keep being drawn to partners who keep hurting me
I spent the last 3 months convinced that me and this guy would end up together and I would be in a happy relationship for once just to find out through one of his friends that he has secretly had a girlfriend this entire time.
my heart hurts so much that I just need to sleep otherwise I start crying - not just over him, but everything. I wonder - what must it feel like to be loved on this earth? what does it feel like to be so stable with others that you get bored?