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I have aphantasia. I don't have a minds eye where I can see something in my head. This is new to me, I only found out it had a name last year during my autism and adhd assessment.

I have always created since I was tiny but due to undiagnosed adhd I stopped drawing for like 5 years. My medication is now helping me draw again!

My issue has always been I feel I lack a 'style', and people always say learn the fundamentals and I do (not enough though I admit!) BUT, my art is much better when I'm copying what I see, that can extend to art I'm inspire by but then it's like I adopt that style, I have no set style of my own.

I know I don't use bold enough light and shadow, and colour and I seem to outline everything, but now I understand *why*. I simply can't imagine what the subject would look like if light hit it this way or that way.

Due to the autism I also have a very set idea on what I want things to look like, but I just can't *visualise* at all. And I do use references much more now and make collages for a bigger reference! But I still feel there's no style there, I'm just copying the reference and I don't like that, my art looks bland.

It's like I can't add my own flavour even if I have references because I can only copy what I see due to the aphantasia element. And I know there are many famous artists with aphantasia each with their own style, but I haven't found any of them talking about how they added their own flair instead of just straight copying a reference or another artist/art piece 😓

I've 30f made multiple posts this week. Over 2 days on my usual 30mg elvanse I had a 1 second flutter to left of my sternum. Then yesterday I started my new 40mg dose of 2 20mg tablets at one time, and after repeatedly bending and putting clothes away I felt a 2 second fluttery whoosh in the same place. Today I was just sat and for 2 seconds felt a 'drop feeling' like your stomach dropping in the same place.

This happens roughly 5 or 6 hours after my elvanse and it normally lasts all day and almost feel continuous effects too, I also have had no side effects until now and I started tritation on Feb 13th. What complicates things is on each of those days I hadn't actually eaten anything until the late afternoon because I had appointments and was busy, I usually do eat a small yoghurt with my elvanse then a substantial dinner. Though I have occasionally eaten dinner late but not had any symptoms. Also I've had a flare of costochondritis and it's most painful exactly where the feeling is. I've also missed a weeks worth of my duloxetine so I'm anxious. I've not had a sensation like the dropping before I don't think? But some people feel that sensation with costochondritis. My BP etc has been fine each time.

My prescriber has said that it could be because I have not eaten, and the meds have hit harder and are causing a side effect coupled with potential low blood sugar around the same time each day because that's when it drops. So tomo I have to have some food but she said if it happens again I have to stop elvanse and wait until I see her (in 6 weeks time 😭).

Just gutted, and panicking. Cos I've literally had no issues at all so why start now??? I had an ECG before starting as some male family members have had heart attacks young and middle aged but it was spot on.elvanse has been life changing for me, I can do things, my brain is QUIET, I'm sleeping better, I'm not overeating, I can read again and I've started to draw again after 4 years of art lock burnout. I hope its just a mix of the costochondritis and not eating but it's weird it happens at the same time, again this hasn't happened before.

I've 30f made multiple posts this week. Over 2 days on my usual 30mg elvanse I had a 1 second flutter to left of my sternum. Then yesterday I started my new 40mg dose of 2 20mg tablets at one time, and after repeatedly bending and putting clothes away I felt a 2 second fluttery whoosh in the same place. Today I was just sat and for 2 seconds felt a 'drop feeling' like your stomach dropping in the same place.

This happens roughly 5 or 6 hours after my elvanse and it normally lasts all day and almost feel continuous effects too, I also have had no side effects until now and I started tritation on Feb 13th. What complicates things is on each of those days I hadn't actually eaten anything until the late afternoon because I had appointments and was busy, I usually do eat a small yoghurt with my elvanse then a substantial dinner. Though I have occasionally eaten dinner late but not had any symptoms. Also I've had a flare of costochondritis and it's most painful exactly where the feeling is. I've also missed a weeks worth of my duloxetine so I'm anxious. I've not had a sensation like the dropping before I don't think? But some people feel that sensation with costochondritis. My BP etc has been fine each time.

My prescriber has said that it could be because I have not eaten, and the meds have hit harder and are causing a side effect coupled with potential low blood sugar around the same time each day because that's when it drops. So tomo I have to have some food but she said if it happens again I have to stop elvanse and wait until I see her (in 6 weeks time 😭).

Just gutted, and panicking. Cos I've literally had no issues at all so why start now??? I had an ECG before starting as some male family members have had heart attacks young and middle aged but it was spot on.elvanse has been life changing for me, I can do things, my brain is QUIET, I'm sleeping better, I'm not overeating, I can read again and I've started to draw again after 4 years of art lock burnout. I hope its just a mix of the costochondritis and not eating but it's weird it happens at the same time, again this hasn't happened before.

I30f posted yesterday and a few days ago, yesterday after bending doing washing clothes I felt a brief flip flop flutter for a few seconds near the heart. I'll see my GP tomo and emailed my prescriber but not heard yet.

