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I get crazy insomnia maybe two nights a year so this isn’t exactly new but 48 hours straight is a new record for me I’m so wide awake it’s not even funny, I tried panadol night because it always knocks me out but this time didn’t work, chamomile tea, meditated, showered, relaxed, magnesium alll are not working what am I supposed to do now? I don’t drink coffee I don’t drink energy drinks I only had a matcha 11 hours ago so I doubt this is why I’m still awake. If I’m being completely honest a part of me feels like this is actually a dream or maybe I’m just going insane I don’t know

I’m 21 and I’ve been getting it weekly since I was 14, I sleep very well (8-12hours) and I wouldn’t describe my life as stressful and I don’t drink is there something I’m missing? I really don’t understand why, I’ve mentioned here yesterday that once I had a joint one with my friend too? I don’t even know what to call it. And and sometimes it’s this loop where at least 3 times I’d think I woke up but I didn’t, and then I’d wake up for real wash my face go back to sleep and it keeps happening until I can’t go back to sleep, it’s exhausting and terrifying if I get it one more time I truly don’t think I’d survive it, the thing is they’re not scary as in hallucinations because I rarely hallucinate but the feeling of being paralyzed and sometimes they’re those random nightmares idk how to explain it, I can manage when someone is sleeping next to me because they can feel me shaking or trying to move so they wake me up (I also woke up a few times unconsciously screaming now the whole house is traumatized with me) but I live alone most of the time so I don’t know how to deal with it when I’m alone I feel like I’m going insane

I get sleep paralysis often, it’s rarely ever the typical D**** one but I had an extremely strange one 3y ago and I still can’t find an explanation. Me and my friend were sleeping in the same room, that room always creeped me out it had a weird vibe and I never slept there so that was my first time, I woke up in the middle of the night with a pale skinny old woman sitting on my friend and another person standing in the corner, I was trying hard to yell at her saying stuff like stay away from my friend I was trying to give her the middle finger too I don’t even know why because it’s not something I’d do irl lol but anyways I don’t remember the rest I think I just went back to sleep, when I woke up I told her about my “nightmare” and here’s the scary part…she had a sleep paralysis too and she described the same. Exact. One. It freaks me out to this day.

Without going into too much details, someone cheats on you with a one night stand while you’re engaged but comes clean the next day and tells you everything, what do you do?

Reasons for cheating: I’m waiting for marriage so we can’t have sex, I’m assuming that is the only reason since it was a one night stand because when he told me what he did he didn’t use that as an excuse or tried to blame it on something else he just owned up his mistake and is trying to fix it, I told him I need some time for myself. It’s the fact that he told me out of nowhere when I wasn’t suspecting it I don’t even think I had time to suspect anything, I don’t know what to do

Excuse me if this is worded weirdly English is not my first language but anyway. In their 20’s they’re still young so it’s somewhat excusable when they’re childish and immature, when they’re in 40’s they’re mature, don’t act serious 24/7 to impress people, know how to handle problems overall normal human beings and they act their age. But when they’re in their 30’s they just hit a financial milestone (hard work starting to pay off) so they make it their whole personality, act like eveeerybody wants them and everyone wants to marry them, think they’re still young so they act like they’re in 20’s while also thinking they’re old enough to be “daddies” which is cringe, balding enough for it to show but not enough that they admit it or get a hair transplant. Now why am I saying this? No reason just wanna hear your thoughts about it

Feel like I have to share my experience to help someone from making the same mistake. There’s not much to tell but don’t use boob tape girls…I use it a lot until one time I slept with it and when I took it off half of my nipple was gone, it wasn’t even that painful I didn’t notice until later when I touched my boobs and something felt off (yes it grew back)

I used to be the happiest person around, and everyone would tell me I make them feel happier and “alive”, I think I still do sometimes, emphasis on sometimes because I barely wanna see anyone anymore, and no one’s noticing anyway. you’d think the weight loss, the scars on my wrist, never wanting to leave the house, grades dropping from A’s to F’s, the raging alcoholism (that I stopped, thankfully) would be noticeable by those around me who claim they care, but nope not a thing, I think it’s been 2 years now? I don’t remember when it came back but at the end of the day I don’t blame anyone, everyone got a lot on their plates and I still put my mask on when I leave the house so I guess it is really unnoticeable, even though I’m always noticing when the roles are reversed. It’s a blessing and a curse because it sucks for a minute but then I’m glad no one is saying anything because I don’t want to get better, and it’s comforting knowing my loved ones’ lives are not gonna be affected when I’m gone