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I reached this paradox because I kept noticing a split in how people define RA. Sincerely apologise for the spiral, but I hope people understand these are all very different aspects of RA and I'm just trying to reach out to this subreddit community of people who has many people who identify as RA and thankful for yall patience, tolerance with me. So, The Relationship Anarchist Paradox:

Some people were using RA as an individual identity: “I am RA,” “I don’t use labels,” “I reject default scripts,” “this is how I personally relate.”

Other people were using RA as a relationship practice: “we reject imposed scripts together,” “we create our own shared meaning,” “we relate through consent, communication, boundaries, care, and chosen agreements.”

At first, I could not explain why this difference bothered me so much. Now I think it is because these are not the same thing. An identity can exist alone. A relationship practice cannot.

That is how I got to the paradox:

A relationship anarchist can exist alone. Relationship anarchy cannot.

A person can identify as a relationship anarchist by rejecting imposed labels, hierarchy, ownership, and default scripts for themselves. But relationship anarchy, as an actual relationship practice, has to happen between people. A relationship is not one person’s private stance. It is a shared reality.

So the starting question for the community is:

Is RA an individual identity, a relationship practice, or both?

If it is both, then we need to distinguish them clearly. Because one person saying “I don’t define things” may describe their identity, but it does not automatically define the relationship. If default scripts are removed, something else has to carry shared meaning.

That is why the split matters. One person may mean “RA = my personal freedom from labels.” Another may mean “RA = our mutual freedom from imposed scripts through consent and chosen agreements.” Those are not the same claim.

And if we do not clarify which one we mean, people can use the same word while consenting to different realities.

I think my point keeps getting missed because I’m not arguing that my default should automatically win. I’m arguing that in RA/ENM, hidden defaults are the problem. If we reject default scripts, then we cannot secretly rely on private defaults like “disclosure is assumed” or “non-disclosure is assumed.” Both have to be made explicit, because otherwise people are consenting from different assumptions.

So the issue is not “who should have asked first? Who stayed first? Who left first?” The issue is that a relationship structure cannot ethically run on unstated defaults while claiming to reject defaults. If nothing is clarified, ambiguity becomes the structure, and the person with the lower-disclosure default usually benefits from that ambiguity.

That is the paradox I’m trying to name: RA/ENM removes inherited scripts, but if people do not create shared terms, private scripts take over. That is not freedom from defaults. That is just invisible defaults.

Anti-definition can become a definition.
RA often says: no default scripts, no imposed labels, no automatic hierarchy, no assumed agreements. That sounds like freedom. But if people do not replace those defaults with shared understanding, then the “absence” starts functioning like a new rule.

Example:
“No labels” can become a label if it starts meaning: we do not define anything, we do not ask for clarity, we do not name expectations.

“No structure” can become a structure if it starts meaning: nothing will be discussed, nothing will be promised, nothing will be clarified.

“No agreement” can become the agreement if someone says: you stayed, therefore you agreed to no agreements.

“No default” can become the default if everyone is expected to assume non-disclosure, non-commitment, non-priority, or non-definition unless explicitly stated otherwise.

That is the paradox.

RA tries to escape imposed scripts. But if people refuse to create shared terms, then private scripts take over. One person’s “I don’t define things” becomes the structure everyone else has to live inside.

So the issue is not labels vs no labels. It is whether the meaning is shared.

Freedom from imposed labels is not the same as freedom from clarity.

I’m ready for the majority opinion. When did RA become “if you stayed, you consented”? And when did RA become “whatever a person who identifies as RA does is automatically RA practice”?

A says:
I don’t use labels. I don’t want expectations. I’m private. I don’t want hierarchy. I want freedom. I’m RA.

A wants:
Freedom from labels, expectations, hierarchy, ownership, disclosure, fixed promises, and traditional relationship scripts.

A does:
Stays in the relationship, continues intimacy, and participates while assuming their terms are already clear.

B says: I need clarity. I need care to mean something in practice. I need to understand disclosure. I need to know what openness means. I need shared meaning.

B wants:
RA in practice of making shared agreements. Freedom too, but through clarity: enough shared understanding to decide how to love freely, how to build other connections, and how to decide whether to stay.

B does:
Stays in the relationship, continues intimacy, and participates while assuming the terms are still being negotiated.

A thinks B agreed to:
“No labels, no expectations, privacy, no hierarchy, freedom, and RA on Person A’s terms.”

B thinks A agreed to:
“Clarity, care in practice, disclosure, shared meaning, and ongoing negotiation.”

Actual agreement?

If B staying means B accepted A’s terms, then why doesn’t A staying mean A accepted B’s terms too?

That is the asymmetry I’m trying to understand. “You stayed, so you agreed” seems to protect the person who wants less definition, but not the person asking for more clarity. To me, staying only means consent if the terms are clear enough to stay to. Otherwise, staying can also mean hope, attachment, confusion, ongoing negotiation, or trying to understand. If both people stay while holding different assumptions, whose assumptions become the agreement — and why?

This is also why I’m separating RA identity from RA agreement. Saying “I’m RA” tells me someone’s orientation or values, but it does not automatically tell me what has been agreed in that specific relationship. Where is the line between RA identify and RA in practice?

So my question is: if RA rejects default scripts, how do two people know when they have actually created a shared agreement, rather than one person’s private assumptions becoming the default relationship terms because the other person stayed? If RA rejects default scripts, why is “no labels / no expectations” treated like the new default script? If RA is about rejecting inherited scripts so people can create conscious agreements, is someone still practicing RA when they reject all agreements and treat their private assumptions as the default?

For anyone here mainly to comment on my emotions, intensity, posting frequency, judgement of character or mental health, glad you are here but please redirect yourself here!
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Thank you all for your comments & advice, they have been crazy helpful on my wild journey of understand Relationship Anarchy after 4 years of a relationship I called RA and navigating myself in this crazy world. Tbh after 4 that yrs rs and a year after that rs ended, I still found myself crazily confused tonight: Why was I so unsure or had misconceptions on the definition of RA? Why did all you commenters have different meanings of RA? Is this the reason why I was confused with RA? If so, as someone who was functioning under the label of the community, and now I can confidently say I identify as part of the community because I really do identify with what is written below. I want the community, us Relationship Anarchists to be able to define accurately what RA is at it's core, at it's base. I don't want any of the confusion I had to be experienced again by future generations. I mean, it is quite concerning if the whole RA community have split definitions of what RA means right?

Anarchy
The rejection of imposed rule and domination; order is created through voluntary cooperation.

Relationship anarchy
Relationship anarchy applies this to relationships: it rejects pre-set romantic, sexual, or social hierarchies and builds each connection through consent and self-negotiated agreements.

