Engaged, slowly building the emotional bonding with her..but
But I'm(29) attracted to her sister a bit more.
I never imagined I would end up in such a confused emotional state, and honestly, I hate myself for it. I walked into this alliance too casually, without thinking deeply enough, and now I feel trapped between guilt, responsibility, and emotions I never expected.
She is genuinely a good person with a nice family, and we are only at the beginning of building emotional bonding. But somewhere along the way, I started feeling more attracted toward her sister, and I feel terrible even admitting that. I have never acted on it or encouraged it in any way, but the feelings are there.
What makes this harder is that I already feel the physical attraction toward my prospect is not fully where I expected it to be. I kept hoping emotional connection would slowly bridge that gap, but instead my mind has become more confused.
Sometimes I honestly feel helpless against my own thoughts, like I created a situation that is unfair to everyone involved. If I could go back in time, I probably would have never entered this setup at all, just to save her from this confusion.