
Lymphoma in my 5yo golden girl
This weekend I took my golden retriever to the vet for lumps under her chin, tonight we got the official diagnosis of large cell lymphoma, at least stage 3. My sweet, sweet Daisy girl is only 5, and has only been with us for 4 years. I am crushed. This dog is truly incredible, the closest thing I’ve ever seen to a ray of sunshine - even for a golden. She loves everything and everyone, has never had a bad day, and can be thrown anything without a slight change in temperament. Every day is the best day ever, and the world would be a lot better if we were all like Daisy. She’s got the biggest smile and the biggest heart, she is vibrant and full of joy and all the other adjectives that don’t do her justice.
I’m 6 months pregnant with my husband and I’s first baby, and she’s supposed to be around to help me raise him. I counted on waking up together for feedings, picked out a stroller keeping in mind my favorite walking buddies, and having the perfect dog for my son to grow up with. Instead I feel so robbed of all the memories we probably won’t be able to make together, and how huge of a loss it would be to lose my happy, sweet girl. She has so much life in her spirit, I can’t wrap my head around the possibility that she might not have much time to live it. I’m mostly grieving for me and all that my family could miss out on without her in our lives, but I am also so devastated for this incredible girl who deserves a long, healthy, happy life full of memories.
Coming here to vent because I don’t know what else to do, but also some advice on coping with the grief I’m feeling. We are located in the Bay Area if anyone has any oncology recommendations. Looking to treat this thing depending on how the rest of her testing comes back. less