Relationship anarchist
Someone who rejects pre-set romantic, sexual, or social hierarchies and builds each connection with negotiated agreements about consent and what hierarchies they want to live by.

Society
The network of people, relationships, norms, roles, responsibilities, and shared practices through which people live together and affect one another.

Society in relationship anarchy
In relationship anarchy, society means the network of friends, lovers, partners, bonds, agreements, responsibilities, and care practices around a person, without relying on fixed relationship hierarchies.

State
The state is the external authority or institution that imposes rule, hierarchy, control, or order from above.

State in relationship anarchy
In relationship anarchy, the “state” is the external authority of conventional relationship structures: couplehood, ownership, exclusivity, romantic priority, labels, nesting, or default hierarchy.

Stateless society
A stateless society is a society without an external authority imposing hierarchy, where people organize through voluntary cooperation, shared norms, mutual care, and accountability.

Stateless society in relationships
A stateless society in relationships means there is no external institution, label, or default hierarchy governing the bond, so the people involved create their own structure through consent, communication, accountability, and mutual aid.

Mutual aid
Mutual aid means people support one another because their well-being is connected, not because authority forces them to.

Mutual aid in relationship anarchy
In relationship anarchy, mutual aid means chosen care, support, honesty, presence, and help.

Voluntary association
Voluntary association means people freely choose to enter, remain in, change, or leave relationships, groups, or communities.

Voluntary association in relationship anarchy
In relationship anarchy, voluntary association means relationships are entered, continued, changed, or ended through consent, not ownership, pressure, or default obligation.

Norms
Expected ways of behaving.

Shared norms
Shared norms are common expectations people create for behaving.

Shared norms in relationship anarchy
In relationship anarchy, shared norms are agreed expectations around level of communication, sex, time, disclosure, care, conflict, boundaries, and repair.

Collective responsibility
Collective responsibility means people share responsibility for addressing harm and protecting one another’s well-being.

Collective responsibility in relationship anarchy
In relationship anarchy, collective responsibility means freedom comes with accountability
for honesty, care, repair, and emotional consequences.

Relationship anarchy in practice
In practice, relationship anarchy means treating each relationship as unique, not assuming any kind of relationship outranks the other, communicating boundaries clearly, and building commitments voluntarily rather than by social script.

Consent
Consent means freely agreeing to something when you understand what you are agreeing to.

Consent in relationship anarchy
In relationship anarchy, consent means people freely choose the relationship, agreements, boundaries, and level of disclosure they are participating in.

Disclosure
Disclosure means giving someone information that affects what they are agreeing to.

Boundaries
Boundaries are what a person will or will not allow for themselves.

Boundaries in relationship anarchy
In relationship anarchy, boundaries are how people clearly state what they need, what they accept, what they do not accept, and what they will do if the relationship no longer works for them.

RA is not “no responsibility, no accountability, no labels, no hierarchy, therefore I can do whatever I want.” That would be like misunderstanding political anarchy as “no state, therefore I can betray, exploit, or harm people whenever I want.”

In political anarchy, there may be no state stopping you from betraying, exploiting, or harming people.

But that does not make betrayal, exploitation, or harm “anarchist ethics.” It only means there is no central state authority enforcing punishment.

Anarchy is:

“No state, so people must organize life through voluntary cooperation instead of domination.”

Betrayal and exploitation are still forms of domination because one person benefits by removing or weakening another person’s ability to freely choose.

So the better sentence is:

RA is not “no responsibility, no accountability, no labels, no hierarchy, therefore I can do whatever I want.” That would confuse freedom from imposed authority with freedom from the effects of your actions on other people. RA rejects imposed rules; it does not reject consent, care, or responsibility.

Political parallel:

No state means no centralized authority governing everyone from above.
It does not mean no ethics, no consequences, no agreements, no community response, or no responsibility for harm.

Relationship parallel:

No relationship hierarchy means no default authority from labels like partner, primary, lover, or spouse.
It does not mean no honesty, no disclosure, no boundaries, no care, or no accountability.

So yes: without a state, someone could betray or exploit.

But if they do, they are not practicing anarchist cooperation.
They are just using the absence of state authority to dominate someone informally.

Same in RA:

Without default relationship rules, someone could hide, mislead, or hurt.

But if they do, they are not practicing relationship anarchy.
They are just using the absence of labels/rules to avoid accountability.

In RA, consent is what replaces imposed structure. That means people need enough truth to choose what they are actually agreeing to.

No consent = no voluntary association.
No voluntary association = not Relationship Anarchy.

This is where disclosure matters. Disclosure means being clear about the relationship reality they are consenting to.

For example, there are two different kinds of consent:

Consent to reality:
“I know what is happening, and I choose whether I want to stay in this relationship.”

Consent to uncertainty:
“I know I will not be told certain things, and I choose whether I accept that kind of relationship.”

Consent to uncertainty:
I don't want to know about these things and I choose not to be told these things and accept that kind of relationship.

So non-disclosure can only be consensual if the non-disclosure itself is disclosed.

For example: “I cannot offer disclosure about other emotional or sexual connections. If we continue, you would be consenting to not knowing those things.”

That can be consent, because both people know the structure they are entering.

The paradox now I have been looping on is how can people consent to not knowing the real emotional reality when they don't know what they are consenting to. Can you truly consent to non-disclosure about anything romantic/sexual when let's say if Kris chooses not to tell you that she has been with 1 or 200 men and 1 of them has given her an STI, and therefore you: Shouldn't disclosure be - this affects you I will tell you. So non-disclosure means - even if this affects you I won't tell you. So how do people consent to emotional realities that they don't know of? Paradox Paradox Paradox. I'm stuck here.

I’m also curious how other people define these words for themselves: please comment if you have your own version that differs extremely from your own version or if you have anything different tbh. Those who made it this far with me, not only through this post but through the last 2 - Wow! Thanks for discussing all these with me, I just really love to analyse and break apart things and ask it why it's functioning the way it is and I think RA has a little bit of that heh.

Hilarious how it took me 5 years to figure out the RA relationship I have been calling is not RA at all. It was really us first starting out as FWB, then adopting the RA idea of making the agreement what we want it to be but then everytime I asked what agreements shall we have - Kris just kept saying: Idk what agreements/parameters I want, or what agreements I will be open to, idk what commitments I want to make, idk what labels to call us and i also don't want to define agreements because freedom is how I operate, I want fluidity but right now I love you and i care for you as a romantic and sexual partner and i want you in my life even if we were just friends (lol i wanted friendship and she said she doesn't think i'm ready to be friends and said we should be friends when we are ready which basically meant she cut me entirely out of her life) so as a person who doesn't like to accurately define anything, will you sign this non-disclosure to consent to not knowing if something will emotionally affect you - ie romantic/sexual feelings I have with someone arising, ie deciding how much time i have for you, deciding how I secretly rank the people in my life without telling you because if you sign consent to non-disclosure, I can do anything I want.

