u/3goey

I recently bought a Wii that smells absolutely terrible, I put it in a sealed tub with baking soda and nothing has helped. (It was disgusting, cleaning barely helped, so now I assume maybe bugs inside) I just now bought a Nintendo switch that had a German roach crawl out of the carrying case.

I have now put a hotshot no pest strip in a sealed tub, with a cookie grate over it, and then all of the electronics and carrying case on that grate. How long do I leave it? Will there be a film I need to clean off? Will it break the Nintendo switch oled? Am I cooked? Do I burn my house down?

I recently bought a Wii that smells absolutely terrible, I put it in a sealed tub with baking soda and nothing has helped. I just now bought a Nintendo switch that had a German roach crawl out of the carrying case.

I have now put a hotshot no pest strip in a sealed tub, with a cookie grate over it, and then all of the electronics and carrying case on that grate. How long do I leave it? Will there be a film I need to clean off? Will it break the Nintendo switch oled? Am I cooked? Do I burn my house down?

I’m 26 and I’m honestly just reaching a breaking point with how my brain is "installed." I don’t know if it’s ASD, Schizoid traits, OCD, or some massive DPDR loop, but I am so exhausted from the effort of trying to be "human" every single day.

It feels like I’m constantly viewing life from this weird, top-down X-ray perspective. I can’t just eat dinner or fold a towel.

When I’m folding laundry, my brain immediately spirals into the global logistics of how the fabric was made, the carbon emissions from shipping it, and the total absurdity of why humans even exist in these cramped little boxes. I have absolutely no background noise filter.

Lately, the visualization has been getting worse. I’ll be in my apartment and instead of seeing a home, I see a stacked box, and I start visualizing the plumbing and electrical wires through the walls. I look at my neighbors or even my family and I don't see "people," I just see biological machines that are "recharging" or "consuming fuel." It makes me feel like a ghost in the machine or some kind of alien experiment.

The weirdest part is that I’m usually a really jumpy, flinchy person. But when these "X-ray" episodes hit, I become terrifyingly detached. I feel like I could hold a snake or a giant spider and feel nothing because nothing feels real anyway.

When I’m driving like this, I get these intense urges to just crash into a building.. not because I want to d1e, but because I’m so desperate to feel a "collision" with reality to prove that I’m actually here and have an effect on the world.

I’ve been asking "what do normal people do?" since I was 12 years old. I work a high-pressure sales job and I’m good at it, but it’s all manual-drive. I’m just simulating being a person while I observe everything from ten feet above. I feel like I’m playing a character (which I understand sales is a performance) but I’m playing the character of a good employee. And they’re buying it.

I’m astonished at how easy some things are to fake, and how social interactions work, and how you can just choose the right dialogue options and move up in a company. Like a game.

Has anyone else dealt with this? I have posted about this years ago, I’ve been treated and therapy and what feels like everything ever, and I just want to be able to eat dinner without the X-ray vision and the existential dread.

I don’t know how much longer I can do this, every time I think it’s gone it comes back. Thank you for reading.

I’m 26 and I’m reaching a breaking point with the way my brain is "installed." I don’t know if it’s ASD, Schizoid traits, OCD, or what, but I am exhausted from the sheer effort of trying to be "human."

I feel like I’m constantly viewing life from a top-down, X-ray perspective. I can’t just "eat dinner" or "fold a towel." If I’m folding a towel, my brain spirals into the global logistics of how it was made, the carbon emissions of the shipping, and the absurdity of why we all exist.

If I’m sitting in my apartment, I don’t see a "home." I see a box stacked on other boxes, visualizing the plumbing tubes running through the walls and seeing everyone as biological robots "recharging" in their cells. It’s factually true, but it makes me feel like a genuine experiment rather than a family member or a friend. Or.. a human.

I’ve been asking "what do normal people do?" since I was a young baby. I have to manually drive most social interaction and daily tasks while it seems like everyone else is on autopilot. The dissociation is episodic. I just want to be in my life, not observing and judging it from ten feet above.

Is there a "cure" for this? Or at least a way to turn down the high resolution feed so I can just exist without the existential dread? How do you guys stop being the "Alien" and start being the "Human"?

TL;DR: My brain has no background noise filter. I see the world as a mechanical schematic instead of an experience. I’m lonely, I’m tired of the manual effort, and I just want to feel normal.

I’m 26 and I’m reaching a breaking point with the way my brain is "installed." I don’t know if it’s ASD, Schizoid traits, OCD, or what, but I am exhausted from the sheer effort of trying to be "human."

I feel like I’m constantly viewing life from a top-down, X-ray perspective. I can’t just "eat dinner" or "fold a towel." If I’m folding a towel, my brain spirals into the global logistics of how it was made, the carbon emissions of the shipping, and the absurdity of why we all exist.

If I’m sitting in my apartment, I don’t see a "home." I see a box stacked on other boxes, visualizing the plumbing tubes running through the walls and seeing everyone as biological robots "recharging" in their cells. It’s factually true, but it makes me feel like a genuine experiment rather than a family member or a friend. Or.. a human.

I’ve been asking "what do normal people do?" since I was a young baby. I have to manually drive most social interaction and daily tasks while it seems like everyone else is on autopilot. The dissociation is episodic. I just want to be in my life, not observing and judging it from ten feet above.

Is there a "cure" for this? Or at least a way to turn down the high resolution feed so I can just exist without the existential dread? How do you guys stop being the "Alien" and start being the "Human"?

TL;DR: My brain has no background noise filter. I see the world as a mechanical schematic instead of an experience. I’m lonely, I’m tired of the manual effort, and I just want to feel normal.