u/Bitgammer

how many do i need to ingest to get a trip similar to a tab of acid?

On September 30th of 2024, I decided to try 2 tabs of LSD, my motivation was just to chill and enjoy the experience. I've had already done LSD 15 times before and it always was a good trip. But this time it was different, I could see hands coming out of the corner of the walls and I felt i was dying. I cried alot for the girl I had loved dearly, lost her due to my own immatureness. I have never cried like that in my life.

After the howling cry, everthing felt weird, like existence itself felt weird and I could see a void like space where the stars were connected in geometric shapes, it was a surreal experience and by the end, i started to stutter when I was talking. after 15 hrs it finally started to quite down and I literally had to sleep in my moms room to feel safe.

But the main problem starts now, I had a month left to prepare for my First MMA fight and this ego death amplified all my anxiety and stress. I somehow managed to give my college semeter exams, cut weight for the fight and fight all within a week. I won that fight and the next 3 fights aswell. went 4-0 MMA and 2-1 Jiu jitsu but had to call it a quits cause i cant mentally handle it anymore. its like before the ego death, i enjoyed fighting and working out hard but after it i couldnt see the point of it all, i just fought cause i spent months training and had to fight to satisfy my inner child who always wanted to cage fight.

the months after it was the worse, my mental health drained and i was depressed and as hell. I wasnt that regular in training but i still pushed thru until just 10 days ago i called it a quits cause i just feel the trip fundamentally changed something in me. I am not that aggressive as i was and now i have different goals in life, i want to explore more, earn money etc and not be in one place and train 3 times a day. Got called a pussy/coward by my teammate for quitting but he wont understand my reasons.

regardless the stress i took during those months of exams and fights were the toughest thing i ever did and i am proud of myself for going thru that situation, but saddened by what couldve been a good career in MMA.

26M here, and a buddy of mine, let's call him D, he's also 26 .I've known D since I was 12. He's been nothing but nice to me and I can say is my closest friend.

But ofc as we grow older he moved abroad for 2 years and came back, we hung out and caught up but I can't help but have the feeling that I've outgrown the friendship. Like our choices/priorities are different now.

We both are at the point where we need to make a career, be focused on money and build a life, we even agreed to focus more on our future.

It's different in personalities aswell. D likes to eat alot of junk food, spends parents money/gambling on food. Me on the other hand, I'm very conservative with my money, and I workout alot and follow a strict diet always, so I have to break my routine to accommodate D's plan. I've told him to let me know prior about any outings but literally I can't do every weekend, I can't do boys sleepover every weekend and play 30 rounds of Uno. It's not like D drinks or smoked which would've made it more fun, he just sober rides it.

I'm not saying he's wrong for doing it, but it's just that I'm not having fun hanging out with him these days. He's a great guy, even a better person than me but I just can't spend money i don't have on outing and food which I didn't want to eat in the first place.

It was Ds birthday recently and he asked if I can come for a trip, I said sure and made plans and I had some money saved up so I was all set. D then asked me if I could spare extra 4k for the trip, I asked why and he told me to buy the same watch he has so we could twin during the trip. I found it extremely weird as to why a grown man would want to twin with another.

I told him no straight up and said it was weird. Literally couple hours before the trip 2 of the friends who was supposed to come with us bailed by giving some reason, and I didn't want to go alone for the trip with D and he was insisting. But in the end we cancelled the whole thing and D hasn't responded to my messages.

I honestly feel like a bad guy for doing that to my friend but i just felt he was being wayy too.... What we say acting like a girl. He has extremely bad financial control and would gamble his money and spend alot. He literally asked me for saving advice and just 5 mins later lost 80% on his money gambling.

He never works out or takes care of his diet, and because of him I have to keep cheating on my diet and my goals just to appease my buddy. It's honestly gets tiring when all you want to do is be disciplined, sleep on time and eat well while your buddy just wants to do night outs and eat junk food.

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26M here and I want to study abroad. my qualifications bachelor's in BMM (advertisement and marketing) and currently doing digital marketing course now. I am also a freelance nutritionist.

I want to study abroad and want to pursue masters in marketing or something related, my country of choice is poland

I want to know if it's all worth it to go abroad or not? What are the options and best way to minimise expenditure. Pls lmk, advice will be appreciated

26M here and I want to study abroad. my qualifications bachelor's in BMM (advertisement and marketing) and currently doing digital marketing course now. I am also a freelance nutritionist.

I want to study abroad and want to pursue masters in marketing or something related, my country of choice is canada.

I want to know if it's all worth it to go abroad or not? What are the options and best way to minimise expenditure. Pls lmk, advice will be appreciated

ive done lSD plenty of times before and i am interested in trying this HAWAIIAN BABY WOODROSE. i can order like 5grams, would it be enough? how will the trip be compared to lsd? pls lmk how to ingest etc

So i recently posted about quitting mma to explore other things in life cause MMA was taking my whole focus. I just realised I can do other things in life and be much happier and make more money.

I confided this decision to a close friend/ training partner and I expected support from him but he ended up saying things like , yea "MMA is a tough man sport and you can't do it", "yea you're a bit of a coward".

This took me back a bit cause just recently we talked about where we were in life and my friend was also having financial issues aswell since he's unemployed.

I'm doing courses and all to be employed and earn money, travel abroad and do more things, thought my buddy would be supportive but just got called a pussy instead lmao.