So if anything goes-no disclosure, you are consenting to you can do anything you want which is leave the relationship if you want, abandon the person, prioritise anybody you want from your own choice - the consent loop is back ugh - help me out pls!

Update: I rewrote this MUCH more clearly here: https://www.reddit.com/r/relationshipanarchy/comments/1tavsoc/the_relationship_anarchist_paradox/.
I’m not replying on this version anymore because the newer post states the question better.

TLDR: I rewrote this because my first post was too long. Core question: when does “no labels / no hierarchy / fluidity” function as real RA, and when does it become ambiguity that lets an open NM relationship borrow ENM/RA language without the care that makes it ethical?

Kris and Sadie had a 4-year open / ENM / RA-adjacent relationship. It began as loose FWB, but became emotionally partner-like: sex, love, care, jealousy, repair, conflict, grief, regular contact, and breakup-level pain. In practice, it sometimes felt almost primary-partner-like, though Kris rejected partner/girlfriend labels. Kris introduced Sadie to ENM/RA language: no ownership, no default hierarchy, no fixed labels, freedom, organic connection, friends becoming lovers, lovers becoming friends, love moving between forms. Sadie found this beautiful. She was not asking for monogamy under another name. She was open to Kris dating others, having meaningful FWBs, feeling attraction elsewhere, and building other connections. Sadie also understood non-hierarchy emotionally: no lover automatically outranks family, and love for a niece, mother, ex-girlfriend, current girlfriend, friend, or chosen family cannot be measured on one ladder.

But Sadie still wanted a primary-connection style of ENM: not ownership, veto, or control, but practical clarity around time, care, sex, nesting, repair, disclosure, and how other connections affected the existing one. That was the mismatch. Sadie thought they were doing RA inside an ENM ethic. RA meant no default labels or ownership. ENM meant informed consent, communication, disclosure, mutual legibility, and care around impact. Kris may have been offering low-agreement RA/NM. Sadie thought they were building ENM/RA.

This is the difference Sadie is trying to name: language RA says no labels, no hierarchy, no ownership, no default scripts, freedom. Practical RA asks what is actually being offered, what care exists, what gets disclosed, what changes matter, how time is shared, who gets emotional access, and who carries impact. Language RA can sound radical while doing little work. Practical RA replaces default rules with self-authored clarity. Openness alone is NM. Openness plus informed, legible participation is ENM.

Sadie repeatedly asked: what are we, what am I to you, what does openness mean, what are the boundaries? Kris often answered with no labels, no hierarchy, organic feeling, fluidity, and “see how it goes.” But the emotional reality was not casual. Kris could say Sadie felt like a partner, while refusing partner/girlfriend language. Sadie was close enough to be loved like a partner, but not clear enough to be named as one. The feelings grew. The structure did not.

The 2024 breakup/FWB conversation exposed the contradiction. Sadie tried to define the relationship as FWB so she could adjust expectations and stop organising herself around a relationship Kris would not name. Kris pushed back, saying reducing it to FWB immediately, with no mourning period, felt fucked up because she saw it as a breakup. Emotionally, Kris wanted the ending recognised as a breakup. Structurally, the relationship had never been named clearly enough to break up from. Sadie’s response was basically: how can there be a breakup if they were never technically together? That did not mean nothing existed. It meant the ambiguity had become absurd: emotionally real enough to grieve, undefined enough to avoid accountability.

That is the asymmetry. When Sadie needed clarity, the relationship stayed fluid: no labels, no hierarchy, no fixed terms. When clarity protected Kris, categories appeared: breakup, friendship, after the breakup. The relationship was too real to be casual when Kris wanted closeness, but too undefined to create responsibility when Sadie needed clarity. Fluidity protected Kris’s possibility. Definition protected Kris’s distance.

The central rupture involved Don. Don was one of Kris’s best friends and also Kris’s ex. They dated when Don was around 19, for about 2 years, and he was the only guy Kris had dated. Don had also been a conflict point in Kris’s previous 4-year monogamous relationship with Fish. As Sadie understood it, Kris had lied to Fish by saying she was not seeing Don when she actually was. So Don already had a history where friendship, secrecy, romance, and partner distress blurred. Sadie believed Don was a best friend Kris had no feelings for anymore. Sadie was not trying to ban a best friend. She was trying to understand a loaded friendship that had already caused conflict before.

Don and Sadie are the same age, in the same industry, and had worked together before Sadie met Kris. Don had described Sadie to Kris as cool the first time Sadie met Kris. Sadie picked Kris up from Don’s house, where Kris had been hanging out with Don and another friend. There was also Nez, another ex. Nez was less central, but had a similar trigger profile: same age as Sadie, same industry, someone Sadie had met before Kris, and still present enough that Kris met her sometimes. Kris said it felt platonic to her, while joking Nez probably felt more. Fish did not trigger Sadie the same way. Fish was an ex too, but Fish was not in Sadie’s primary industry, just more secondary, had not met Sadie before Kris, was not the same age, and did not sit inside Sadie’s social/professional orbit. So the trigger was not “Kris has exes.” The trigger was socially close, same-age, same-industry exes still present in Kris’s life. Sadie was honest about her feelings towards those two triggers to Kris.

Kris repeatedly framed Don as physically close but platonic. There was a cat-sitting situation where Kris invited Don over and framed cuddling as platonic. Kris and Don also went on a roughly 3-week overseas road/workaway trip in late 2024 after the first “breakup”: road travel, campsites, one-week farm/workaway, shared daily rhythms, and final city/party return. Sadie accepts that friends can cuddle, travel, and be physically close. She also accepts that in RA, “platonic” is not a permanent safety guarantee. Friends can become lovers. Lovers can become friends. Physical closeness can shift. But Don was high-impact because of the full pattern: prior intimacy, prior conflict, best-friend status, physical closeness, travel, repeated “just friends” framing, Sadie’s discomfort, same age, and industry overlap. Don was not forbidden. Sadie had no veto. But he was not ordinary. This was not about Kris being bi or dating others. Sadie had disclosure around Kris dating or being involved with women and did not experience it the same way. The issue was Don specifically: history, conflict, closeness, travel, overlap, repeated reassurance.

