u/Careful-Relative-815

I moved to upstate NY 3 months ago. My son is in elementary school, diagnosed autism and adhd. He struggles with emotional regulation and communication, but scores high with learning concepts.

The issue-- The school has failed to give him a properly trained aid or classroom environment. They state they'll be evaluating him while repeatedly placing him into a class of 22 other children and a single teacher. This results in outbursts where he is repeatedly suspended. How do you evaluate a child that isn't present? This has him gaining the new attribute of suicidal ideation, at first being a passing mention, but now a mantra repeated for over an hour that I need to talk him through.

He's been suspended for a week and on Monday we have a meeting with the superintendents office to discuss future actions against my 10 year old. I've contacted many "advocate" groups over these months who all have the right **mission statements** and yet take no action to actually help. Does anyone know of an advocate organization that actually does something other than just talk? Because right now it feels like I'm surrounded by a system filled with people who say things to get funding and yet do nothing to actually justify any of it.

To top it off, I'm a single father with full custody to a child who is sent home constantly. I have had to turn down the few job offers that I've had because the school can't take care of my son for even a few hours each day. He's not violent with me, his extended family, or any other environment. So why are the schools so extremely incapable of handling him where there's violence and psychological degradation into a child hoping for death?

Honestly, I'm pissed.

Ive rescued many animals over the years and I'm trying to explain to someone a look/expression that I've only had happy Malinois' give me. It's a nose tilt down at an angle side eye expression. It's happy but snotty when they're being (or about to be) a brat. They fully understand what you're saying but they're saying "nah, I want to mess with you instead". I'm hoping someone knows what I'm talking about and can post a picture of it. I've handled hundreds of breeds but it's just iconic Mali imo

Last night I dreamt of a castle that crumbled. Soon after I built a new one far away. I named it Paradosia, the castle of paradosis. I woke with a start. I'm sure that I had heard that word before and yet it sounded so foreign. It felt weighty and yet I didn't remember the meaning even a little. If you'd like to fall down my morning rabbit hole then keep reading.

🜁 Paradosia, the paradoxical paradosis- Often the word paradosis is used as a word meaning transmission or a handing down of traditions, but it has another meaning: To originate from betrayal. No matter the stones that we use, all bricks eventually erode away. That doesn't diminish the value of the lives and happy laughter that will echo within its halls. In fact, it gives it even more value as it makes its impact and then disappears, never to be exactly repeated. This singular moment holds its own weight, separate from the next.

🜂 We become alien to self and others- To feel as an abstraction of our humanity, it's lonely and yet it is the sort of loneliness that comes from a new sense of awareness and self. We are aliens just before the collapse, the transformation of the self renewed, and it's a diagnostic thought pattern that acknowledges the gap between who we were and who we are yet to become. We can become a paradox within if we know in earnest that it's time to become something completely different.

🜄 "I am only human" is not a comfort nor provocation- Being human is not a pattern or tool. It doesn't define limits or barriers. Saying "I am only human" for either comfort or challenge is to call the experience of being human as if it were the paint, when in fact it is the canvas. The artistic medium. Our pallet, brush strokes, and contrasts aren't held to these limitations. It's why we build rockets, airplanes, and submarines. It's the dreams that we turn into action. We are not only human. Not merely the simple canvas. We are the consciousness upon that canvas. Don't let anyone wash that canvas away with a simple label, even if in that puddle of milky water brings a calmness or comfort.

🜃 Off upon paradosia, we erode- Sure, nothing lasts forever and even bricks will eventually return to the soil. But, the duration of something doesn't reduce its value. The best built castles become the sturdy soil that the next is built upon. The paradox of paradosis is that the most valuable moment, lives lived, and the existence inherited builds upon itself with time. The kingdom will always fall, but your efforts can give firm ground for your family who inherit the land.

I'm just North of Syracuse and I'm wondering if anyone here has experience interacting with city or county government.

From what I can tell, past judicial/law, my local government doesn't exist in any form of action past collecting paychecks. Nonprofits seem to fill gaps of what many government roles are supposed to work towards. Is it better in Syracuse? Because I was looking to volunteer and work hard. I was seeking to interact with an established system to find that people North of you talk a lot, but don't seem to be actively doing anything.

I'm feeling disillusioned on where I've moved and I'm hoping to hear from people who have had positive experiences with a local government that is actively trying to improve its community. Has anyone here tried to participate in local initiatives and achieved anything? Are there groups/departments that you've worked with who have follow through on improving the region and promoting civic pride?

Dream ourselves a narrative,

Romanticized yet true.

Duality lacks complexity,

In the border of me to you.

Define and label,

Ever so stable,

Lies for you to land.

Feet upon shifting sand.