When I was in 11th grade in 2025, I met a 12th-grade guy during semester exams — let’s call him Pookie. I instantly liked him, got his Instagram through a friend, and after talking for 9 days, we started dating on 19 Aug 2025. Our relationship became very intense very quickly. We spent a lot of time together, exchanged gifts, went on drives, and got deeply attached emotionally and physically.
Things started getting toxic in November when my friend suggested doing a fake ID loyalty test. Pookie told the fake girl he was single and exchanged numbers with her. I was heartbroken but still gave him another chance because I loved him a lot. Later, during a fight, I drunkenly insulted him and his family in chats with my friend, forgetting that he had my Instagram password. He saw everything, and we broke up on Nov 25.
Even after the breakup, we stayed in contact sometimes. On my birthday in December, he still brought me flowers and gifts, which made moving on even harder. In January, he blocked me saying he wanted to focus on studies, but I reacted badly again and insulted him to his friend out of anger. After that, we only talked a few times in Feb–April before he finally blocked me everywhere for good.
The breakup affected me badly mentally and physically — chest pain, hair fall, shivering, academic downfall, isolating myself, and constantly scrolling for distraction. Now his birthday is on June 5, and I’m confused whether I should wish him or make him a gift since he once cared for me too, or if I should finally let go.