I’m a guy turning 18 this week and he’s 21. (Age of consent here is 16)
We’ve been hooking up casually the last month and I lost my v-card to him. I have severe scars all over my thighs which I’ve always been so self conscious and insecure about(I’m all good now) He was so sweet and understanding. He’s a really kind guy and it felt good knowing he wasn’t disgusted by my body.
He’s always asks if I’m okay and comfortable during hookups. It’s really passionate and we cuddle after. It hurts knowing I’m just a hookup to him when I can’t stop thinking about him. I feel like I can be myself around him and I’m not shy when I’m with him which is so rare.
I know he’s on apps hooking up with other guys while I’m jealous and thinking about him. I’m his #3 best friend on snap but He leaves me on delivered for a day on Snapchat while sending countless snaps during the day and only really sends me a snap along with 100 other people for his streaks before they expire. It hurts knowing he barely knows I exist and I need to get over him and lose feelings.
I know he’s doing nothing wrong and it’s totally my fault I feel something for him. I know it won’t be reciprocated and I really just need to lose this because it makes me feel like shit.
How do lose the crush??
Pls help me out:)
Tl:dr have feelings for a hookup and need to lose them