I've seen so many psychologists 10+. Now I'm done. I don't think anybody ever gonna understand. And I'm ever gonna heal. I don't Fucking want to do anything about it now. I'm just accepting this as an irreversible something like a permanent lost of something. I'm so done. Im done I'm done.im never gonna be fine and have done a lot now even I myself don't wanna get fine.
Yeah I've seen 8+ psychologists from very new interns to trauma specialised but obviously it's so complex and first of all it takes so much of time to make them understand that it's actually bad. Cz at first they just don't believe and then they see with time and then they agree that yeah it's actually bad and then too I don't feel helped by them. I mean how will they help?
They aren't able to.
What should i do??
Yes bad events have happened and i just can't see myself as anything else but just as victim.
My degree, my hobbies are also a part of me right? but I just see myself as a victim. I'm not able to look myself apart from that trauma. I feel like stuck over there.
Yes environment is also one thing and I changed it started living away from abusers or people who are in contact with my abusers and it was fine for some time
But I smoked wee\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\* and that all trauma hitted me back. So i wasn't Fully healed right?
I don't know how to heal myself? How to look at myself without this trauma?????
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Yes bad events have happened and i just can't see myself as anything else but just as victim.
My degree, my hobbies are also a part of me right? but I just see myself as a victim. I'm not able to look myself apart from that trauma. I feel like stuck over there.
Yes environment is also one thing and I changed it started living away from abusers or people who are in contact with my abusers and it was fine for some time
But I smoked wee\* and that all trauma hitted me back. So i wasn't Fully healed right?
I don't know how to heal myself? How to look at myself without this trauma?????