broke, no family or friends. Rock bottom. Already 33