Kris and Sadie de-escalated/broke up around mid-2025. Right after that, Kris went overseas for about 3 weeks on a trip planned about a year earlier, including an 11-day festival / nature-party context. Around late September 2025, Kris told Sadie by video call that she was seeing Don. Later, Kris said the feelings were recent and post-breakup. Sadie understood this as around the 11-day festival, roughly 2 months before disclosure. The technical argument is clear: they were broken up, so Kris did not owe partner-level disclosure. If Don had been a random new person after a clean breakup, this would be easier. But Don was not random, and the breakup was not clean. Don had been loaded for years. Kris had repeatedly framed him as platonic. Sadie had repeatedly tried to understand that connection. So the issue is not that Kris dated someone after the breakup. The issue is that Kris dated the exact person who had been loaded throughout the relationship, repeatedly framed as platonic, and Sadie was told only once it became a formed outcome.

That is why outcome disclosure was not enough. Outcome disclosure is: “I am seeing Don.” Process disclosure would be: “Something may be shifting with Don. I do not fully know what it is yet, but I know he has been loaded in our dynamic, so I am telling you before this becomes a formed reality.” Kris did not need Sadie’s permission. Don did not need to be banned. But Sadie needed enough reality to decide her own emotional and sexual proximity to Kris. That is the consent issue: not consent over Kris, not consent over Don, but consent over Sadie’s own continued closeness to Kris.

After disclosure, Sadie asked what was happening with Don: FWB, dating, romantic, sexual? Kris answered: no labels, no terms, just seeing how it goes. Kris did not need to call Don a boyfriend. But “no labels” did not answer the real question: romantic, sexual, emotionally significant, still just friends, changing availability? In that context, “no labels” was not liberation. It was low-resolution information.

Kris rejected hierarchy in theory. But hierarchy can appear through function: privacy, time, ambiguity, disclosure, protection, and who receives consequences later. Don’s connection got privacy, ambiguity, and time. Sadie got the impact after the fact. Kris’s freedom was protected. Don’s ambiguity was protected. Sadie’s clarity was not. That does not mean Don was officially primary. It means one connection got protection while another received consequences. Practical hierarchy existed without hierarchy labels.

Sadie’s part is clear too. Sadie stayed too long. She kept trying to get clarity from someone who was not offering it. She treated emotional intimacy as evidence of hidden commitment. That was her mistake. The lack of definition was information. If someone is not offering definition, disclosure, or care in the needed form, love does not create those things.

What I am taking from this now:

1. I had enough information to know the structure was not safe for me, but not enough information to understand the specific emotional reality I was consenting to. Those are different things. I knew Kris resisted labels and clear agreements. I did not clearly know what our relationship functionally was, what Don functionally was, or when the Don situation stopped being “platonic best friend” and became emotionally relevant.
2. The relationship itself was not legible. It was not casual: there was sex, love, care, repair, jealousy, grief, and breakup-level pain. Kris could say I felt like a partner, but would not call me one. When I tried to define it down as FWB, that was treated as fucked up because Kris saw it as a breakup needing mourning. So emotionally, I was being asked to treat the relationship as real; structurally, I was being asked to accept that it had no clear name.
3. “No labels” did not give functional information. I did not need a perfect title. I needed to know what the relationship meant in practice: what care existed, what changes mattered, what openness required, what would be disclosed, and how much emotional availability was actually being offered. “No labels / see how it goes” left those questions unresolved.
4. I received outcome disclosure, not process disclosure. I was eventually told, “I’m seeing Don.” What I did not get was, “Something may be shifting with Don.” I did not need permission over Kris or Don. I needed enough reality to decide whether I still wanted emotional/sexual closeness with Kris while that shift was happening.
5. The breakup made the timeline technically cleaner, but not emotionally clearer. “It happened after the breakup” answers the status question. It does not answer the process question: when did Don become emotionally relevant again, and was I given enough reality to make choices while our relationship was still emotionally entangled?
6. So the consent issue is not “I had a right to control Kris.” I did not. The issue is that my own choices about closeness were made inside ambiguity. I was consenting to one picture: undefined but loving relationship, Don as platonic best friend. The reality later looked more complicated: undefined relationship, unclear duties, high-impact best friend/ex shifting into romance, disclosed only once it became an outcome.

Ultimate lesson #1.
When someone uses RA language without doing RA practical work, run. “No labels,” “no hierarchy,” “fluidity,” “this can become anything,” and “love can go anywhere” are not enough by themselves. If there is no practical discussion of care, disclosure, time, sex, priority, repair, and impact, then the language can become a beautiful way to avoid defining the relationship. Sadie should have ran the moment RA became only language, not practice. Sadie needed to leave when Kris’ love was unsafe for her.

2. Emotional intimacy is not proof of commitment. Sex, love, care, grief, jealousy, repair, and tenderness can all be real without creating the structure Sadie needed. If the offer is unclear, the offer is unclear. Love does not secretly create a contract.

3. Ambiguity is not neutral. If something is intimate enough to receive love, sex, care, loyalty, and grief, but vague enough to deny responsibility, ambiguity becomes a shield.

4. “No hierarchy” is not the same as no practical priority. Hierarchy can appear through privacy, time, disclosure, protection, and who receives consequences later. Don did not need to be called primary to be protected in practice.

5. “Platonic” is not a safety guarantee in RA. Friends can become lovers. Physical closeness can shift. But when a connection is already high-impact, that shift needs earlier honesty.

6. ENM is not just NM with nicer words. NM means other connections can happen. ENM requires enough information for people to choose their own participation clearly. Without legibility, it is openness, not ethical openness.

My lesson is still that I should have left earlier. The lack of clarity was information. But the reason it felt so wrong is that ambiguity was not neutral. It made the relationship emotionally real enough to keep me attached, but structurally vague enough that responsibility became hard to locate.

The argument:

This is not about Kris owing Sadie anything. She did not. This is not about Don being forbidden. He was not. This is not about whether Sadie should have left earlier. She should have.

The question is: if a relationship is emotionally partner-like but structurally undefined, and one person uses ENM/RA language while refusing clear structure, can ambiguity itself become ethically problematic?

Can “no labels / no hierarchy / no structure” keep someone emotionally close while avoiding responsibility for the closeness? At what point is it valid low-agreement RA/NM, and at what point is ambiguity functioning as protection?

Forum question: where is the ethical line between low-agreement RA/NM and ambiguity that prevents someone from clearly consenting to the relationship they are actually in?

Ok, let’s discuss!

TLDR - Just a person ranting on a 4-year Non-Ethical Non-Monogamy (NENM) / Non-Ethical Relationship Anarchy (NERA) relationship that burst into flames.

TLStillR - If you have the time, let me know what you think.

This is a case study of a long-term intimate relationship that used the language of ENM and RA but did not build the procedures that make those structures ethical. Kris and Sadie’s relationship was emotionally intimate, sexually involved, and partner-like in practice, yet unstable in definition. Sadie repeatedly asked for parameters, boundaries, and clarity. Kris repeatedly preferred freedom, no labels, organic feeling, space, and conceptual language, introducing openness and the world of ENM/RA to Sadie. The result was not true ethical openness, but a relationship where freedom existed without enough accountability.

