I'm honestly devastated. This was my first time doing therapy. I saw this therapist for 4 months (2x a week). I felt so close to her. We shared our favorite books and art with each other. She was the first and only person I talked to about the sexual abuse I experienced at the hand of my parent, and she said I was brave for telling her about it. She said that she believed me, and that nothing was too much for therapy.
She said she felt more than equipped to deal with my history of abuse, and she encouraged me to continue speaking about it.
She said I reminded her of her best friend, and that the level of attunement we had was real. She said that I was a rare person. And then a week later she fired me. "It's not possible for us to continue our work together". I never got a termination session, referrals, or an explanation. My psychiatrist reached out to her and asked her to send me an email acknowledging the emotionally charged work we did together. She never responded.
I did some internet searching and I found that she lied to me about her experience, she claimed that she had been a therapist for four years but she actually had gotten her BBS license around a year ago. I am just so devastated. Did she lie to me about everything?, Did she ever care about me? Why was I so easy to discard?
EDIT: Some people have mentioned that pre licensed professionals can work even before receiving their BBS license. Wanted to add that as context for my last paragraph.