u/-azure-skies-

i’m afraid this time i won’t get better.

doesn’t necessarily have to be for SH (like the ice cube method) even if it’s just something easy to do… i want to stay clean, but it’s getting harder.

i mean, it’s not like it was crazy. it’s not something to freak out over, it was a 50/50. but damn… i knew i had memory issues from trauma, but i went years feeling like shit for being in the “separate crowd” who weren’t “sad enough” to attempt.

i know it’s not true. not attempting suicide doesn’t make your situation any less unfortunate.

but… damn.

who the fuck would like a disabled, neurodivergent, genderfluid, ugly, depressed & suicidal girl who’s scared of everyone & everything. genuinely.

it’s not like i’m actively looking for a relationship or anything, i just feel like when i am, i’ll either have to lie constantly (which would be fucking stupid, that’s not how relationships work), fix myself as much as possible, or just.. be happy with anyone liking me.

plenty of people call me pretty, but i don’t feel like it’s possible for someone to actually like me.

oh well.

my nails are NOT sharp enough to have done this… i don’t know wtf happened??

(sorry for bad photo quality)

i love it, i think i’ll start a collection ^^ any recommendations?

[artist is just_dani_lol]

probably won’t legally change my name since i’m genderfluid, but who knows :p

bonus points because august is actually my birth month !!