The central rupture involved Don. Don was not a neutral outside connection. He had prior romantic and sexual history with Kris; he had already been a conflict point in Kris’s previous relationship with Fish; he was a recurring anxiety point for Sadie; he worked in the same broader industry orbit as Sadie; Don was therefore not a later intrusion into the relationship. He was present at its origin scene.

Over time, Kris repeatedly framed Don as physically close but platonic. The record includes multiple contexts of closeness: private hangouts, a cat-sitting situation at a friend’s place where Kris invited Don over and framed their cuddling as platonic, a roughly three-week overseas road/workaway trip in late 2024, and later an overseas 11-day nature party trip in mid-to-late 2025. Kris eventually disclosed by video call in late September 2025 that she was seeing Don. Later, Kris described the renewed romantic feelings for Don as recent and post-breakup. Sadie understood this as meaning the feelings had emerged around the overseas nature party trip, roughly two months before disclosure.

The argument is not that Kris definitely cheated, lied, or maliciously deceived Sadie. The strongest argument is more precise: Kris practiced a form of openness that became procedurally non-ethical. Don was high-impact and should have triggered earlier disclosure, clearer naming, and specific care. Instead, Kris relied on the language of freedom, no labels, and unexpected feelings. Her love may have been sincere, but sincerity did not make it ethically sufficient.

I. The Relationship Problem

Kris and Sadie’s relationship occupied a difficult space. It was not conventionally labelled, yet it was not casual. It involved sex, affection, emotional dependence, grief, repair attempts, jealousy, daily or near-daily contact, and the kind of significance that made its rupture feel like a breakup.

The central problem was not simply that the relationship lacked a label. A relationship can be ethical without conventional labels. The problem was that the absence of labels was not replaced by clear custom agreements. Ethical Relationship Anarchy does not mean no commitment. It means deliberately chosen commitment. Ethical Non-Monogamy does not mean anything goes. It means that everyone affected by the structure has enough information and agency to consent to it.

Sadie repeatedly asked for definition and boundaries. She asked what the relationship was, what she was to Kris, whether openness meant anything goes, and what parameters would make the relationship safe. Kris often answered from a philosophical register: love should be free, labels should not trap people, people should return because they want to, and feelings should determine the relationship rather than terms determining the feelings. This was beautiful language, but it often failed to become procedure.

The relationship therefore produced a painful contradiction: it was emotionally real enough to wound like a partnership, but undefined enough to be technically denied. When Sadie later said they had “never been together,” that should not be read as equal investment in ambiguity. It was sarcasm, grief, and protest. Sadie had repeatedly tried to define the relationship. Kris’s ambiguity was structural; Sadie’s ambiguity was reactive.

II. ENM, RA, NENM, & NERA

Ethical Non-Monogamy (ENM) is romantic or sexual non-exclusivity practiced with informed consent, honesty, communication, and care. The ethical part is not the mere fact that multiple connections exist. The ethical part is that everyone affected has enough information to understand and consent to the reality they are in.

Relationship Anarchy (RA) rejects default hierarchy. It challenges the assumption that romantic partners automatically outrank friends, that sex creates ownership, or that labels should determine what people owe each other. But mature RA does not reject commitment. It rejects automatic commitment and replaces it with custom commitment.

Non-Ethical Non-Monogamy (NENM) occurs when a relationship is technically open but lacks the practices required for meaningful consent. It may involve delayed disclosure, under-disclosure, unclear agreements, or treating high-impact people as ordinary connections. NENM is not always cheating. Sometimes it is eventual truth delivered too late.

Non-Ethical Relationship Anarchy (NERA) occurs when RA language is used without RA accountability. It happens when “no labels” replaces clarity, when “no hierarchy” hides practical prioritization, when “freedom” protects one person’s autonomy while another person absorbs the emotional cost, and when rejecting default scripts is not followed by building better agreements.

Kris’s conduct around Don fits these concepts because Don was not a neutral outside person. He was a known relational risk. Ethical practice would have required more care than ordinary disclosure after the fact.

III. Don as the Origin Scene and the Messy-List Person

Don’s significance was not retrospective. He was present from the beginning. Before Sadie and Kris met in person, Don and Sadie had already worked together. Don had described Sadie to Kris as cool. The first time Sadie met Kris, Sadie picked Kris up from Don’s house, where Kris had been hanging out with Don and another friend.

This means Don was part of the relationship’s first geography. He was not a random later rival. He existed at the origin of Kris and Sadie’s relational world. Don also had prior romantic and sexual history with Kris when they were much younger. He had already been a source of conflict in Kris’s earlier relationship with Fish. This is crucial because Kris’s history with Don was not merely an innocent old friendship that others irrationally misunderstood. Kris herself had acknowledged that her contact with Don had previously been a problem in her four-year monogamous relationship with Fish, including a lack of full transparency around that contact. In other words, Don had already appeared once before as the figure around whom Kris’s ideals of friendship, closeness, privacy, and disclosure became ethically unstable.

That prior Fish history matters because it gave Sadie a reason to treat Don not as a neutral friend, but as a repeating relational pattern. Sadie’s fear was not simply, “Kris might like someone else.” It was closer to: “This specific person has already been the site of hiddenness, conflict, explanation, and blurred boundaries in Kris’s past. Why should I assume the same structure is safe now?”

Sadie repeatedly identified Don as a trigger point. This was not a vague insecurity spread across all of Kris’s friendships or all potential lovers. Sadie could tolerate the abstract idea that Kris might have other attractions, other sexual encounters, or other forms of connection. Don was different. Don had history, physical closeness, social overlap, prior conflict with Fish, and possible future professional collision with Sadie. That made Don a high-impact person.

This distinction also matters because Sadie’s distress was not rooted in Kris being bisexual, nor in Kris dating. Sadie was broadly able to tolerate Kris’s attraction to, flirting with, dating, or sexual/romantic involvement with women. Part of the shock was that Sadie had come to understand Kris as less oriented toward men, or at least less likely to pursue men romantically in a way that would threaten their relationship. Don therefore landed differently. The injury was not “Kris likes men” or “Kris is bi.” The injury was: “The one man who was already a repeated trigger, already historically charged, already tied to Fish, already physically close, already in my industry orbit, and already explained away as just a friend, is now the person you are seeing.”

That is why the disclosure felt like a sucker punch. It was not a rejection of Kris’s sexuality. It was the collapse of a specific reassurance structure. Sadie could make room for Kris’s queerness, freedom, and attraction to women; what destabilized her was the realization that Don, the person she had repeatedly been told not to worry about, had become the romantic or sexual development.

