God my ex is so much happier without me. My friend is still talking to her and I can’t handle that. They’re just friends but it scares me that they probably talk shit about me and how I’m a horrible human being (which I am).
If you’re seeing this E I want you to know it’s not your fault. It’s just ever since you left, apart of my soul left with you. I feel a constant ache in my heart and soul. The brain fog won’t go away. Cutting is the only way I can get rid of it. My head hurts all the time. I have a note written for you if you ever want to see it text my mom, she’ll open my phone for you. I hope you find someone better than me tell them everything you told me about your dreams. I’ll haunt them if they don’t help you achieve them.
To C, one of my best friends, thank you for being there for me. I hope you can move on and find a better friend. Hope you and J work out. You seem so happy together. Make a bloodborne or Elden ring or dark souls build in my name that way I’ll be with you forever. I have a note for you too same thing goes ask my mom and she’ll open my phone for you to read it. Goodbye.
To my family, every one of you were so supportive and I’m sorry i couldn’t keep going please take care of my birds for me. I have notes for you too.
Goodbye everyone I know I’m just a fucking failure who doesn’t deserve love.
Bye.