Context, I've missed over a week of duloxetine so I'm anxious, I also am having a costochondritis flare up, and where I'm getting these sensations is where the sternum hurts most. The first 2 times it was a slight niggle feeling a 1 second flutter or jolt once a day (and I was on 30mg elvanse those days). I put it down to anxiety and cos to. I mentioned about the clothing incident from yesterday above.

About half hour ago I was just sat and I felt a 'drop' falling feeling near my heart, left of sternum, like the drop in your stomach feeling almost. Only 2 seconds and it almost made me feel a little shocked and halt my breathing as it made me anxious again.

But, I've noticed now, these are all around 5 to 6 hours after my elvanse. Is this a thing? Or is it cos I'm taking 2 20mg at once? I've never felt a drop off from the meds leaving my system, as long as I take them the same time I consistently feel the effects.

This freaks me out though, and is making my anxiety worse

I30f posted yesterday about if elvanse could aggravate costochondritis. I had very occasionally the last few days get a 1second flutter or tiny jab feeling near the heart area. But I also have not had my duloxetine for a week and I feel more anxious and hyper aware of my body. So I've put all that down to that.

Anyway I'm rambling, I've just been putting some clothes away so I've been bending up and down putting stuff on the bed etc. And after about 10 mins of doing that I felt almost a bubble sensation near the heart area, and obviously my heart was beating faster cos I've been moving.

Can bending over cause that? The anxiety is kicking in now as I'm thinking 'oh no, is it the elvanse is it suddenly causing a heart problem??'.

Edit to add the only thing that's changed is I started 40mg elvanse (2 20mg pills) 2 days ago but the flutter feeling was happening the day before on the 30mg and my BP cuff was spot on. The only other real the that's changed is I've been without my duloxetine for a whole week due to a mishap (I'm reacting to a specific dye used so they're having to change them). I definitely feel more anxious, because I'm also doing my' Google every slight body sensation'

I30f have been on 30mg for a few weeks and just to my 40mg today (I take 2 20mg because I am allergic to the blue dye in the 40s😭). I have had costochondritis on and off for several years but haven't had a flare in well over a year.

The past 3? days my costo is hurting, ribs and serum hurt to the touch, tight ribcage, hard to get a full breath due to rib inflammation. But I've noticed very occasionally I'll get a 1 or 2 seconds flutter or little jab feeling towards my heart area around sternum height. So it's made me worried a bit and I keep thinking about it.

Due to a mishap I haven't had my duloxetine for a week so I am assuming this is due to the costochondritis and anxiety? I used a BP cuff and it's spot on each time, but I did notice 2 days in a row I get the 1 second flutter feeling around the same time about 5 or 6 hours after taking my dose BUT I was in the dentist on both days so anxiety I think? But I also know that costochondritis can cause jabbing and fluttering, but it's been so long without a flare it's like I've forgotten 😭😂

I said to my bf I do feel anxious today which I am attributing to my lack of duloxetine. So I do think it is the costo and anxiety rather than the elvanse? But just curious if any others with costo have taken elvanse too?

I30 have an EXTREMELY damaged barrier, highly reactive, everything burns or just turns me red, even stuff like avene Tolerance! No fragrance, ideally no botanical really as I have hay-fever so I don't know if I'll be cross reactive, seem to hate Niacinamide too and possibly tocopherol.

But I want to try ceramides for barrier repair and I see Iliyoon mentions SO much but their ceramides contain a fatty acid from arachidic oil which is from peanuts and I am anaphylactic to peanut.

Every Korean brand I've looked at online seems to use the same ceramide/repair/fatty acid formula, and everytime it has arachidic based ingredients (or soybean and I don't want to put food based ingredients on an open barrier, it can create allergies).

I also feel like I react to Niacinamide which is in SO MUCH, and im sure I also react to tocopherol too. Ive tried a lot of products but so many rave about the Korean skincare especially for barrier repair, so I was really excited to try Iliyoon too 😭

Are there any barrier repair that dont use Arachidic oil?

Had an onlay fitted just now and he said it was trickier than normal as my gums are inflamed due to not flossing (getting a cleaning next week but I'm not great with flossing due to adhd/autism. Was using floss harps but my old dentist said that was pointless unless I use c shaped floss which I cant so I just stopped.)

Anyway, he said the bite will feel 'proud' for upto 2 weeks. Saying that cos I haven't eaten with that tooth for 2 weeks it will very slightly move down but after using my new onlay it will slowly settle and my bite will go back to normal.

Is that true? It definitely feels slightly high and if I close my mouth my teeth don't fully touch now there's a teeny gap. But he said within 2 weeks of chewing and biting it will be pushed back to its original position.

He said if it feels wrong after 2 weeks to come in for it adjusting