What happens ba if you eat meat after jawtox? Nag yakinikulike ako and medyo nawork talaga yung chewing. Mawawala ba effect? Kasi some say good thing daw ngumuya kasi kakalat yung gamot. What are your thoughts? Huhuhu stress akooooo what will happen to the results
This is CRAAAAAZY! Stalking with no trace??! I long pressed someone’s profile picture (i am not following them) so i can see clearer tapos lumabas yan!!!
I’m currently on a crying session right now so I’m not typing this. I’m using the voice function on my keyboard hahaha but I just I was just reminded tonight that I don’t have any friends. maybe I do, but not the ones you talk to or meet regularly.. someone to share your secrets with, or to talk about your day or theirs. I’ve been living alone for years now and I thought I was used to the loneliness and I thought i was used to being independent but there are just days where i am reminded that im all alone.
It’s gotten so bad to the point that whenever I’d be in church I would pray for one friend. just one. I feel so sad and desperate because why do I have to pray for a friend? Who does that? I wish i had someone who would immediately think of me when they are asked who their best friend is.. kahit isa lang.
I mean, sure I can travel alone, try out a new restaurant alone, watch a movie alone, but sometimes maybe itd be nice to do it with a friend for once
Problem/Goal: Feel ko masisiraan ako ng ulo kasi ilang linggo na akong walang nilolook forward sa weekends for my day off.
Context: 3 years wfh + solo living. Lahat ng chores nagagawa ng weekdays, at araw araw nakakapag mall dahil malapit lang. Feel ko naikot ko na rin lahat ng mall sa kamaynilaan sa mga nagdaan kong day off, at na try na rin halos mga restaurants na gusto ko. Yung iba ay pricey na and di sustainable kumpletuhin yung mga nasa listahan weekly.
Please i am begging baka may ideas kayo or may ginagawa kayo kada weekend na pwedeng ishare. I want to feel alive!!!! 😭
PS: preferably sana yung pwede solo kasi i dont have friends na kinikita on a regular basis. I am alone all the time.
I stumbled across an old conversation between my friends and i from 2021, college pa kami nito and i was telling them about an old ka-MU from highschool na bumalik sa buhay ko.
For context, never naging kami kasi lagi ako iniiwan/binabalikan nung guy. Hindi pa raw kasi siya ready sa commitment, kaya situationship lang kami lagi. After namin maka graduate ng highschool, bigla syang nagka girlfriend. Hahaha that made me feel shitty kasi parang ah ok, ready pala, pero hindi lang sa akin.
Pinapasok ko uli siya sa buhay ko when we were in college (2021) and lo and behold, he pulled away again apparently due to his trauma from his ex that he hasnt healed from yet. (May nangyari na samin :( so i felt extra shitty.) he told me he needed time to himself, bumalik siguro yung old feeling na “ah eto nanaman tayo” and nanlamig talaga kalamnan ko lol. Sabi nya gusto nya raw muna magheal and all that. That time, nakita ko sa videocall na he still had their pics na naka dikit sa pinto ng cabinet niya, di nya maalis sa highlights sa ig, pics of her cat on his phone, their pic with his mom on his phone, ganun. Then he posted a story with a song about waiting for someone to come back.. and i crashed out..
I dont know.. maybe that time, lahat ng poot ko nung highschool naipon at sumabog. I sent him a long long message caling him out and nagsabi ako ng mga masasakit na salita. I wished him to be miserable, and i said hes a bad person. Sabi ko ring i hope he lives a shitty life, i said people like him will never be happy because he always chooses to hurt people (aka me) at marami pang masasakit na salita. At that time, it felt right. I had to get it off my chest. I really do think i will hate him hanggang sa mamatay ako, but i shouldve handled the situation better and sana nagalit ako pero hindi sa ganong paraan. Gave me something to reflect upon tonight. He did have a girlfriend after telling me he wasnt ready though, and i have learned to be at peace with the fact na it will never ever be me. And maybe thats for the better! Maybe thats how its supposed to be. We are adults now, and my frontal lobe has developed. Haha i really just felt bad now about the mean things i said. I dont have feelings for him anymore and i just realized i should handle anger better. I will never be a backburner anymore and am currently being treated right by someone else who always chooses me.