r/HealthAnxiety

I have severe white coat syndrome,it happened during pregnancy they did all sort of tesrs all came back normal..I had followup with cardiologist after delivery he ran some tests..said it's white coat syndrome..I have PCP appointment tomorrow first time after the pregnancy,I am sure my heartrate and bp will skyrocket,heartrate goes till 150 due to panick

.I already have my home readings,which I am going to share..I am stressed that after the reading they will send me to ER. anyone who are successful to calm their nerves down at doctors..tell me some tips

So I’ve just started seeing a new therapist for a separate issue unrelated to HA but I intend to bring it up at some point but I am afraid. I have seen other therapists in the past who dismissed it as hormonal anxiety or something else completely unrelated. It’s really frustrating for me because I feel permanently invalidated now.

I’ve been experiencing HA since I was around 7 years old, my first bad episode was after watching an episode on TV where a cartoon character went to the hospital and received several diagnoses, I didn’t sleep properly for a week and I was extremely of eating as I feared all my food was contaminated. When I was taken to see a doctor It was dismissed and they advised that my parents make sure I eat more. Since then I’ve had several other severe episodes that usually last weeks to a few months. I’m still fearful and paranoid between them but it is not debilitating.

I was referred to a therapist for other reasons when I was 12. During that time I was experiencing a 6 month long episode where I believed I was dying from a specific disease I won’t name, I wrote a will and gave my things away, I had extremely poor grades due to the constant anxiety a very low attendance as I felt physically ill. I had daily panic attacks where I genuinely believed and felt like I was passing away. This was all explained to the therapist who blamed it on my autism or adolescence. While I know that can contribute, I really do not think it is the root cause of such symptoms.

I really want to open up to my new therapist and I am willing to give it a go but I’m so nervous that I will be invalidated. I just want an answer at this point, I don’t want to be asked when my last menstrual cycle was again, I don’t want to be told that it’s all because I’m autistic etc.

Three days ago I felt something under my jaw. Hard, immobile. It's like a grape. Does anyone has similiar experience/?