What's with the douchebaggry that comes with MMA? I don't want to spend next 4 years living on peanuts while fighting, probably it's a matter of perspective

26m here. So i was dating this girl 20F (I was 23 at the time)

So i had this horrible retroactive jealousy issue with her and her first ex, the guy who took her virginity. I basically tried my hardest but it just kept making me a bitter person overall. So in the end I made a decision to break up with her. She cried and pleaded but I didn't budge cause at that point I couldn't stand her.

2 years post breakup and it still hurts me but I'm glad I'm out of that. No person is worth your mental peace and well-being even if she is the one.

I don't want to keep competing for 1st place against the dude who had her first cause he would always have the upper hand. So I'll take my losses and leave.

She's happy now and I'm in a better place aswell, it all fell into pieces

M26 here and I am in a bit of a tussle, so a friend of mine, let's call him D, I've known D since 6th grade and I've been friends for like 15 years now, only person close enough to me that I call a "brother".

D is turning 26 soon so me, him and one more friend decided to go to this local place where we can chill, play paintball, and do water sports for his birthday celebration, it's a 2 day boys trip.

The thing is, I have a habit of smoking weed and D and the other guy don't do any thing, neither alcohol nor smoking, they are sober guys meanwhile I like to smoke up and enjoy my time.

But D specifically asked me not to smoke at all during the trip, so this is how the conversation went

D: btw don't smoke weed at all during the trip

Me: why?

D: just don't cause I'm saying so.

Me: if you have a problem with the smoke then I would do it outside the room near a forest area away from you, so the smoke won't bother you.

D: no, idc just don't smoke at all.

Me: why? I'm not doing it infront of you, what's the issue

D: i just don't like you smoking and I don't like it. You can drink alcohol but no smoking.

Me: then fine, i won't do it infront of you. Besides I don't drink alcohol

D: i already told you not to do it, don't argue cause I'll get angry

Me: so? You aren't my dad to tell me what to do, im a grown man who can do what he wants.

D: If you smoke up at all, even if it's not in front of me, I'll take it as you're disrespecting me.

Me: take it however you feel like

So this is how it went, I don't get high and cause trouble, I like to enjoy things and I join in more, I don't get high and go to sleep but for some reason he don't budge and it's irritating me cause what's the harm from me smoking?

M26 here and I am in a bit of a tussle, so a friend of mine, let's call him D, I've known D since 6th grade and I've been friends for like 15 years now, only person close enough to me that I call a "brother".

D is turning 26 soon so me, him and one more friend decided to go to this local place where we can chill, play paintball, and do water sports for his birthday celebration, it's a 2 day boys trip.

The thing is, I have a habit of smoking weed and D and the other guy don't do any thing, neither alcohol nor smoking, they are sober guys meanwhile I like to smoke up and enjoy my time.

But D specifically asked me not to smoke at all during the trip, so this is how the conversation went

D: btw don't smoke weed at all during the trip

Me: why?

D: just don't cause I'm saying so.

Me: if you have a problem with the smoke then I would do it outside the room near a forest area away from you, so the smoke won't bother you.

D: no, idc just don't smoke at all.

Me: why? I'm not doing it infront of you, what's the issue

D: i just don't like you smoking and I don't like it. You can drink alcohol but no smoking.

Me: then fine, i won't do it infront of you. Besides I don't drink alcohol

D: i already told you not to do it, don't argue cause I'll get angry

Me: so? You aren't my dad to tell me what to do, im a grown man who can do what he wants.

D: If you smoke up at all, even if it's not in front of me, I'll take it as you're disrespecting me.

Me: take it however you feel like

So this is how it went, I don't get high and cause trouble, I like to enjoy things and I join in more, I don't get high and go to sleep but for some reason he don't budge and it's irritating me cause what's the harm from me smoking, but he's ok with alcohol. I just find it hypocritical.

UPDATE:- the trip got cancelled last moment cause the 3rd guy bailed. He had called me yesterday regarding Ds behaviour and told me that this is how he always acts. So basically he ditched him

M26 here and I am in a bit of a tussle, so a friend of mine, let's call him D, I've known D since 6th grade and I've been friends for like 15 years now, only person close enough to me that I call a "brother".

D is turning 26 soon so me, him and one more friend decided to go to this local place where we can chill, play paintball, and do water sports for his birthday celebration, it's a 2 day boys trip.

The thing is, I have a habit of smoking weed and D and the other guy don't do any thing, neither alcohol nor smoking, they are sober guys meanwhile I like to smoke up and enjoy my time.

But D specifically asked me not to smoke at all during the trip, so this is how the conversation went

D: btw don't smoke weed at all during the trip

Me: why?

D: just don't cause I'm saying so.

Me: if you have a problem with the smoke then I would do it outside the room near a forest area away from you, so the smoke won't bother you.

D: no, idc just don't smoke at all.

Me: why? I'm not doing it infront of you, what's the issue

D: i just don't like you smoking and I don't like it. You can drink alcohol but no smoking.

Me: then fine, i won't do it infront of you. Besides I don't drink alcohol

D: i already told you not to do it, don't argue cause I'll get angry

Me: so? You aren't my dad to tell me what to do, im a grown man who can do what he wants.

D: If you smoke up at all, even if it's not in front of me, I'll take it as you're disrespecting me.

Me: take it however you feel like

So this is how it went, I don't get high and cause trouble, I like to enjoy things and I join in more, I don't get high and go to sleep but for some reason he don't budge and it's irritating me cause what's the harm from me smoking? AITA if I smoke up during the trip?