In ethical non-monogamy, this distinction is essential. Not every outside connection carries the same ethical weight. A stranger, a casual date, a passing flirtation, a close friend, an ex-lover, and a same-industry former intimate all require different levels of disclosure and care. Don belonged to the category that should have triggered heightened procedure. He was a “messy-list” person: not necessarily forbidden, but ethically non-ordinary.

IV. Physical Closeness Framed as Friendship

A major feature of the case is Kris’s repeated framing of Don as physically close but platonic. The issue is not that friends cannot cuddle, travel, drink, party, sleep near each other, or share domestic space. They can. The issue is that Don was not an ordinary friend. He was a former intimate partner, a known conflict point in Kris’s relationship with Fish, a recurring trigger point for Sadie, a person in Sadie’s industry orbit, and someone who later became romantic or sexual again.

The chat history includes several contexts that made Sadie’s anxiety understandable. In mid-2024, Kris was cat-sitting at a friend’s place where she was allowed to stay. Kris invited Don over, and the situation included what Kris framed as platonic cuddling. This mattered because the ambiguity was not merely verbal. It appeared in domestic space, bodily closeness, and private invitation. Kris’s account may have been sincere: she may really have experienced that closeness as friendly. But sincerity does not erase the ethical significance of the context. When someone is already a trigger point, “we cuddled platonically” does not land as neutral information. It lands as another instance where the boundary between friendship and intimacy depends entirely on Kris’s internal definition.

There was also a later overseas road/workaway trip in late 2024. Kris and Don travelled together for roughly three weeks. The trip appears to have included several distinct phases: a road-trip phase, a camping or campsite phase, a one-week farm or workaway period, and a final city return that included partying. The travel involved long drives, limited connection while on roads or at campsites, shared daily rhythms, and practical dependence. Kris described arriving overseas, driving hours to an initial campsite, being on the road, spending time in rural or farm settings, and later returning toward the city. The workaway portion lasted about one week, and the broader trip lasted roughly three weeks.

The farmhouse/workaway detail is especially important because it changes the emotional meaning of the trip. A workaway is not simply tourism. It involves shared routine: waking up, doing tasks, eating, resting, moving around the same space, meeting the same people, and living inside a temporary domestic structure. The chat suggests that the trip included farm life, a bus used as accommodation, snacks, watching shows, photos, driving, and the final return to a city or party environment. Even if nothing romantic happened, this was an extended intimacy-producing setting.

The road trip also matters because road trips compress people. Long drives, campsites, shared navigation, fatigue, boredom, novelty, and isolation create a kind of temporary couple-like rhythm even between people who call themselves friends. Again, this does not prove romance. But it does mean Sadie was not unreasonable to experience Kris and Don’s closeness as relationally significant. A former intimate partner travelling with Kris for roughly three weeks, sharing rural life and road-trip intimacy, is not ethically equivalent to a casual friend appearing at a group dinner.

Sadie’s concern was therefore not simply, “You have a friend.” It was closer to: “This person has history with you, conflict around him has happened before, you have hidden or blurred things around him before, you are physically close with him, you cuddle with him, you travel with him, he appears in your photos and stories, he is in my industry orbit, and you keep telling me it is just friendship.”

The ethical issue is not that Kris was forbidden from having a physically affectionate friendship with Don. The issue is that she repeatedly treated her own internal certainty — “this is platonic to me” — as enough. But in ethical non-monogamy, especially with a high-impact person, internal certainty is not enough. The other affected partner needs process, context, and timely disclosure. Otherwise, “platonic” becomes a word that protects the person defining the situation more than the person affected by it.

When Don later became romantic or sexual, the earlier “just physically close friend” framing became difficult for Sadie to trust. The past did not necessarily prove deceit, but it became retrospectively unstable. Sadie could look back at the cat-sitting cuddling, the road/workaway trip, the farmhouse routines, the travel photos, the parties, and the repeated insistence that Don was only a friend, and feel that her nervous system had been reading a risk that Kris kept translating into innocence.

V. The Breakup and the July Trip

By mid-2025, Kris described the relationship as misaligned. She said she loved Sadie and wanted Sadie in her life, but felt that their open relationship had become strained because they had two different approaches. Kris said that who she was and how she lived her life was hurting Sadie, and that Sadie seemed to be tolerating pain just to keep the relationship. Kris eventually said she wanted space and did not want to be in a relationship at that time. Around mid-July, Kris referred to the situation as a breakup.

After this de-escalation, Kris went overseas for roughly three weeks. Within that broader trip was an 11-day nature party trip. This was not a neutral coffee or ordinary social interaction. It involved partying in nature, drinking or intoxication, fun, altered routines, distance from ordinary life, social immersion, extended proximity, and being around her sisters and loved ones. Such a context can intensify connection because people are removed from ordinary structures and placed in heightened emotional, physical, and social conditions.

Sadie later understood Kris’s renewed feelings for Don as emerging around this 11-day nature party trip. Kris later said the romantic feelings for Don began recently, after the breakup.

This timing is the heart of the ethical issue. Even if Kris experienced the feelings as unexpected, Don was already high-impact. In such a case, the disclosure threshold should have been lower. Kris did not need to ask Sadie for permission to feel something. But ethical care required earlier process-disclosure: “Something may be shifting with Don, and I know that matters because Don is not neutral.”

The Disclosure

Kris disclosed Don to Sadie through a video call around late September 2025, roughly two months after the nature party trip and a little more than two months after Kris and Sadie had officially de-escalated into friendship. The structure, as Sadie understood it, was that Kris called, asked whether Sadie wanted to know if Kris was seeing anyone, and then told Sadie that she was seeing Don. This matters because Kris did not disclose a vague emerging uncertainty. She disclosed an already nameable development: she was seeing someone, and that person was Don.

Kris then explained that the development had not been planned or expected. She said she took responsibility, that unexpectedness described her personal experience, that she wanted to tell Sadie personally rather than by text, and that she had always been choosing in the moment. She also maintained that she and Don had been hanging out platonically with no agenda for years.

This may be sincere but sincerity does not answer the procedural injury. Sadie did not merely need to know once the fact had formed. Sadie needed to know while the reality was forming, especially because Don was high-impact. Kris’s disclosure failed not because it was entirely dishonest, but because it arrived too late in the ethical sequence. This is the core of NENM in the case: “I told you” is not always enough if the other person experiences it as “you told me after the part that mattered.”

VII. No Labels as Opacity

A few days after the disclosure, Sadie asked Kris what was happening with Don. Was it friends with benefits? Was it dating? Was it romantic or sexual? Kris replied in her usual frame: no labels, no terms, just seeing how it goes.

