The more I see attractive cis men at Goodwill because I work at Goodwill. The more I want to transition from female to male more than anything else just because these cisgender men are naturally being called he/him. And the mustaches and the beards are just so intriguing to me. I mean I know it’s hard to be trans in America right now. But I am tired of feeling miserable. I am tired of being a woman.
When I was 11 years old I had crushes on both guys and girls but I grew up in a very religious, conservative small town. So I decided to repress my feelings for girls. Then 7 years later when I turned 18 years old I realized that I am bisexual and came out of the closet every chance I could. I had first queer love with a woman when I was 19 years old. I am 26 years old so I have been out of the closet for 8 years and now I want to transition from female to male. I know that I will still be bisexual regardless of gender identity. I just need encouragement.
Do anyone else get ominous nightmares from having dysphoria? Last night my nightmares were intense. And the common theme throughout my nightmares was that if I stay a woman then I will die a horrible death. I am pre-transition at 26 years old and I am ready to transition from female to male because I have been dealing with gender dysphoria since I was 11 years old. I realized this year that I want to become a man because at this point my dysphoria is unbearable. I am not suicidal and I am not mentally unstable. I have been on the right meds for 2 years now for my anxiety and depression. And I am mentally stable.
I am 26 years old and my period cramps are just getting worse. So last night I threw up because I was experiencing nausea on my period because this is the second time I’ve thrown up since my last period. I know it’s called period flu but it’s hard enough with my gender dysphoria that causes me, mental and emotional pain. I don’t know what to do. Should I tell the doctor at my gender affirming care appointment that I keep experiencing this?
I came out to my little sister yesterday and she is a 24 year old lesbian. But she doesn’t support me wanting to become a trans man. I just don’t know what to do. She is okay if I present as male by using he/him pronouns and getting a guy haircut but she doesn’t support me wanting to get started on testosterone gel because she thinks that it will mess up my body. How do I deal with this? She also wants me to come out as a trans man to our super religious mother who didn’t take well that my little sister is a lesbian and our mom didn’t take well that I am bisexual. So yeah how do I make sure that I don’t get outted by my little sister?
I have been celibate for a year and 3 months because I want a deep emotional connection before making out and anything else. And I have only fallen in love once in my life but that was 7 years ago. I am just trying to figure how being a greyromantic bisexual, because it’s hard enough explaining what bisexuality is. And I just want to know how to explain being greyromantic is without confusing anyone. Is there a basic definition of greyromantic?