u/weGloomy

My Dr. reccomended a local program that helps with a wombo combo of mental health/medication support for quitting smoking, but I know one of my triggers is social anxiety and all I'm gonna want to do after each appointment is chain smoke. Obviously I can't avoid things that trigger me forever though, so I wonder if it would be better for me overall so they can help me come up with strategies? I've tried cold turkey several times and I just don't have the will power....What are your thoughts on the effectiveness of these kinds of programs?

I'm exhausted. I've been feeling very overwhelmed. I've been waking up from a dead sleep crying, with an overwhelming sense of dread. I had a breakdown at work and started crying and my manager sent me home told me she was reducing my hours to 20/week since im unreliable and need to focus on my mental health. I dont really care because any energy I do have i spend at work, so itll be nice to not have to spend as much but Im not gonna be able to pay my rent and bills so im gonna burn through my savings to supplement my income because I dont have the mental capacity to get a second job. My physical health is failing me and I constantly have stomach upsets and can barely stomach food. I don't have any support. My one and only friend is upset with me because I don't have energy to spend time with him. He came over and I was just flat and could barely rub two thoughts together to make conversation so he left pretty shortly after. I tried explaining that my mental health has been poor but he doesnt really care and I don't really even care that hes upset with me cause who would want to be around me when I'm like this anyway. I have an appointment with my doctor on the 12th and I'm just trying to hang on till then but I'm barely hanging on by a thread. Im just so tired.