brief story
Just want someone to talk to. I only talk about this topic with my husband and now i’m sure I just sound repetitive..
Miscarried a year ago, it started while I was at a relatives baby shower. How ironic and crazy. I was prepared for it happening any day since my OB told me that but had no idea how it would be or feel like or when it would exactly happen that’s why I decided to go to the baby shower bc I didn’t realize it would happen during it.
I don’t want to go into detail about how I felt or how it felt. I don’t want anyone else to be heavily reminded about it, I know this topic is so sensitive..
So basically what hurts me a lot is I remember as I was saying my goodbyes and heading out of the baby shower (when I felt like it was necessary to bc the pain!) I remember the mama to be mentioned if MY mom bugs me for grandchildren/ if she bugs me about it like to have kids. I remember it hit me so hard. It crushed me. You really never know what someone is going through and in that moment it was quite literally the worst moment to say that. I was too stunned but laughed it off and said oh no, my mom doesn’t say that and my mom knows my plan and ha ha someday!
Imagine the courage it took to say that all while actively miscarrying in that exact moment. I’m baffled just thinking about it. Why did I even go? My mom was shocked I even went to the baby shower.
Ok but hear me out the mama to be is a sweetheart, very kind girl, she was high risk pregnancy actually so I wished the best for her and I was happy for her pregnancy genuinely. But I just found the timing to be so strikingly painful. Just wanted to talk to somebody about this. I’ve never shared this with anyone other than my husband.