u/DeenthemangoYT

for reference at the time i was m15 and she was f16

it’s been a little while since it happened i was going to my ex gfs house to do some pretty normal stuff eat watch a movie her parents were gone for a weekend so we were gonna spend all day together i end up falling asleep while watching the movie in her bed and wake up to my hands tied up behind me on the bed frame and my feet tied up to the bottom with rope i asked her what was going on and to let me out multiple times she responded with i wanna make u feel good we always talked about intimate stuff and i always told her i wasn’t ready because of our age and she was fine with that she uses her hands i can’t get the images out my head i don’t know what to do it hurt so much she kept going after i came multiple times it used her tongue not head just tongue she took a hard wire and shoved it down my tip and a lot more things that hurt so much i dont know if i want to go into detail i was begging for it to end i used to think maybe im not over exaggerating but now i just think im being a little bitch.

once it did end i cut her off she keeps trying ti come back i spoke to her she said what she did was wrong but I’m over exaggerating it

i always did say i would be open to trying hand jobs and stuff but i always made it clear i wasn’t ready and it wasn’t anytime soon

ive never spoken to anyone about it im very ashamed of what happen i spend a lot of time thinking about nothing and how helpless i and stupid and scared i was i feel like a layer of masculinity has been stripped away i felt so not in control and i feel so worthless

is what happen considered rape/sa? or was the me being dumb and a bitch

keep in mind this was pretty long ago and i got a lot better but it’s almost like every time my mind and body just feel it and make sure i remember everything and i don’t know how much longer i can do this im so drained and done

for reference at the time i was m15 and she was f16

it’s been a little while since it happened i was going to my ex gfs house to do some pretty normal stuff eat watch a movie her parents were gone for a weekend so we were gonna spend all day together i end up falling asleep while watching the movie in her bed and wake up to my hands tied up behind me on the bed frame and my feet tied up to the bottom with rope i asked her what was going on and to let me out multiple times she responded with i wanna make u feel good we always talked about intimate stuff and i always told her i wasn’t ready because of our age and she was fine with that she uses her hands i can’t get the images out my head i don’t know what to do it hurt so much she kept going after i came multiple times it used her tongue not head just tongue she took a hard wire and shoved it down my tip and a lot more things that hurt so much i dont know if i want to go into detail i was begging for it to end i used to think maybe im not over exaggerating but now i just think im being a little bitch.

once it did end i cut her off she keeps trying ti come back i spoke to her she said what she did was wrong but I’m over exaggerating it

i always did say i would be open to trying hand jobs and stuff but i always made it clear i wasn’t ready and it wasn’t anytime soon

ive never spoken to anyone about it im very ashamed of what happen i spend a lot of time thinking about nothing and how helpless i and stupid and scared i was i feel like a layer of masculinity has been stripped away i felt so not in control and i feel so worthless

is what happen considered rape/sa? or was the me being dumb and a bitch

keep in mind this was pretty long ago and i got a lot better but it’s almost like every time my mind and body just feel it and make sure i remember everything and i don’t know how much longer i can do this im so drained and done

for reference at the time i was m15 and she was f16

it’s been a little while since it happened i was going to my ex gfs house to do some pretty normal stuff eat watch a movie her parents were gone for a weekend so we were gonna spend all day together i end up falling asleep while watching the movie in her bed and wake up to my hands tied up behind me on the bed frame and my feet tied up to the bottom with rope i asked her what was going on and to let me out multiple times she responded with i wanna make u feel good we always talked about intimate stuff and i always told her i wasn’t ready because of our age and she was fine with that she uses her hands i can’t get the images out my head i don’t know what to do it hurt so much she kept going after i came multiple times it used her tongue not head just tongue she took a hard wire and shoved it down my tip and a lot more things that hurt so much i dont know if i want to go into detail i was begging for it to end i used to think maybe im not over exaggerating but now i just think im being a little bitch.

once it did end i cut her off she keeps trying ti come back i spoke to her she said what she did was wrong but I’m over exaggerating it

i always did say i would be open to trying hand jobs and stuff but i always made it clear i wasn’t ready and it wasn’t anytime soon

ive never spoken to anyone about it im very ashamed of what happen i spend a lot of time thinking about nothing and how helpless i and stupid and scared i was i feel like a layer of masculinity has been stripped away i felt so not in control and i feel so worthless

is what happen considered rape/sa? or was the me being dumb and a bitch

keep in mind this was pretty long ago and i got a lot better but it’s almost like every time my mind and body just feel it and make sure i remember everything and i don’t know how much longer i can do this im so drained and done