Can someone please tell me if my schedule is okay.. and if the science breadth requirements and the options i chose are alright.
(1st head cmmb student)
It takes around an hour 30 minutes by bus to get to uni!
not too sure abt the gaps in my schedule since i cant rly go home till im done all my classes.
ALSO if i end up getting a job, which semester should i do it for 🤔🤔 (i have no idea which classes will absolutely kill me)
Ever since I was a child, my parents were constantly fighting and arguing with eachother. My dad is an alcoholic and my mom has pure hatred for alcoholics. I have a clear memory of when i was around 4-5 years old, of seeing my mom take a knife and slash my dad’s leg. I witnessed these things yet stayed silent.
fast forward, I am in middle school and I start to gain consciousness on the severity of my situation. My heart grew bitter towards my parents—specifically my mom since she always treated me like trash, saying i was ugly or condemning me for not being a christian (she still forces me to go to church). I was always jealous of people who had “normal“ parent, why did i get doomed into this life? my body was always in fight or flight mode, i remember my 9th grade english teacher sternly telling me off for not bringing my reading book—I cried, i felt scared and shaky. hearing such tones in her voice just triggered something in me, i grew up in a toxic household and my body paid the price.
Fast forward again, im in highschool now. Life is okay, my parents are usually “chill” every 5 months or so, I’ve gotten accustomed to them yelling at eachother. I needed something to take my mind off my situation, so my academics it was. I achieved high grades, but the pressure i put on myself was immense. When I applied for university in the fall last year, and didn’t get early acceptance, i got depression. I cut myself, thought about overdosing, all of that over some university. nothing was getting better, even after getting accepted this february into uni, i was still depressed.
I started to realize now that, my sad and mundane life, is only this bad because i don’t make any efforts to see the good in life. I always thought that it would get better in the future but it never did. I asked myself, “what am i waiting around for? a god? a hot boyfriend? a millionaire?”
I am not moving away for uni due to financial reasons, so my environment will make it hard for me to find the good in life, but i now want to just make a change. i want to try being positive, i want to not only worry about others—but myself too.
My life will only turn around if I decide to make the change, whether i am living with my parents or not— i can’t live in hatred my whole entire life.
I am going to graduate in a month, and i will take pride in what i have in this life, no matter how traumatic my childhood was, it was not my fault, and there was nothing i could’ve done to change it, it’s in the past so i can only learn to grow from it now.
And thus, the flower only blooms if you water it. You will only find happiness if YOU put in the effort.
Okay so i’m going into my first year of uni this fall (cmmb) and while i never had any interest in going out of calgary, i am NOW thinking abt dental hygiene at UBC. (Although i did hear that dental hygiene is a very physically demanding job)
I went into cmmb with plans for dentistry or pharmacy. I already knew that the chances for my getting into dental school is VERY VERY slim, i know there’s like no shot for me but i still applied to cmmb because I just like science.
I’m now thinking that maybe i should’ve done dental hygiene because it is less schooling than a dentist, and it’s still related in the dentistry department. I know that transferring is super hard so idk..
what can i even do with cmmb degree at this point, i like science but i also want to get paid pretty well. I don’t want to spend so many years of my life paying of debts too.
will i be wasting a year of my life (and money) for cmmb? or should i just commit to cmmb, is there any good job prospect.
YES, i did apply to cmmb knowing that a lot of ppl end up working at mcdonalds okay..i was js a 16 year old not knowing anything 🥹
Okay so, im in my final year of highschool and i will be graduating soon.
I had a crush on this one guy since 10th grade (1st year of hs), i lowkey don’t even know why, i’ve said maybe one sentence to him back in 10th grade, and im not close with him AT ALL. I think I just like him look wise, but i also notice that he’s a very quiet person and kind person (hard to find these things in a guy)
He is a very closed off person, whenever i see him he’s alone, and i only know that he has maybe one friend (that i know of). He is also maybe seen as an outcast at school idk? (he wears his hair over his face but i lowkey love that)
however, after looking at one of his posts in tiktok i lowkey think he might be gay…NOT SURE THO but probably hahahhahahah. the post said “wow, pride is good” in june
obviously i can’t control that he’s gay, i mean im bisexual myself so no shame. but in debating if i should even confess to him and tell him i want to get to know him more. i doubt he knows me but idk if imma regret it in the future cuz ill never see him after graduating
save me from this 3 year crush.
yes ik this post might be very silly but still, send help.