r/AdultDepression

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I think there’s a chance that after we die, a seemingly infinite amount of time passes before we are reborn as someone or something else, with no recollection of our previous life, and that this process continues forever. Our new life could be anywhere, from our planet to another universe, or even another realm of existence. In this view, everyone who has ever existed and ever will exist is ultimately the same consciousness, but only one lifetime can be experienced at a time, with no memory of the others.

I wrote a long dissertation about this idea when I was in high school after having a sudden “eureka” moment where it all clicked for me. I shared it on several philosophy boards about a decade ago. The title of the dissertation was “Could Separateness and Death Be Illusions?”

It started with me wondering why I see out of my own eyes and not someone else’s. Then I thought: I could just as easily have been born as someone else instead of myself. From there, the idea followed that maybe I am everyone else, just experiencing one life at a time. It all made sense: I am everyone.

My main argument for this hypothesis is simple: if there is enough time for something to happen, it will eventually happen. The idea that there could be something and then nothing, or living followed by permanent nonexistence requires two steps to justify. The idea that there is always something, or simply continued being, requires only one.

But I don’t think this would necessarily be a good thing, because suffering would never truly end. It would mean we could all actually be in hell and not even know it. Imagine experiencing the suffering of every Holocaust victim over and over again forever, again and again without end.

In the meme, the large figure resembles ‘the Universe,’ while the small Digletts connected to its hand represent individual humans who go underground after they die and come back up when the are reborn. The caption ‘The universe pretending to be individuals’ illustrates the philosophical idea that all conscious beings may actually be the same underlying consciousness experiencing itself from different perspectives.

Does anyone else ever think about this and find it frightening? How do you deal with knowing you’re going to suffer forever? 😟

u/Singularitis — 3 days ago

Feeling

A time where I feel completely empty, lazy, energyless, dead almost, sad, and just loser like for no reason, I can't get over my weakness even if I do gym, try to eat clean, anyway, just randomly I get better, then again I suck at it.

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u/Ayyuu-chan — 23 hours ago
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Some people don’t talk much because they learned nobody really listens.

This leads to people becoming quiet after being misunderstood too many times.

u/S0RYUniverse — 3 days ago

Maybe motherhood would heal me?

Is motherhood the cure to loneliness?

TLDR; I'm so lonely I'm starting to think my last option for a relationship is becoming a mom.

Friends in adulthood are busy living their own lives, moving cities, focusing on their careers and whatnot. Most adults don't care to hang out. They have their own social circles established. Or pets they rather be with. Or are just total homebodies.

Didn't realize that friendship is for childhood and if you're not lucky enough to make friends when you're young then you've lost out on a critical period to form authentic relationships. Socializing is a status game for grown ups so if you're high status enough for people to want something from you then all that's left is dating with the goal of starting a family.

Lost of people are getting married and starting families of their own at my age. I didn't realize how easy romance was for other people since I've never been desired. No homecoming date, no prom date, no dating in general, no kiss, still a virgin. Took me a while to realize I'm too ugly to have the experiences other people talk about. Spare me the comments on jUsT hAvE mOrE cOnFidEncE because pretty prividge is a real phenomenon and without it a lot of the experiences we dub as typical for youth are out of reach for most of us.

I used to put myself out there, attended events and try to socialize only to realize no one wants to talk to me. That's the thing about relationships; people have free will and most of them are holding out for better options.

When I hear people talk about how important relationships are I wonder what Im going to do to get over that. Its kinda shocking to me just how many people still talk to their parents at my grown age and how people really do prioritize family over everything else. The premium on blood based relationships cant ever be beat so its got me thinking maybe my saving grace is starting my own family? Like I said earlier Im not hot enough to date so maybe I can find a sperm donor to start the whole process.

Anyone else considering parenthood to finally have someone in their life?

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u/bbgirl2k — 5 days ago

tired all the time at 28?

28F here. I’ve been tired pretty much every day lately and it’s starting to annoy me.

Sleep is okay, diet could be better, stress is probably there too.

Did anyone figure out what was actually making them feel like this? Vitamin D, B12, iron, sleep, something else?

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u/Evafreya — 6 days ago

Hi all. I don’t think I’ve ever posted to this community but I wanted to share my feelings and maybe someone can commiserate/offer hope/just listen.

I’m nearly 40 and have struggled with depression on and off since childhood, but the thing is I’ve also at one point been diagnosed with BPD, so I perpetually tell myself my dark (including suicidal) thoughts are “just for attention”. Over the past few months, my depressive mood seems to have worsened. I used to blame my lack of meaningful activities (I’m unemployed due to multiple disabilities), but lately I’m not so sure that’s the case anymore. I after all do still pursue my hobbies almost daily but I no longer enjoy them. Then I feel guilty for not being able to cherish the good moments I experience. I do write daily positives and negatives (mostly for my support staff to learn about me) and I am still able to write down at least one positive most days, but lately it’s been feeling more like a chore than something that actually helps.

I’m currently more and more considering taking my life or going the end-of-life route (where I live, euthanasia for unbearable and unrelievable suffering due to mental illness is legal). I’m already on the highest dose of an antidepressant and have been for many years. I’m tapering an antipsychotic which I believe is approved as adjuvant to an antidepressant but I was originally prescribed it for autism-related irritability and I’m not sure whether at the higher dose it was actually helping my depression or just making it harder for me to act out my feelings. I mean I’m 100% sure I cry more, make more suicidal comments, nag more about my lacking something to look forward to and me not having (enough) meaningful activities. However, I’m pretty sure my depressed mood has been lingering forever. I’m not currently seeing a psychiatrist and haven’t seen one in years. If I go see one at some point, I’d be open to a med tweak but I honestly never felt non-depressed except for a few months when I was 1. on the highest dose of both my antidepressant and antipsychotic plus two anticonvulsants for anxiety/PTSD and 2. I had far better support than I have now or will ever be able to get again. I’m just not sure there’s going to be any relief…

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u/MrsLadybug1986 — 11 days ago