u/BallAccomplished1669

I'm currently sending CVs but I'm unsure if I should put the name of the company where I'm working. It's an infamous company here in the tourism industry and I've seen a lot of understanding towards previous employees who've quit or have been fired.

But in my case the smear campaign is worse, they're accusing me of being a snitch to the owner of the company and causing property damage in secret, so basically if being untrustworthy.

And here in the touristic industry rumours fly fast, so I'm not sure what to do. Should I write that I'm currently employed here? Should I talk shit about this place in the new company that interests me?

What if they talk to people here and they hear the smear campaign? I'm super paranoid not gonna lie, small country small town, I'm about to leave the country anyways but I need to be employed here for the money this summer.

Well, everywhere I go since childhood every time I encounter a narc they always become hostile and obsessed with pushing me out.

When I was a child it was the narcissistic relative who wanted to kick me out on the streets and had to fight tooth and nails until they made it even if it took them years.

Then it was a college professor, then in the last two workplaces. Even an ex-roommate did that.

And all of them were either malignant or vulnerable narcissists, I can even predict them now. But why are they always so obsessed with pushing me out? Why me and not others?

I don't do anything to them, but they always turn hostile towards me, from yelling at me to humiliating me in public, and then turn super nasty to try to push me out no matter what.

Why is that? Why do they hate me so much?

I'm in a hostile working environment trying to survive the tourist season because of financial reasons, but every day is rough, hard, and I wish I had somewhere better to be at.

If I had somewhere better to be I'd be there. If I had someone who hugged me I'd be in their arms. If I had someone else I'd be with them. If only I had any of those things.

But I don't and that's something I must live with. It's just a stupid job in tourism, but at the same time it's the job in tourism that I need right now.

I just want a hug. A big, warm, protective hug.