u/Competitive_Pop9002

Preferably fully furnished, single female, around sector 21.

I will visiting Leh in June starting for Vipassana. I only have the option to explore Leh and probably a bit of outskirts (scooty, not bike; can hire taxi for something specific). Pls suggest things to do. Planning to be in Leh for additional 3-4 days.

(Dont wish to explore Ladakh in entirety as short on time and would travel there in the future when I have more time, at a slower pace; not a fan of rush rush travel)

27. Quit my job last year for UPSC (own decision, not influenced by anyone). Exam is in a few weeks but I have barely prepared. I feel absolutely exhausted and lost. Battled depression for many years. Worked jobs I never liked, have never really achieved anything that society gives credit to.

My family is dysfunctional. Parents have been treating me like a disappointment since 2016 when I couldnt get into any IIT (I was a bright student throughout my schooling) and I feel like I’m a liability and burden on them.

My dad is career oriented. But he’s so career oriented that he thinks cutting a birthday cake is also a sin/waste of time before I achieve something great. Without major achievements, you dont deserve to have fun/enjoy life.

My mom has too much internalised misogyny. I’m just exhausted to always getting a conversation with her ending up in how a woman is supposed to be inferior etc.

In 2024, (no upsc plans then, was working), I was in an extremely toxic relationship (gaslighting, got cheated on 35times, exploitation etc). In 2025, I met another guy (my partner currently). I knew I shouldn’t get into another relationship before healing but he just accepted everything about me (I was very transparent about everything) and I gave in. He’s been a great partner but I think I just expected him to love me so much (basically compensate for the lack of it in every other area of my life) that I used to simply lash out at every single flaw. It got to him and now he snaps back really badly as well and gets super defensive. So yeah, that’s not going well too.

Since April beginning, I’m just constantly anxious. I am crying at the drop of a hat. My chest is always heavy. My stomach is always dropping. I’ve also gained a lot of weight amidst all this.

I really dont know what to do. Where to start. My days dont involve anything. I just doomscroll, eat crap, sleep at erratic hours, stalk my peers and compare myself to them and feel sorry about myself and often get jealous. I even get jealous of my partner who’s progressing in his life.

I’m just exhausted. I feel burdened. Caged. Maybe I’m self pitying too much but after fighting for so many years, rn I feel I have no strength left to continue.

Needless to say, I have major thoughts of ending my life.

27. Quit my job last year for UPSC (own decision, not influenced by anyone). Exam is in a few weeks but I have barely prepared. I feel absolutely exhausted and lost. Battled depression for many years. Worked jobs I never liked, have never really achieved anything that society gives credit to.

My family is dysfunctional. Parents have been treating me like a disappointment since 2016 when I couldnt get into any IIT (I was a bright student throughout my schooling) and I feel like I’m a liability and burden on them.

My dad is career oriented. But he’s so career oriented that he thinks cutting a birthday cake is also a sin/waste of time before I achieve something great. Without major achievements, you dont deserve to have fun/enjoy life.

My mom has too much internalised misogyny. I’m just exhausted to always getting a conversation with her ending up in how a woman is supposed to be inferior etc.

In 2024, (no upsc plans then, was working), I was in an extremely toxic relationship (gaslighting, got cheated on 35times, exploitation etc). In 2025, I met another guy (my partner currently). I knew I shouldn’t get into another relationship before healing but he just accepted everything about me (I was very transparent about everything) and I gave in. He’s been a great partner but I think I just expected him to love me so much (basically compensate for the lack of it in every other area of my life) that I used to simply lash out at every single flaw. It got to him and now he snaps back really badly as well and gets super defensive. So yeah, that’s not going well too.

Since April beginning, I’m just constantly anxious. I am crying at the drop of a hat. My chest is always heavy. My stomach is always dropping. I’ve also gained a lot of weight amidst all this. I constantly wonder about what I’m supposed to do if i dont clear the exam. At times i feel like returning to corporate (which I hated), but then i feel like I dont wish to quit before attempting the exam at least once with all that I have.

I really dont know what to do. Where to start. My days dont involve anything. I just doomscroll, eat crap, sleep at erratic hours, stalk my peers and compare myself to them and feel sorry about myself and often get jealous. I even get jealous of my partner who’s progressing in his life.

I’m just exhausted. I feel burdened. Caged. Maybe I’m self pitying too much but after fighting for so many years, rn I feel I have no strength left to continue.

Needless to say, I have major thoughts of ending my life.

27. Quit my job last year for UPSC (own decision, not influenced by anyone). Exam is in a few weeks but I have barely prepared. I feel absolutely exhausted and lost. Battled depression for many years. Worked jobs I never liked, have never really achieved anything that society gives credit to.

My family is dysfunctional. Parents have been treating me like a disappointment since 2016 when I couldnt get into any IIT (I was a bright student throughout my schooling) and I feel like I’m a liability and burden on them.

My dad is career oriented. But he’s so career oriented that he thinks cutting a birthday cake is also a sin/waste of time before I achieve something great. Without major achievements, you dont deserve to have fun/enjoy life.

My mom has too much internalised misogyny. I’m just exhausted to always getting a conversation with her ending up in how a woman is supposed to be inferior etc.

In 2024, (no upsc plans then, was working), I was in an extremely toxic relationship (gaslighting, got cheated on 35times, exploitation etc). In 2025, I met another guy (my partner currently). I knew I shouldn’t get into another relationship before healing but he just accepted everything about me (I was very transparent about everything) and I gave in. He’s been a great partner but I think I just expected him to love me so much (basically compensate for the lack of it in every other area of my life) that I used to simply lash out at every single flaw. It got to him and now he snaps back really badly as well and gets super defensive. So yeah, that’s not going well too.

Since April beginning, I’m just constantly anxious. I am crying at the drop of a hat. My chest is always heavy. My stomach is always dropping. I’ve also gained a lot of weight amidst all this.

I really dont know what to do. Where to start. My days dont involve anything. I just doomscroll, eat crap, sleep at erratic hours, stalk my peers and compare myself to them and feel sorry about myself and often get jealous. I even get jealous of my partner who’s progressing in his life.

I’m just exhausted. I feel burdened. Caged. Maybe I’m self pitying too much but after fighting for so many years, rn I feel I have no strength left to continue.

Needless to say, I have major thoughts of ending my life.

2020 graduated petroleum engineer from a private college. 5yoe in oil and gas data analytics and sales and marketing. Currently 27. Quit everything last year for UPSC. Aiming for 2-3 serious attempts.

By the time I’m done I’ll be probably 30. The fear of failure in the exam often makes me spiral about what am going to do post 30.

I’m open to returning to oil and gas. Open to explore other career paths too, the money shall be good.

Kindly suggest. Also share stories where you or people you know of completely changed the pace of their careers post 30, with a lacklustre 20s.