I have no one to talk to
today we’re my class 12 board results. as a pcmb student i scored way more than i expected. i thought id get 60-70% but got 89%. i was as expected very happy, went to my mother beaming with happiness. she muttered a congratulations and told me send her the ss so that she can send it to other ppl. after i sent it she said and i quote “you ruined my sleep by screaming so loudly. this wasn’t even something worth reacting like this to”
hearing that i was very very sad ofc so i went to my room and tried to study for my cuet.
then on que my boyfriend called. from my tone he realised i was sad and asked me what happened. he instead of comforting me or atleast offering fake sympathy decided to tell me how i might be overreacting and how my mother was probably just really tired. now i don’t know if im acting too sensitive but hearing shit like that just made me even more sad so i ended the call and just bawled my eyes for 2 hours. uske baad i decided to study and when i was studying he kept sending me reels abt how much he loved me and what not. i ignored it all.
now my father told me we should go out for dinner and i said no cs i wanted to study i told my mother to just make maggi for me (comfort food hehe) she made it and called me downstairs to eat.
now i have glasses which naturally when i don’t use my eyes hurt hence i used eye drops and went downstairs. she thought i was crying and started yelling at me abt how sensitive i am and i cry at everything and anything even pointless things.
that rlly broke me tbh so i just took my plate and went upstairs.
idek who to talk to in situations like these. whenever something emotionally overwhelming happens to me i just tough it out tho im not sure if thats a good thing
anyways thank you for reading my rant. i feel more lighter now