If you want to comment your thoughts or advice or just relate 🫶 its long lol
BROOOOO okay so I am ready to move out. I am 81 flipped, have a good degree cause I graduated early/advanced, finances and savings all good and everything. I want to move 5 hours away from my fam/parnts. To me this doesnt feel far, as I am planning on visiting every weekend which is not a lot to me cause I like roadtrips and I wont be lazy in this aspect. I am childish (trust I am responsible to move out) and regulate my emotions, so moving out doesnt feel like its a bad thing. I am only planning on moving outbfor a year then moving back with my parents to ultra save to buy a house. So it doesnt feel like I am abandoning my fam cause I know I will literally see them the weekend after I move out. BUT I AM SCARED TO TELL MY PARENTS. For context, my parents and I have a pretty much good relationship. Their marriage has been dv messy, and my mom has mental health issues that make her treat me not so nice, but I honestly dont care about none of that, and it doesnt influence me wanting to move out. They are strict, which does kinda influence me wanting to move out, because I want to move out so I can experience life. Sure I can stay home and save money, but then I will just be in the same grey loop, same days. I have accomplished a lot, but I havent experienced life. Its hard to describe but I cant go anywhere like they just want me to stay home, which is what I do. And trust I love it its cozy and stuff which is why I am planning on moving back after a year. But I just want to live a little yk. Have my own space, do things with out permission, grocery shop for my self, workout without being judged. Not even party or do crazy stuff like that. My parents are also kinda judgy. Like a lot of parents they just think of me as a dumb little girl, and constantly tell me how "i think im so smart" and how i dont know anything. They also judge the things i wanna fo and dont really hope for the best in the things i do. Like they focus on negative instead of positive. Theres a lot more that goes into them but I think that covers it for this context. So I KNOOWWW there reaction is gonna be "why arent we good enough" "reality is gonna hit you" "you dont know what your doing" and just generally not be happy for me. They will then act like I am literally dying never to see them again, even if I reassure them I'll see them most weekends. LIKE WHY CANT PARENTS BE HAPPY FOR KIDS BROO like from my perspective, the whole point of having a kid is to see them go off and do happy things. WHY DO THEY ACT LIKE MY CHILDHOOD IS ENDING ITS NOT I STILL FEEL LIKE AND ACT LIKE A CHILD like I JUST HATTEE the perspective a lot of parents have like "oh our little girl is gone" NO SHES NOT SHES RIGHT HERE LIKE BE HAPPY FOR THIS VERSION OF ME TOO IM NOT DEAD???? UUGGHH like I want it to be happy and yay youre acheiving your dreams but I know its not gonna be that way. If I didnt have to consider my parents reaction, I'd be so ready and happy to move into my own place, no saddness. But thinking about having to them and bring this reality to them brings me so much guilt and shame cause Im disappointing them in a way cause I know they just want be to be a little controled dumb little doll child BUT IT SHOULDNT BE THAT WAYY LIKE BE HAPPY FOR MEE. I know this is what Im gonna do cause what else am I gonna do? I dont know what I want to major in in university for a masters yet, and I dont know nor do I want to right now, what loans and stuff Im gonna do to start a business. So Im just gonn stay here and work full time and save money and watch the days pass by? I want a year to live a little and decide my next step. Also, Ive been wanting to move to this city, and I get sort of senioritis when I dont do something with myself. Like if I dont go explore for a year, I am gonna stay here, save, then settle into building a business or getting my masters, then Im gonna be sad cause its like dame here goes another 3 years of doing nothing but studying and saving. its either I move out, spend time with fam, save money, experience life, or stay home, spend time with fam, save money, do nothing with myself OBVIOUSLY THE FORMER. I also know its normal for kids to move out rn to go to university and stuff, but my parents always make me feel carzy for doing normal stuff like, graduating highschool, buying a car. Like for my hs grad my mom told me oh you think youre all that cause youre grad hs, everyone grads hs that means nothing. When I got my first car, me and my dad came home to surprise her and she looked at me with her stupid I hate you face and said you didnt even call and ask me if it was okay, mind you she knew i was looking at cars with my dad. She walked away all mad and wasnt excited for me at all. I know this is how shes gonna be for the rest of my life so I am getting used to it. This is gonna be the same sentiment fir me moving out. And Im probably gonna have only about a week or so in advance to tell them just cause thats how it worked out. And that there fault, cause I cant tell them stuff when Im thinking about it cause they just hate and spew negative thoughts, but I feel bad. But yeah Im just NOT excited to tell them, and how they are gonna think about it and how they think about me drags me down and makes me sad and makes me have a sad perspective on it BUT NO I AM FIGHTING THAT AND FUCK WHAT THEY SAY. but yeah, might comment and add more later but thats the gist.