u/Black1Swan-

Honest advice needed! I was hooking up with a guy the other day and while we were having sex, he quickly pulled away, got dressed, said that he had to go because his mom was texting him and then he left. he did end up texting me the next day and we had some banter back-and-forth, but no immediate effort to meet up again.

Is this as humiliating and embarrassing as I'm making it seem? Did he essentially pull away from me like that because he wasn't hard enough and he couldn't get turned on. Or should I just give him some grace and let it go.

I struggle really bad with self doubt and self hatred. I don't wanna accept that. He walked out on me because he literally wasn't sexually attracted to me, But it might be a possibility. I haven't been able to eat or do things that I normally do. I don't wanna accept the fact that I don't have a nice enough body to be sleeping around. I don't know what to accept and Im having trouble wrapping my head around it.

Please don't give me any sugarcoating or reassurance. I'm here for honesty.

I was hooking up with a guy the other day and while we were having sex, he quickly pulled away, got dressed, said that he had to go because his mom was texting him and then he left. he did end up texting me the next day and we had some banter back-and-forth, but no immediate effort to meet up again.

Is this as humiliating and embarrassing as I'm making it seem? Did he essentially pull away from me like that because he wasn't hard enough and he couldn't get turned on. Or should I just give him some grace and let it go.

I struggle really bad with self doubt and self hatred. I don't wanna accept that. He walked out on me because he literally wasn't sexually attracted to me, But it might be a possibility. I haven't been able to eat or do things that I normally do. I don't wanna accept the fact that I don't have a nice enough body to be sleeping around. I don't know what to accept and Im having trouble wrapping my head around it.

Please don't give me any sugarcoating or reassurance. I'm here for honesty.

Please please please drop your thoughts. I was hooking up with a guy the other day and while we were having sex, he quickly pulled away, got dressed, said that he had to go because his mom was texting him and then he left. he did end up texting me the next day and we had some banter back-and-forth, but no effort to meet up again.

Is this as humiliating and embarrassing as I'm making it seem? Did he essentially pull away from me like that because he wasn't hard enough and he couldn't get turned on. Or should I just give him some grace and let it go.

I've been obsessing over this for so long now I can't stop thinking about it because I lost my virginity to him, and this was only our second encounter. maybe I don't wanna accept the fact that I don't have a nice enough body to be sleeping around. I don't know what to accept and I'm having trouble wrapping my head around it. I struggle really bad with self doubt and self hatred

Please don't give me any sugarcoating or reassurance. I'm here for honesty.

nsfw- I am a girl who just turned 20 and I wake up every day, wishing I lived a different life. I have no relationships. I've never been in a relationship, high school sucked, university sucked, I have no friends left, I have fucking acne all over my body, and the list goes on really.

I started crying about my life at 17, wondering why I didn't have confidence then I started crying about not having friends then I started crying about not having a boyfriend, then my father passing and now I'm feel like I've hit my breaking point.

I don't really feel depressed anymore. I feel more defeat, acceptance and honestly, I really don't care about what happens with my life.

I hate being who I am. I hate the fact that other people have it better than me. I know things could always be worse, but I've been saying that to myself for so many years now. I've been in therapy. I've gone to mental wards.

I am constantly met with tragedy and I'm at a point where I'm so used to it. Nothing except the outdoors has ever made me cherish and appreciate life.

I smoke weed all day, I drive recklessly, I ruin my relationships, I don't save money, I skip out on opportunities. I make stupid decisions

I know there's not much anyone can really say, especially if I am set on this mentality, but I just wanna know if there are others who feel the same way.