u/19ydx

Tomorrow I’ll find out my admission decision. I have been making duas and calling upon Allah by some of his 99 names. I have given it my best shot. Despite just being a borderline minimum meeting student, I worked in ways that boosted my application even more(ex; get research opportunity, healthcare work, program instructor for neurodiverse learners, work directly with a prof in the same program(another research) who I asked to me my reference. Hoping an internal reference can boost my application. I HOPE to get admission. As an anxious person, I’ve been going to Allah all the time. Crying, worrying, stressing out, making my duas on this. This year has been very hard on me and this is something I am looking very forward to and just get my masters. I’ve heard a strangers prayers really helps so please pray for me for good news tomorrow!

I have been feeling super super anxious regarding post-grad. I have been wanting one program desperately and decisions come out in 10 days. Since I am a low-tier not as competitive of an applicant, I went out of the way to reach out to a prof months back to do volunteer research with her(she is within the same department as the program I applied to). She ended up being one of my Letter of recommendations. However, recently I met up with her and talked and she asked my plans if this cycle I don't get in, if applying abroad is an option etc, asked for my gpa(she said it is low). I feel like she and probably the admission people already looked at my file and don't know if I have a shot. I really need to get in this year and start. I have said Astaghfirullah before throughout the day and it worked with two major things that went hand in hand and REALLY could've went another direction. However, for this I am feeling uneasy and hopeless. I really feel uneasy and mentally feel weak, demotivated. I really need this and I need a miracle.

I have been feeling super super anxious regarding post-grad. I have been wanting one program desperately and decisions come out in 10 days. Since I am a low-tier not as competitive of an applicant, I went out of the way to reach out to a prof months back to do volunteer research with her(she is within the same department as the program I applied to). She ended up being one of my Letter of recommendations. However, recently I met up with her and talked and she asked my plans if this cycle I don't get in, if applying abroad is an option etc, asked for my gpa(she said it is low). I feel like she and probably the admission people already looked at my file and don't know if I have a shot. I really need to get in this year and start. I have said Astaghfirullah before throughout the day and it worked with two major things that went hand in hand and REALLY could've went another direction. However, for this I am feeling uneasy and hopeless. I really feel uneasy and mentally feel weak, demotivated. I really need this and I need a miracle.

I have been feeling super super anxious regarding post-grad. I have been wanting one program desperately and decisions come out in 10 days. Since I am a low-tier not as competitive of an applicant, I went out of the way to reach out to a prof months back to do volunteer research with her(she is within the same department as the program I applied to). She ended up being one of my Letter of recommendations. However, recently I met up with her and talked and she asked my plans if this cycle I don't get in, if applying abroad is an option etc, asked for my gpa(she said it is low). I feel like she and probably the admission people already looked at my file and don't know if I have a shot. I really need to get in this year and start. I have said Astaghfirullah before throughout the day and it worked with two major things that went hand in hand and REALLY could've went another direction. However, for this I am feeling uneasy and hopeless. I really feel uneasy and mentally feel weak, demotivated. I really need this and I need a miracle.

I'm a revert since a year and a half ago F23. Right now in life I don't know where I am headed, feel alone and just feel like nothing is working out. For context, just this year I lose my "closest" friends and felt also disrespected that I did not reach out, and neither did they. For things I had no control over, I still apologized but I believe maybe their ego came in the way. Now I graduated from my BSc degree. Don't know what to do next and feel like I won't get in anywhere masters. I posted on one of the subreddit and it just got taken down lol. I feel like a burden and think of god throughout the day. I am starting to feel as if maybe god has left my side. I know academia does not mean everything but I feel old. I feel like I need to achieve things for my parents and be successful. As of now it feels like everything has been going bad since the year began. I don't know what miracle I need, but I feel just alone and in my head most of the times. I do not want to sit and cry about these things and worry about a future but it feels hard right now.

I recently just graduated from a BSc program. I am currently 23 and now applied to some masters program and one advanced diploma program(I got an interview for it and later not rejected). As for the masters, did not hear back yet. My dad has been telling me to apply everywhere so my chances go up. I have a low science gpa and a okay overall. I feel like a very useless daughter who is incapable of anything. I tear up and cry because of how much of a burden I am. I am also a revert since a year and a half ago (my family does not know). Things don't seem to turn up for me. I do trust Allah and only he knows whats best but I feel like I am drowning overall. I have been doing istighfar now also. I feel so alone too and don't know where to start, what to do, who to go to. Why does Allah not see my pain?