I was diagnosed with ADHD in 2019 and was promptly prescribed adderall. now, 7 years later, i'm taking 75-100 mg every day just to get to baseline. I'm constantly pissed off and irritated. I can't focus on anything and I have no motivation to do anything. I feel like a shell of my former self. at this point I know i need help, but I won't actively seek it out. i dont know what to do.
For context I took around 75-125mg a day in 10-14 day increments when i got my script, then nothing until my refill. This continued for around 3.5 years.
133 days ago I finished my script and never got it filled again. I was extremely unmotivated for months. Sleeping long hours, eating WAY too much, couldn’t pay attention to anything for more than 5 minutes. Slowly this got better.
Now I actually feel like I have energy again. I do still struggle with ADHD symptoms, especially with executive function, but I’m waaay better. I don’t think I’m where I was before ever taking adderall. I’d probably have to be on 5-10mg to feel like I did before ever doing it, but it used to take me 40-50mg to reach baseline.
Just a warning to people here. The longer you abuse it, the longer it takes your brain to recover. Idk if i’ll ever be myself again, but who knows, maybe in another 100-200 days I’ll feel 100% like my old self
Long story short - many years back, I went 36-40 hours without sleep, about 240mg of adderall, a ton of coffee and nicotine. I started feeling really weird and the had the feeling that I was absolutely losing my mind. It was the ultimate definition of “impending doom”. My first panic attack, or something like it.
I haven’t been the same since. On and off anti depressants, trying to find a way to lower my fear of having another attack.
I feel like that one stimulant binge ruined me.
Anyone have similar experience and been able to make it through to healing? I literally went on an SSRI a few days after that out of doctors concern. I’m wondering if I would have just let my system heal back to baseline, if I would have been better off.
Hey guys , I’m on about day 30 without any adderall cold turkey after about 1 year of heavy use , and I feel worse today then I ever have, even while coming off a binge, is this normal? I feel like I’m in a psychosis or manic state, no sleep and when I close my eyes it’s literally like a trip, flashing Color’s , powerful brainzaps, racing thoughts. Tried taking a few tiny doses of Valium and zopiclone to settle myself, nothing. Does it really get better ?