u/ibjammin4ever

Hi everyone,

I've started to realize that panic attacks I have been having come about after I have thoughts like "what is the meaning of this", or I experience some type of derealization/depersonalization. I don't have the typical panic attack symptoms, meaning I do not have heart palps, raised blood pressure, etc., but I get this overwhelming sense of losing self and losing touch with reality. I've tried to explain this for years to people and I still feel like no one understands. When I say I have a panic attack, it's difficult for me to be understood.

While the panic symptoms are awful, the really hard part is the constant checking/monitoring of my body and thoughts for hours/days after. Does that make sense?

I found this group because someone mentioned DP/DR and existential OCD, which I had never really heard of. Sounds like I might be experiencing something on that spectrum. It's awful. How do you not feel so alone in it? Has anyone had success with therapy, meds, etc. to assist in managing these symptoms or experiences?

This all started years ago when I had a few days of no sleep, a ton of Adderall, caffeine, etc. Haven't been the same since.

Thanks for letting me vent everyone. Maybe some of it makes sense...

Long story short - many years back, I went 36-40 hours without sleep, about 240mg of adderall, a ton of coffee and nicotine. I started feeling really weird and the had the feeling that I was absolutely losing my mind. It was the ultimate definition of “impending doom”. My first panic attack, or something like it.

I haven’t been the same since. On and off anti depressants, trying to find a way to lower my fear of having another attack.

I feel like that one stimulant binge ruined me.

Anyone have similar experience and been able to make it through to healing? I literally went on an SSRI a few days after that out of doctors concern. I’m wondering if I would have just let my system heal back to baseline, if I would have been better off.

Long story short - many years back, I went 36-40 hours without sleep, about 240mg of adderall, a ton of coffee and nicotine. I started feeling really weird and the had the feeling that I was absolutely losing my mind. It was the ultimate definition of “impending doom”. My first panic attack, or something like it.

I haven’t been the same since. On and off anti depressants, trying to find a way to lower my fear of having another attack.

I feel like that one stimulant binge ruined me.

Anyone have similar experience and been able to make it through to healing? I literally went on an SSRI a few days after that out of doctors concern. I’m wondering if I would have just let my system heal back to baseline, if I would have been better off.

Wanted to see if anyone has experienced muscle or joint pain with Pristiq?

I was on 50mg for about a month and a half, but it was making me alarmingly agitated. We decided it was possibly too activating, so lowered to 25 and I’m waiting to see if anything changes.

One thing that I have noticed that is totally new to me is I have increasing muscle soreness and joint pain. I workout at least 5 days a week and vigorous most of the time. Prior to Pristiq soreness was only localized to the place I was working out. Now though….it is all the time, all over.

For reference, I also tapered off Anafranil and Wellbutrin during my transition to Pristiq.

Anyone have similar physical feelings while on this med, or any SNRI for that matter? Curious if it is indeed just to activating for me.