This response is the clearest example of NERA. Kris did not need to call Don a boyfriend. Ethical RA does not require conventional labels. But it does require meaningful description. Kris could have said: there are romantic feelings; there is sexual involvement; this is emotionally meaningful; I do not know what it will become; I understand Don is high-impact. Instead, “no labels” functioned as opacity. No labels can be liberating when everyone has clarity. But when one person is asking for reality after a high-impact disclosure, no labels can become a refusal to name what matters.

VIII. Hidden Hierarchy

Kris rejected hierarchy in language, but hierarchy still appeared in practice. Hierarchy is not only titles like primary, partner, or girlfriend. It is also produced through timing, privacy, disclosure, emotional investment, and who receives protection from discomfort.

If Don’s connection with Kris was allowed to develop privately while Sadie was told later, then Don received a kind of practical protection. The emerging Don connection had time and privacy. Sadie received the consequence. That is not formal hierarchy, but it is practical hierarchy. This is a central failure of immature non-hierarchy. It refuses hierarchy as a label while allowing hierarchy to emerge invisibly through conduct.

IX. Kris’s Experience and the Feedback Loop

A fair analysis must acknowledge Kris’s experience. Kris felt that Sadie’s questions about Don were negative, persistent, intrusive, and emotionally unsafe. She said that even when she and Don were just friends, attempts to talk about Don often led to tension and arguments. This matters. Sadie’s need for clarity was legitimate, but the way the questions were asked could feel interrogative.

However, this does not erase the disclosure failure. It reveals the feedback loop. Because Don was charged, Sadie asked more anxiously. Because Sadie asked anxiously, Kris felt less safe disclosing. Because Kris disclosed less or later, Sadie became more suspicious. The cycle made process-disclosure harder precisely where it was most necessary. Kris had the right to boundaries and space. But space cannot become the default answer to the very questions that make consent possible.

X. The Ethical Failure

The central ethical failure is not that Kris desired Don. The central ethical failure is that Kris treated Don as ordinary freedom when he represented foreseeable harm. Kris’s model asks to be judged by sincerity: she did not plan it, did not expect it, told Sadie personally, took responsibility, and believed she was honest. But ethical non-monogamy requires more than sincere self-reporting. It requires timely reality-sharing.

Sadie’s hurt was not simply jealousy. It was epistemic injury: the feeling of having been asked to trust a “just friends” account of Don, only to later discover that Don had become romantic or sexual after the breakup, with feelings understood as emerging around a high-intimacy overseas party context. This made Sadie re-read the past. Earlier reassurances became unstable. Prior anxieties appeared retrospectively validated. The strongest claim is not that Kris definitely cheated. The strongest claim is that Kris’s conduct was procedurally non-ethical: she disclosed too late, failed to treat Don as messy-list, and used non-label language where accountable clarity was required.

XI. The Hard Lesson

The hardest lesson of this case is that love without ownership still requires duties.

Kris and Sadie lived inside an undefined relationship, but they did not relate to ambiguity in the same way. Kris often treated ambiguity as freedom: no labels, no hierarchy, no fixed promises, organic connection, return by choice. Sadie experienced ambiguity as instability. She repeatedly asked for definition, parameters, and boundaries, but nothing concrete enough emerged. Instead, the conversations often became beautiful but non-operational: freedom, non-possession, mismatch, space, care, and love without the practical agreements that would have made those ideals safe.

When Sadie said they had “never been together,” it should be read as sarcasm and grief, not as proof that Sadie equally wanted ambiguity. It was the bitter logic of the undefined structure turned back on itself. If the relationship had never been named, then even its ending could be denied. That is the cruelty of ambiguity: it allows something to be emotionally real while remaining technically deniable.

The 1st lesson is that a relationship does not become less real because it lacks a label. If two people love, touch, grieve, return, fight, repair, sleep together, organize time around each other, and suffer the loss of each other, then something exists. Refusing to name it does not make it casual. It makes the consequences harder to locate.

The 2nd lesson is that elegant relational language can become a substitute for relational procedure. A relationship can speak beautifully about freedom, non-hierarchy, autonomy, and organic connection while still failing the basic ethical task: deciding what people owe each other.

The 3rd lesson is that delayed honesty can still injure like betrayal. In ethical non-monogamy, timing is part of truth. A truth disclosed only after someone has lost access to the process is not the same as a truth disclosed while reality is still forming.

The 4th lesson is that “no labels” is not the same as “no hierarchy.” Hierarchy appears through time, privacy, disclosure, access, protection, and who gets to move first.

The 5th lesson is that high-impact people require lower disclosure thresholds. Exes, former lovers, close friends, coworkers, same-industry people, shared-scene people, and people already tied to conflict cannot be treated like ordinary connections.

The final lesson is this:

Love is not proven by how free it feels to the person practicing it.
Love is tested by how carefully that freedom treats the person affected by it.
Kris’s tragedy is not that she loved freely.
It is that her freedom did not become accountable soon enough.

And the lesson for any ENM or RA is this:

If you reject default rules, you must build better ones.
If you refuse labels, you must offer clarity.
If you love freely, you must disclose early.
If someone is high-impact, you must treat them as high-impact before the damage becomes irreversible.

For those who made it this long - wow. Pros, please comment!

When does having a boundary cross a line and become a veto power in RA relationships?

This has been a topic of conversation my partner, metas, and I are all having right now, and I'm curious about other people's perspectives.

Equitable relationships and the right to say "no that doesn't work for me" is very important to all of us.

I find the line can get blurrier when there's been established plans, and then they get canceled because the other partner has changed their mind on how those plans make them feel. We should be able to process and change our minds about things, but also we gotta respect the couple who had an ok on their plans and are now being asked to cancel them. This scenario hasn't happened in this polycule, but it has in past one's.

What are your experiences with navigating boundaries vs Veto power? How do you distinguish the line between the two?

I have a close friend for whom I have romantic feelings. She has explicitly said that her sexuality does not include my gender, so I have no reason to believe that the romantic feelings are reciprocal. I have not told her about my feelings.

If that was all, I would not need advice, this is a common situation. However, there are many ways in which our relationship confuses me, and I have no idea how to navigate it. For context, she is strictly monogamous, and I don’t think she has been exposed to anything like RA.

She has expressed that I hold a unique position in her life, another “tier” of friendship which she has alternatively referred to as “family” or “like a partner” (the latter with a bit of frustration at herself for consistently prioritizing me over her other friends — so there is some tension for her here).

This prioritization is reciprocal, and I enjoy it. However, I feel unable to discuss it with her explicitly because of my feelings (more on this later). This is a problem because I want to know whether she sees this dynamic continuing in the future (even if she gets a romantic partner). I have been burned in the past by friends disappearing into monogamy, and if this happened here I would be crushed.

