u/willsomeonesavem3

Hai I wanted to share a little story about my life Im not really looking for Adive or comfort I just wanted to say it.

So im gonna start this by sayyying in CANADA which means I am the age of is my age! So im not looking for sympathy.

To give you a little info I grew up in an emotionally, mentally abusive and sometimes physically abusive household. And my dad is 100% a narcissist and a BUMB AHH creep. So growing up all my life has been s3xu@l from basically the time I was born he was very touchy and did a lot of inappropriate stuff. But ehen I was 13 he FORCED! Me to watch 🟧◼️. A LOT of people say he DIDNT FORCE me to I littarly said "NO" AND "I DONT WANT TO" multiple times before he made me move to turn it on. Nothing came from the report.. I was blamed snd I think this started the spiral

(Ive also been S@'d multiple times and gr00med online many many times from the time i was 13)

But last summer my old therapist reported him, and I moved out to live with my mom full time.

FAST FORWARD to now ive been talking to older guys agian but ive token it a step further... I started to meet with them. Last month my body count was 1 its gone up to 4.

The frist guy I met with was 34. And if course got off to my age he droped me off back at my house then left and blocked me. It was my frist "h00k up" and I felt horrible,sick, disgusting.. but then i did it agian he drove 3 hours to see me he was 23 we meet twice in his car and I have a permanent little scar on my neck from him.

But recently this week I meet a new guy. Ive never gone far from my home. Always in a car on a backroad.. but this guy booked an Airbnb and he came in Monday and is now coming back on Friday.

I told my mom I was sleeping at a "freinds house" im not.

Now here's the thing i dont wanan stop but I know its wrong and these men are definitely creeps but no matter how scared I am I keep doing it. And I know the risks, the danger, of actually being gr@ped or tr#fficed or being killed and honestly I'm hoping for it. Hoping to die. Hoping they hurt me. And im asking for such horrible things for them to do to me. And everytime they leave i want more it dosent satisfie me. Its like Ive become addicted to it, or hypersexual.

Hai I wanted to share a little story about my life Im not really looking for Adive or comfort I just wanted to say it.

So im gonna start this by sayyying im 16 and in CANADA which means I am the age of consent! So im not looking for sympathy.

To give you a little info I grew up in an emotionally, mentally abusive and sometimes physically abusive household. And my dad is 100% a narcissist and a BUMB AHH creep. So growing up all my life has been s3xu@l from basically the time I was born he was very touchy and did a lot of inappropriate stuff. But ehen I was 13 he FORCED! Me to watch 🟧◼️. A LOT of people say he DIDNT FORCE me to I littarly said "NO" AND "I DONT WANT TO" multiple times before he made me move to turn it on. Nothing came from the report.. I was blamed snd I think this started the spiral

(Ive also been S@'d multiple times and gr00med online many many times from the time i was 13)

But last summer my old therapist reported him, and I moved out to live with my mom full time.

FAST FORWARD to now ive been talking to older guys agian but ive token it a step further... I started to meet with them. Last month my body count was 1 its gone up to 4.

The frist guy I met with was 34. And if course got off to my age he droped me off back at my house then left and blocked me. It was my frist "h00k up" and I felt horrible,sick, disgusting.. but then i did it agian he drove 3 hours to see me he was 23 we meet twice in his car and I have a permanent little scar on my neck from him.

But recently this week I meet a new guy. Ive never gone far from my home. Always in a car on a backroad.. but this guy booked an Airbnb and he came in Monday and is now coming back on Friday.

I told my mom I was sleeping at a "freinds house" im not.

Now here's the thing i dont wanan stop but I know its wrong and these men are definitely creeps but no matter how scared I am I keep doing it. And I know the risks, the danger, of actually being gr@ped or tr#fficed or being killed and honestly I'm hoping for it. Hoping to die. Hoping they hurt me. And im asking for such horrible things for them to do to me. And everytime they leave i want more it dosent satisfie me. Its like Ive become addicted to it.