u/Calm-Bluejay1692

this after a drop year?

I was scoring 80+ in mocks now I am getting 45k rank at 50 marks, worst I imagined was JNTU, the best i am getting now is worse than that

I don't want to waste my parents money anymore

For management seat

For a good college, I have to grind hard for BITSAT...

And hope for a miracle

But I can't fuckin study, even if I study without sleeping for 10 days

I still have less than 0.1% chance of clearing bitsat

It's a no for sure

I am trying to be mentally prepared for SNIST, Hyderabad

I can't bring myself to study

I am just checking clgs through rank list, going through every question in key, looking YT for normalization news, doom scrolling reddit with suicidal thoughts

Looking at those IIT motivation reels, I feel like I can't breathe, it's suffocating to look at them

When I try I get scared and back off

Stuck in this since Sunday evening

I don't wanna live anymore,

I can't die either

I should have joined college when I got good rank last year

I got a13k rank last year in eamcet

Took a drop for a big IIT dream

Yesterday

I got 50 marks in eamcet

Probably 40k rank

I was getting VNR ece last year(BC-E category)

Now some random ass colleges

I was always interested in electrical stuff

I don't wanna be a code junkie

Now my parents are talking about management seat...

To get into electrical tech

I need mtech, VLSI, chip design jobs aren't even a thing after btech

I can't say "I will prepare for GATE, i won't sit in placements, I don't care if you sold the house for me"

I have to grab a placement, but in a field I hate (software)

I can see 2 of my dreams being crushed, mtech in a big clg dream, VLSI career....

My parents are angry, cuz I messed up, but they aren't showing it, those crooked faces hurt more than anything else

Feb 2026 was very bad phase for me, not just academically, even personally too

I attempted suicide in feb, brought my dad's BP tablets

Plucked out 6-7 of them, tried to swallow them all

But failed, I was scared

Yesterday

I tried to jump of the terrace, still

Got scared and backed off

Didn't sleep since last night...

Sat on my study chair since 10pm, it's 5:30 now

I won't get any decent college now

The ones I am getting are out of the city, ZERO college life

I can't see a life ahead...

Currently at 0, no friends, toxic family, never played an outdoor game, fat, bad relationship

I can, but not the one I imagined

But the one I considered to be the worst case

I failed trying to die

People say the ones who try that are cowards

What am I then?

Worse than that...

I am such a worthless human being

As every moment passes, I don't wanna see next moment, I don't wanna live

God should either give strength to live, or at least enough courage to die

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Dropper here, got 50 marks today in eamcet

Probably 40k rank

Last year I got 13k rank

Was getting ECE, still took a drop for a big IIT dream

I am not at all interested in Data science and AI stuff

I am into electrical tech

ECE suits my goals

So either I will try an off campus job (ik that semiconductor companies won't visit VNR)

Or prepare for GATE, I will decide later, but it's definitely one of these 2, no third option

But I do need a good clg life, fed up of this prep

I don't wanna join those away from the city shit ass colleges 🥲😭

Should I take management seat, ECE...

How much will it cost?

I might get EIE in counselling but many top clgs won't accept EIE for ECE branch mtech

So I need ECE

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Dropper here, got 50 marks today in eamcet

Probably 40k rank

Last year I got 13k rank

Was getting ECE, still took a drop for a big IIT dream

I am not at all interested in Data science and AI stuff

I am into electrical tech

ECE suits my goals

So either I will try an off campus job (ik that semiconductor companies won't visit VNR)

Or prepare for GATE, I will decide later, but it's definitely one of these 2, no third option

But I do need a good clg life, fed up of this prep

I don't wanna join those away from the city shit ass colleges 🥲😭

Should I take management seat, ECE...

How much will it cost?

I might get EIE in counselling but many top clgs won't accept EIE for ECE branch mtech

So I need ECE

Got 50,even after a drop, probably 40k+ rank

Last year I got 13k

Was getting VNR and CBIT ece with Been reservation

Was getting 70-90 in mocks

Now my parents are talking about management seat...

I am such a failure

I don't see a path ahead now

I was aiming for GATE ECE

If my parents buy a management seat I should kill my IIT mtech dream, I can't aim for GATE, while having a burden tag of management seat, I should try for placements...

And I was always interested in electrical stuff

But there are no placements in electrical tech after btech, I have to aim for software jobs

2 dreams gone

Dropper, failed every other exam

Last hope

Let's see what happens...

Can't find a reliable YT video

Edit: More than 100 people saw this no one replied 😭

Mechanics means these chapters

Motion in a straight line Motion in a place Newton's laws of motion Work power energy System of particles

😭😭

Why are people expecting normalization to increase marks for everyone??

Isn't it like making everyone's score leveled according to Difficulty level of the paper

So half of the people will get there marks reduced than what they saw on screen

Half of us will see an increase

Some madam on vedantu said

"Normalization lo 6 marks taggina students kuda unnaru" Maybe that's for toppers who scored above 120

But still

Reduction of marks is also an equally likely possibility right?

So why all this expectations???

I found all the top clg cutoffs except for jntu

The official ones

Not that SHITksha, collegepravASS, collegeDIHHnia

They all are so inaccurate

It's easy to find but

to anyone who couldn't find,

here are the cutoffs for other top colleges (official)

-CBIT

https://www.cbit.ac.in/wp-content/uploads/2019/05/TGEAPCET-RANK-DATA-2025-26.pdf

-VNR

https://vnrvjiet.ac.in/assets/pdfs/home/2025-TGEAPCET-Cutoff-Ranks.pdf

- vasavi

https://vce.ac.in/admissions/tgeapcet-cutoff.php

These are from official websites of those specific colleges btw

Don't believe in those fake websites

And please help me find JNTUH cutoffs