I would prefer not to tell her about my romantic feelings, because they do actually cause me a bit of pain in our relationship, but I have decided that it’s worth it — I don’t want her to create distance out of care for me. However, it feels impossible for me to talk with her about our dynamic without acknowledging this factor.

I am interested to hear advice from other relationship anarchists on my situation, and to hear if anyone else has been in a similar spot. Let me know if more info or context is needed for this to make sense.

Amatonormativity seems like something that anarchists would be opposed to as it creates and perpetuates hierarchies. I am regularly actively involved in anarchist spaces and not once have I found someone that talks about RA or amatonormativity. Despite emphasising the importance of rejecting hierarchies and investing in community and friendship, they all seem to value romantic and sexual relationships above others. I really don't understand how they are able to question hierarchies in every other facet of life but not in regard to relationships. It makes me question whether amatonormativity is actually constructed by society and is instead normal as it appears to be so natural for people who otherwise reject societal constructs. I know this isn't true but in both anarchist and non anarchist spaces, I have never heard anyone mention these ideas and I find it incredibly frustrating and I feel so alone.

Amatonormativity seems to be so deeply ingrained in society and I'm not sure if/when we will be free of it. Why is amatonormativity not discussed more in radical spaces? I feel it is something that should have more discussion and action around it but for some reason, even radicals don't want to combat it. Is challenging amatonormativity and encouraging other anarchists to extend their anarchism to relationships worth it? If so, how would one go about it?

EDIT: I understand that within RA, autonomy is a core tenant and individuals are meant to decide for themselves what relationships they want to invest in. My question more so pertains to the lack of questioning around amatonormativity and why it isn't something that is discussed more. In anarchist spaces, I have found that amatonormativity is seen as normal and even expected. They have made comments about my own romantic relationships basically saying that it must come above others and because it doesn't, it isn't healthy. This doesn't seem to be in line with anarchist thinking in my mind and is why I was compelled to make this post.

Recently (4ish months) escalated a friendship to a committed sexual relationship and kink dynamic. Currently that is the only partner I have.

I have chronic illness and not a lot of spoons. Most of my spoons go to dr appointments, case manager appointments, and navigating poverty as someone who relies on SSDI (US federal service financially supporting disabled people).

Before becoming too disabled to work after an ABI and subsequent bed rest accelerated my existing disability, I generally was saturated at 5 committed partners. Now I just don't have the capacity and it's frustrating.

I know new/changing relationships take some extra energy for a bit, but it is feeling so taxing.

Wondering if anyone else here deals with chronic illness or disability? And how you balance all that entails with having nourishing deep relationships?

I fortunately do not have too many issues with partners not understanding my lack of spoons. I don't keep hanging out with ppl who have a problem with it bc neither of us will be happy!

Thank you for reading 😊

Hi!

I am a Junior in college writing a paper on relationship anarchy. It is something I am very curious about and would like to delve further into researching. If anyone would be so kind as to allow me to interview them about their experiences with relationship anarchy (especially if they have situational experiences/stories to share), I would appreciate it both on an academic and personal level. I will be sure to change the names of any and all people involved if you so wish to remain anonymous. This topic was sparked from reading Just Kids by Patti Smith and observing her relationship with Robert Mapplethorpe.

I also would love to, if enough people are interested, organize a group video chat so that we can form some kind of community. I know this community is not as recognized as some others, and I would love to help create a space for this community. It is important to note that while I resonate heavily with RA, I have not chosen to identify with that label yet, as it is a very new term to me and I am still collecting information.

My partner told me about their recent experience with my friend with benefits (not sure about the title, might change). It was a threesome, but I was focused on my friend being there. It already has brought me a lot of joy seeing them being cuddled and really being into their conversation. That friend told me she had given up on hoping to have some gay sex one day, but I knew she really wanted that experience and now she's got it.

I love them both, and now I feel so much joy that they're close. Another thing I love, is that me and my partner now both have a close relationship with the same person. The 3 of us also have a plan to go to a 4 day festival together in a few months and now I'm even more excited for it. Just me and my two "girlfriends", I like the sound of that.

Finding out about relationship anarchy has changed my life for the better.

Hi folks. I'm making this post to ask other folks' thoughts on my situation.

So, I'm a longtime believer in relational anarchy. It's something I believe in and practice in my own life, but I have not been in a more-than-platonic relationship in any form in almost six years (and I'm only 24). I read Nordgren's manifesto for the first time back in 2018 or 2019 and it's always resonated with me.

I recently entered a relationship with someone who is also non-monogamous, and though we do & have spent time together in person, it is a very long distance relationship.

This other person is very excited to have a partner that is comfortable with nonmonogamy, as am I. However, I'm struggling to parse out my feelings regarding boundaries and how to communicate them. A significant part of this is rooted in my own anxiety, which I recognize as irrational in the first place, but that doesn't make it feel any better.

I don't think the circumstances are as important as navigating my own feelings are, so I'm going to just ramble about that for a little bit. Maybe writing it out will make me feel better, but I'd love some discussion, too.

When my partner is going out with other folks (not dates, but they're in a friend group with a guy that they have a crush on and they're always trying to flirt with him), I wish they were a bit more communicative. However, I also don't really want to set an expectation that they have to text me at any specific time interval or anything like that - that doesn't feel appropriate, either.

I have general anxiety disorder, and while I'm medicated for it and doing very well most of the time, some things still trigger it. I'm a fairly insecure person and always have been, and there *is* a lurking anxiety that something will happen and my partner will reprioritize someone else over me despite them having been the one to declare that they want me to be their primary partner and that this other stuff is just fun. I believe them - which is why I'm not letting that anxiety get to me, or at least trying not to, but I can't figure out how to talk about this stuff in a way that makes me feel like I'm going to be productive.

The other part is that I'm not really talking to anyone else. They live in an area with FAR more people our age, and I'm living in an area with... quite few young folks, by comparison. There's also a cultural difference between our cities; schools in my state have a reputation for everyone being in relationships and it being impossible to meet other single people that aren't looking for long-term relationships.

I am super excited for them and supportive of where they're at; I want them to enjoy themselves and their life. I don't want them to miss out on experiences they will enjoy to quell my anxiety, but a more monogamous relationship alignment wouldn't do anything to make me feel better anyways. I recently found an awesome new group of friends in my town that I'm hopeful will help fill in some of the gap (I don't have a lot of friends around here and it's quite a lonely place to be tbh). However, literally every single person in that group is in a relationship; it's just how it is around here, I guess.

I dunno. Have other folks been in a position like this? Does anyone have any advice or thoughts?