u/Beginning_Farmer_438

Is there any explanation for my situation

I'm gay . Since my childhood. I have been Into man. In this year I met my boyfriend. I was happy bc it's my first gay relationship. I was in love with him. That motivated me to do a lot of gay stuff. Like watching gay porn daily and gay stuff like gay love. MLM edits on TikTok. Gay couples. Gooning everyday. I started getting addicted and hypersexual more and more day after day. My greed got stronger. I have been doing that for like seven months. Only thing I was doing that 24 hours a day. I even quite school for this overstimulation. After while I started to get into toping. Buttoming become less desirable. And desiring to be buttom is less desirable. Toping is easy to be fantasized . Buttoming started on goonig take while. After that even anything start getting less desirable. After while I became kinda into woman. But here me out. I got horny over woman without reason In my class. But here me out what happens. I ignored that point. Then I went home. I did some gay stuff and I got into women more. The More I do something overstimulation the more I get into woman. After while I got depressed bc I didn't want that. It feels weird. I went to store also felt something towards a girl

I quit everything. I started sleeping for like days and rarely eating.

Then I felt gay again

I did overstimulation stuff and I felt drawn to women again

The cycle kept doing that always

I reach point

When I moved to my mom house no overstimulation. Nothing. After something weird happened

Feeling straight after overstimulation And gay after something calming like Showering or sleeping.

Then got back home Get back to overstimulation stuff The more I do gay stuff the More I get into woman more

One day what happened was weird

Bc I used to buttoning. I gooned for toping. After that I became more into woman And man is not interesting anymore

Any explanation?

Now I rarely have arousal for man

The things weird after that overstimulation I feel everything towards woman

Like attraction and pleasure and feelings and everything

I think intense overstimulation ruined me

Any explanation for my case I hope it's not sexuality shift.😔😔 I hope I find out what happened to me

Is there any explanation for my situation

I'm gay . Since my childhood. I have been Into man. In this year I met my boyfriend. I was happy bc it's my first gay relationship. I was in love with him. That motivated me to do a lot of gay stuff. Like watching gay porn daily and gay stuff like gay love. MLM edits on TikTok. Gay couples. Gooning everyday. I started getting addicted and hypersexual more and more day after day. My greed got stronger. I have been doing that for like seven months. Only thing I was doing that 24 hours a day. I even quite school for this overstimulation. After while I started to get into toping. Buttoming become less desirable. And desiring to be buttom is less desirable. Toping is easy to be fantasized . Buttoming started on goonig take while. After that even anything start getting less desirable. After while I became kinda into woman. But here me out. I got horny over woman without reason In my class. But here me out what happens. I ignored that point. Then I went home. I did some gay stuff and I got into women more. The More I do something overstimulation the more I get into woman. After while I got depressed bc I didn't want that. It feels weird. I went to store also felt something towards a girl

I quit everything. I started sleeping for like days and rarely eating.

Then I felt gay again

I did overstimulation stuff and I felt drawn to women again

The cycle kept doing that always

I reach point

When I moved to my mom house no overstimulation. Nothing. After something weird happened

Feeling straight after overstimulation And gay after something calming like Showering or sleeping.

Then got back home Get back to overstimulation stuff The more I do gay stuff the More I get into woman more

One day what happened was weird

Bc I used to buttoning. I gooned for toping. After that I became more into woman And man is not interesting anymore

Any explanation?

Now I rarely have arousal for man

The things weird after that overstimulation I feel everything towards woman

Like attraction and pleasure and feelings and everything

I think intense overstimulation ruined me

Any explanation for my case I hope it's not sexuality shift.😔😔 I hope I find out what happened to me

Hey I hope anyone understand that if that have to do with neurology I have been gay my whole life I noticed attracted to man since I was kid Okay when I became 18

I moved to another city so I could express my sexuality freely as a gay man. I started accepting myself more and getting into LGBTQ+ culture. I started dating men. I was happy because it was my first gay relationship and I felt in love. After that, I started watching more gay content — MLM, BL, gay love, and sometimes porn. It slowly became pmore frequent. I started doing sexual stimulation more often, almost daily. It started becoming a habit. It took more of my time, and I wasn’t really focused on much else except eating and sleeping. During summer, I focused even more on gay content and psexual stimulation. It became more intense. I met my first boyfriend. I was really happy because I felt like I finally found someone. That made me more into it emotionally and sexually. After we broke up, I met another boyfriend. That prelationship felt more healthy, and I was happy, but I was still very focused on gay content and stimulation. pAfter that, my whole day became mostly gay content and sexual stimulation. It became a cycle. I was doing it a lot every day, and I stopped focusing on school and other things. This lasted for pabout 5 months. After a while, things started changing. My sexual arousal started getting weaker each day. Then I started noticing something about women. At first I ignored it, but it kept appearing. In class one day, I tested myself by looking at a girl. I got aroused and horny, but it felt different — it felt compulsive and not normal. I felt like I couldn’t control it. After that, I went home and tried to go back to gay content and what I used to do. But I started pnoticing thoughts about women appearing more often. PI ignored it . Went to my mom house. After a while, I moved to my mom’s house. There was less sexual stimulation there. In that time, I started feeling more like my gay self again. But it wasn’t stable. It changed depending on my state. After showering or sleeping, I felt more gay again. But when I went back to sexual stimulation, things would change again and become confusing. Then I went back home and things got worse again. I started feeling emotionally numb pand like I lost feelings. My sexual desire also got weaker.0p At one point, I tried to force myself to feel attraction toward men, but it gave me headaches. Over time, I noticed a pattern: when I did more sexual stimulation, things became more confusing. When I stopped or reduced it, I felt more like my earlier self again. Now my attraction feels unstable. It changes depending on my state. Sometimes more toward men, sometimes noticing women, and sometimes feeling numb or disconnected.

Why they more I do gay stuff I feel drawn to women

And I what is that

Is there any explanation

Isn't in neology sexuality stable and don't shift????

What is that why go back and further

I'm gay . Since my childhood. I have been Into man. In this year I met my boyfriend. I was happy bc it's my first gay relationship. I was in love with him. That motivated me to do a lot of gay stuff. Like watching gay porn daily and gay stuff like gay love. MLM edits on TikTok. Gay couples. Gooning everyday. I started getting addicted and hypersexual more and more day after day. My greed got stronger. I have been doing that for like seven months. Only thing I was doing that 24 hours a day. I even quite school for this overstimulation. After while I started to get into toping. Buttoming become less desirable. And desiring to be buttom is less desirable. Toping is easy to be fantasized . Buttoming started on goonig take while. After that even anything start getting less desirable. After while I became kinda into woman. But here me out. I got horny over woman without reason In my class. But here me out what happens. I ignored that point. Then I went home. I did some gay stuff and I got into women more. The More I do something overstimulation the more I get into woman. After while I got depressed bc I didn't want that. It feels weird. I went to store also felt something towards a girl

I quit everything. I started sleeping for like days and rarely eating.

Then I felt gay again

I did overstimulation stuff and I felt drawn to women again

The cycle kept doing that always

I reach point

When I moved to my mom house no overstimulation. Nothing. After something weird happened

Feeling straight after overstimulation And gay after something calming like Showering or sleeping.

Then got back home Get back to overstimulation stuff The more I do gay stuff the More I get into woman more

One day what happened was weird

Bc I used to buttoning. I gooned for toping. After that I became more into woman And man is not interesting anymore

Any explanation?

Now I rarely have arousal for man

The things weird after that overstimulation I feel everything towards woman

Like attraction and pleasure and feelings and everything

I think intense overstimulation ruined me

Any explanation for my case